James being the black guy in a white rock band in this particular city and this particular coast, elevated him to prime hookup statues. He cheated on me constantly with white groopie girls, some of which would show up at the house asking to see him. Naturally I'd turn into the neck swiveling 'bitch I'll cut you if you come near my man' sista that everyone tells stories about around the pool at country club luncheons. It wasn't a lifestyle I enjoyed. Spending hours looking for weed doesn't seem like an addiction. I would feel rage for wasted nights that centered around whether or not they could find any. On the nights they couldn't find any, they'd just get doubbly drunk. I detest alcohol when it's used to just get numb. The women that would hang with them called themselves 'the bimbos' and rightfully so. They were the stereotypical women who got drunk and could be bed by anyone. Hanging with musicians somehow brought some kind of nobility to the whole sad thing.  These were the girls whom in high school were not pretty or popular, but when they got drunk would earn their popularity on their backs. They'd go through like like this until one of two things happened, either they had a kid and mellowed out or got into an abusive relationship, that made them drink even more. I distanced myself from those trashy hoes from the get go. When I would take off and do my own thing because I hated sitting around watching them get stoned and drunk to no means, we'd fight. Sometimes the fights got physical. James' paranoia increased over time and he'd make up elaborate stories about my cheating when it was acutally him doing the cheating. I opted for the fighting instead of the smoking. Eventally leaving the idiot for good never to return.

It's a twisty windey road smoking weed. It's the most dangerous drug for the simple fact that it (and it's supporters) convince you that it's harmless. Gets you into the whole ' well it's not as bad as crack or drinking or heroin.' It's called devil weed for a reason. Like the film says "the biggest trick the devil ever pulled off as convincing humanity that he did not exist." Same concept. Users say dumbass stuff like 'You don't see pot smokers beating people up and robbing them to go buy more weed.' Yep, like that alone makes it okay. "Potheads aren't prostituting themselves for a hit." Laughable! I'll ask each one the same question, 'How would you feel if starting right now, you could never smoke weed again?' They all become visibly uncomfortable, and then each give the same answer, that they wouldn't like it at all, and would be very sad. But you aren't addicted, and you can stop any time you want to. Once you see what it's done to you it's too late; you're deep in the maze. If you look at it from a 'Christian' view, you've already made that agreement with hell, you have to repent at that point. God says that you should obey the laws of the land. This passage could be why so many slaves were reluctant to escape. Slavery was the law and to escape it would be beaking the law, therefore disobeying God's word. But I digress.  Pot is illegal, every time a person buys it, they are breaking the law. Breaking the law is something the enemy delights in when we do it. It's like one step closer to the fire. Another buy, another step closer. And so on.  The danger is the mentality that a person takes on. The self absorbed nature, the paranoia and then the emotional dependancy The money wasted. Little by little more money gets budgeted for weed, and fewer for the bills. The desire to achieve slowly goes away, and complacency is in the hizzouse! Fewer and fewer friends till all social contact with non pot realted people dwindles. The enemy has isolated you. Some go into this "I'm so smart and cool" thing where everything they say is brilliant no matter how incoherent or just plain stupid it is. Another danger, self deception. The enemy is really raking in the points. Then there are the seven deadly sins. One of which being sloth, or for us living in the current century, LAZINESS! There are the ten commandments and then the subtex of the seven deadly sins. Like the chemical ingredients listed on a label of some disgusting sugary cereal. The seven can lead you to the ten. So that's 17 things that can really make life miserable. Now, I know many wonder how sloth can kill you. It's not a cause and effect sort of sin. It's a slow moving (pun intended) sneak up on you, and you look back an see you wasted your whole life kind of sin. You get lazy, you don't work much, you don't work much, you don't get promoted, you don't move forward, no forward movement, you get frustrated, frustrated smokes more weed, and can't figure out why you can't get anywhere in life. . . it's a chain of events, hole in the bucket sort of sin. And in the MTV, 45 second commercial culture we live in today, the consequences can't even truly be realized or fathomed by the dull and wasted. AND THATS THE WHOLE POINT! WAKE UP!!! STOP GIVING YOUR LIFE AWAY!!!!

Some free thinking kinds will tell you point blank, "Well at affects people diffrently." Some people can smoke weed every day and still make change, and TCB. Good for them. But that's a small portion of the population. I have heard people say 'I'm more creative when I smoke.' My response, is if you have to smoke to be creative, you aren't that talented to begin with. I have heard musicians say that they used to smoke and write or play, when it became a burden- both the smoking part because it started to turn on them, making them dull and lazy after a while; and also the people that that drug attracts to your circle. The dope man brings his crew to the spot, ya'll get high, and the next thing you know you've been caught slippin, because you were all high. You go down that road and then you invite all kinds of evil into your house. You're open for infestation. It takes a strong person to get out. And if you were weak going in, good luck getting back out. In the 90's there were some really great rap groups that came out. Once they got fame, there was more money, more money more weed, more weed more low lifes, more low lifes, less peace. Eventally all of the groups imploded, I'm sure brokely broke broke; never to be heard from again. Ginsberg saw the greatest minds of his generation distroyed by madness, I see my generation going up in smoke. I went to see one group at the height of their poularity, one member was so stoned that he couldn't even sing, but this stuff makes you more creative. I felt robbed and shat upon silmultaniously. It was quite sad really. I don't doubt the first time a person gets high, it's so new and moving, they want to do it again. Eventually over time the effects wear dull, so to achieve the same effect you must consume more. It's called tolerance. But, it's not addictive! I fill with seething rage when people with talent piss it all away with weed. Maybe because most talent is a gift from God and therefore the enemy, because of his hatred of God must distroy all gifts. If you never bother getting to know the
Holy Spirit, I mean really tuning into the energy that is God, then it's nearly natural to fall prey to theives. IE: the enemy robbing you of your talent, therefore your inheritence, and destiny. Everybody knows one person who ' coulda been a contender '.
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