Oh, by the way, you won't hear anything from me the whole next week due to a work plan that includes 16 hours of work each day, Monday to Sunday. Well, 2 days a little less than 16 hours, but still enough that I won't even look at my computer next week. =)
By the way, happy birthday to Ariane tomorrow!
Had to "work" today for like 3 hours. And I didn't even really work. Everybody had to train their scenario and I was asked if I wanted to and I said no, so I just sat around until all the others were done training theirs...lol =) And the funny thing is that I get paid for it nevertheless...lol =) Well, it's not my money (okay, NOW it is...lol)
Long weekend ahead of me, I don't even know what to do with 3 1/2 days...(I know, looking up universities would be a good idea) Maybe I'll do something for my other site. We'll see.
Last night I was driving my dad to work around 2:30am and when I came back I drove along the main street and suddenly there was a horse next to me. Just a horse, no one with it. My mom still thinks I was hallucinating and the guy who drives to work with me each day asked if I was drunk, but I was not! Honestly! lol =) I don't know where it came from. I know there's some guy close to where I saw the horse who has horses, so maybe it escaped from there...lol =)
So I've been home since noon and all I did was clean the whole house cuz I have a visitor tonight. Gulp. Well, if I can't prevent it somehow. I don't wanna say too much now, details tomorrow =)
Oh, shout out to Dagny (since you're such a devoted fan...lol) and happy birthday to Sonja (who I still have to call)!
Did I mention I did a thousand things this week but looking up universities (yes Franzi, I know). That was another part of our discussion yesterday. That I should just move out and start studying something.
My dad's mighty mad at me, too, because I couldn't pick him up the last two days and I guess that means I'm gonna be one car-less 20 year old from next week on. Not good since I'm starting work again on Monday (the only good news this week, I have the ISAF job exactly where I wanted it). Well, I hope he'll cool down over the weekend.
Audrey, I'm gonna write, I swear. I just don't know when. Probably tomorrow, but I won't promise.
Our EMTs left Friday night and they aren't gonna come back for ISAF, which is really, really sad, cuz they were the ones I always sat with and talked to and who always bought me drinks...lol =) Juliane invited them to their birthday Friday night, but I wasn't exactly invited, so I couldn't go =( I'm really gonna miss them. I hope the new ones are gonna be as cool as them... oh, wait, there we have my little problem again: I don't even know if I'll ever see them =P
I went shopping with Gabi and Katharina yesterday, but we went a little late, so we had like 2 hours. That was high-speed- shopping. =) I didn't really find anything either, except for a much too expensive black top (which of course I didn't need). I hope next week is gonna be better. =)
Oh, I'm probably finally gonna start the fun page this week and update the weeklies, so watch out for that. K, I'm out for now, I gotta start my laundry. Big hug & kiss to Audrey, since we aren't seeing each other online anymore at all it seems. You have good chances to catch me this week! =)
SFOR really started today, meaning we have the real troops there now. I have a really cool wound, a chest shot, complete with blood that I can pump through the wound =) And what happened? They didn't even need me today (my driver and I slept all day in the car), but the bottle that holds the blood was leaky and my clothes are red all over. Big surprise =P
Seems like Nick wasn't only in Frankfurt on Saturday but still is somewhere around here in Germany, namely Cologne. If I would've known more about it and actually would have had someone to go with I really would've liked to meet him again, but well. Gotta live with that now I guess. And I had to work, so I couldn't have gone to Cologne today anyway. But I could've gone to Frankfurt at least...
TTF is over, too. Now that was a week. I actually had the chance to fly with the helicopter (one of the really big ones), but no, my bodyguard found a way to stop that. How nice. And then he had to tease me about it for the rest of the week. I didn't think it was that funny. Actually I didn't think it was funny at all. That was a once in a lifetime chance =( K, I'll spare you all the details of the week again, it would only be about work again anyway.
Just one thing: how high is the chance that in a matter of a few weeks I meet two people who are both blonde, blue-eyed, have the same first and last name and I have a crush on both of them? Weird....
And I don't wanna give back the nice rental car I have at the moment! I love that car! Maybe we can make a deal with the peeps at the garage where our car is repaired at the moment that they keep our car and I keep theirs...lol =)
The party last night was dull, dull, dull. We could have celebrated a funeral, too. =P My mom had ordered food for 40 people and not even 30 showed up, so now we're sitting here with so much food we could have another party today and no one wants it. Well, typical when my mom and my dad organize something if you ask me. We found out last night that my dad has an inguinal hernia, too, meaning he has to go to the hospital again and is gonna sit around here for at least 4 to 6 weeks. Great, I'm gonna shoot myself. =P Plus I have a feeling if he's sick some more this year the company he's working for is gonna say bye, bye. =P All in all: a bad, bad weekend.
PS: Audrey hun, sorry about the short SMS last night, but I was on the phone when you wrote! About time we see each other online again!
Oh, and can someone tell me how it can be that the new girl that's at my station for work (ya know, the one that came 2 weeks ago) is the new gooddess of the army? Okay, she's nice, but she's not overly beautiful, not especially funny, nothing, but everybody's always around her like she's some sort of goddess. She even went out with some of the soldiers last night, and cancelled on me today because of that (we wanted to go out today). Okay, one of them offered to go with me today, but since our car's broken and I was supposed to drive that didn't really work out...
Y'all remember the "mystery man" I was talking about? Yeah well, I found out on Tuesday that he has a girlfriend, and even though a certain friend of mine told me that "soldiers normally don't care if they already have a girlfriend at home" (sounds familiar, Tina?), I do care, so well. No need to tell ya that that got my kind of depressed for part of the week. =(
I'm getting a new hard drive for my computer in the next few weeks, so I can't update for a little while. I'm not sure when yet, but I'll let you know in advance. I have to get all the stuff that's on my hard drive at the moment on discs before I can get that project started. That's gonna suck, cuz I don't have a clue what stuff belongs to which program and I have the distinct feeling that nothing's gonna work after the new system is installed =P
We started with a completely new troop today at work and it was a typical first day. Meaning: we were laughing our asses off. Those guys are so...ugh. I don't know why they always choose me to try to get to laugh during the whole thing, but they're succeeding. =) Also found out today that it seems to be definite that we're done with the whole thing in November and our contracts aren't gonna be prolonged. =(
Anybody heard about those random shootings in the DC area this week? I just found out yesterday that they were all really close to where I used to live. One person was even shot in the parking lot of my favorite mall. Scary when you think about it. =(
So Franzi's left on Wednesday, too. I know I said we'd work on the site, but we were busy shopping and going to the movies and stuff. But mostly with shopping...lol =) I bought a helluva lot of clothes this week. My first real shopping trip since I'm home. Was about time. And it's nice how many pairs of pants I tried on that actually fit me. Normally I have to try on 15 that one fits and this week I could have bought 10 or so. Which makes me think, I really gotta find the time to go again really soon and get a second one of that one pair of pants I found, they just fit perfectly, and I don't think that has ever happened before....
Oh, if I have time there are probably gonna be some changes on the site in the next few days. Or maybe not, I'm not sure. Franzi mentioned some stuff that I could do, but it's probably gonna be hard to get them into the layout (especially the image map), so maybe I'm just gonna wait and put them up with the next layout - whenever that will be up, I'm entirely too lazy to think of a new one lately. =P
We had our 2 little press performances today. Well, seemed like the reporters had a grand ole time with the whole thing. I'm wondering if they're still gonna laugh when they have their first real car bomb exploding next to them down in Kosovo. =P And then it started raining right in the middle of the whole thing - figures. I was totally soaked, bloody and moody until it was finally over. One week off now. Yay. Kinda I guess. Also means I won't see a certain person all week, what I don't like at all of course. I'm not sure why I still bother, all I got this week from him were 3 sentences...well...2 1/2, I don't think the last one counts as a full sentence. *insert a hugh sigh here* Dammit. I really gotta change something about that.
Family trouble's brewing,too. Guess why? Yep, the infamous 60th birthday. Let's just say one of my sisters is pissed at me (why, I'm not sure, it wasn't really my fault) and I'd better steer clear of my brother for a few more days (what kinda bothers me). Oh well, at least Franzi's visiting for a few days, something to look forward to! =)
You know what I really, really need? I nice long massage and a hot tub. My back's hurting like hell, cuz we only have those uncomfortable seats up there =P Oh, and a camera crew was there already today. Yesterday radio, last week newspaper, today TV. Unfortunately I was already in the ambulance when they started filming =( <(p>
One of the guys found two...well...bees "that were at it" (to put it mildly) today, and 2 minutes later there was a crowd of about 10 soldiers sitting around that certain flower with the bees on it, observing them veeery closely. Ya think that looked funny? Just wait. Ya all know what happens when a bee is done with the male, right? She kills him. So what do our observing soldiers do? Scream for paramedics. I was laughing my ass off when one came and started CPR on the bee...lol =)
I was the only woman today and suddenly everybody was talking to me. Finally. And it turned out that most of those guys are really nice and funny. The Colonel decided that I'm the best person to make fun of each day, too. Not only am I greeted each morning with "Well, Miss H., don't we look chipper this morning. Like it's about to rain the whole next week." And I was ordered to bake cake for the whole troop...lol =) I was a real shock-victim today, I even had to faint twice. Great, the first time the guys that were supposed to bring me to the ambulance let me fall (the last comment I heard was "Hey, she's heavier than she looks" and I had a hard time not breaking out laughing at that one, and 2 seconds later my head met the dirt. Ouch. The second time they obviously really tried to knowck me out. First someone bumped his helmet into my head full force and then someone else rammed the end of his gun into my cheekbone. Double ouch. That still hurts and is swollen. Dangerous job there...lol =) Plus, and this is the most important thing, I have my eyes on someone.........=) =)
Speaking of work, I was talking to Audrey earlier and I remembered an incident from Thursday that I wanted
to blog about and totally forgot, so here we go...
We only had to be there at 8:30am instead of 8, but my dear fellow workmates of course were already there at 8, so they
were brought to the castle where we're working and I was the only one left when I came (did I mention my boss didn't
know that we were supposed to come later and gave me an earful on the phone at 8:10 because of it? =P). So they sent one
of the guys of the troop I'm working with to come and get me and the rest of the troop followed us in a truck. We drove to a parking
lot where we were supposed to wait for all the other troops and role players to arrive. The troop I'm working with,
they're all playing civilians, too, and they all still had to change, cuz they were all wearing their uniforms. So suddenly I
found myself the only woman right in the middle of
about 30 twenty year old soldiers in their underwear. SO embarrassing!! But not bad to look at either...lol =)
Ugh, I gotta look for the rest of my work outfit today. Great, I don't have anything I can wear there. It's kinda hard to look like someone from a war zone when you just threw pretty much all clothes that were older than a year or 2 out of your closet =P And I won't wear any of my new stuff, I'm working too much with fake blood, and they told me that stuff is hell to get out of your clothes again...Anyway, should I be concerned about the fact that I'm the only woman working there between like...30 other men (average, Thursday there were 300) and none of them has made a move yet? I think I should be. Or I should just go on telling myself that they're all just really shy...lol =)
K, I gotta go and call Franzi now and then I'm gonna finish up the rest of the site, new weeklies and all (finally).
I went to customs today to fix the damn problem with them and thank god nothing happened. I was so afraid I was gonna get a huge fine and a lot of trouble, but fortunately the guys there were a little dumb and didn't really realize what was going on. So if they should say something now (what I don't expect, but you never know) there's just one thing for me to do: deny, deny, deny. =) lol
K, I'm going to see "Signs" tonight, so I'm out for now!
Last week this huge IQ test was on TV and hey, I got 133 points, that means I'm specially gifted. Don't ask me where, though. But I'm so proud of myself, now I don't have to feel like a complete loser anymore just because I suck at math...lol =) And talking about TV, can't forget to watch ER later =)
K, no more blogging, I'll better use the time to finally update the weeklies and to get the archive for August on track (though I have the feeling I deleted most of the old entries...)
The problems that came up last week seem to be even more serious than I initially thought, too, so I'm so not looking forward to this week. Actually I'm not looking forward to next week either, cuz that's when our training is over and the real work begins =P Anyway, gotta take care of a few more things today but I'm hoping to get back on the updating-track pretty soon, hopefully by tomorrow or the day after that.
I was supposed to call Franzi's mom to tell her that I'm coming to the airport when Franzi and Ariane are coming home and stupid me lost the address and phone number. Ooops. Hope I can catch Franzi and tell her before it's too late.
Got another school-info-package today and again, it's kinda blah. This is so annoying. Why isn't there anything nice and decent that you can study at regular universities here? I wanna do something where I can get a bachelor in the end and don't need forever and all. But do I find something? Nope. I wish I'd live in the US...=P
I wanted to buy a CD burner today and what happens? I find not a single one on sale and I'm not paying a hundred bucks for one when I know I can get it for 60 or 70. So I guess I gotta wait a little longer...
Mel and Angela, I probably can't get back to you until I come back from my trip, I have a feeling those are gonna become looong emails again, and I just don't feel up for that right now. Just to let you know I am gonna email back, just not before I leave probably.
And dammit, I've been waiting for the past 4 weeks for MTV to repeat last year's VMAs, so I can finally see them (I was at a concert that day and couldn't last year) and today, the one day I don't check the TV listings, of course it's on and I only catch it when the best part was already over =P That just sucks.
Oh, and Audrey: Sei ein Schatz und sag mir mal ob das ganze layout irgendwie verschwommen is. Also net richtig verschwommen, aber die Bilder net wirklich klar sind. Und ob man zB den splash crap auf der Index Seite lesen kann. Mir kommt's so vor, aber die im Help-chat gestern haben mir gesagt es w�r net verschwommen, also brauch ich mal ne echte Meinung...lol =)
Oh, thank you today to all the people who signed my guestbook this week...which would be Audrey, Dagny and Franzi. At least my loyal fans sign it once in a while. =) And Franzi: I can't call your mom if I don't have the number!!
Lydia finally sent my Bahamas pix today. Yay! Finally. =) I think she's off to her travel month already, too. Now I feel really bad again that I didn't finish up my year in the US. Everybody's having fun in their travel month and I'm sitting here being bored. =P Can someone please rewind time for me? I'd love to run around on the West Coast or in Florida now, too. Not like I have anything better to do here...My one goal while being in the US was actually going to Florida, and where did I end up? Anywhere but there. Well, not anywhere of course. Then I wouldn't complain now. Hmpf. *pouts* Well, guess I gotta keep the faith that I'm gonna see everything I missed out on some other time in my life. =) I'm still waiting for my new greencard application. Maybe I'm lucky next year. =)
Last night I was going through some BsB site on the net and...I got this..umm..."nostalgic" feeling again...lol =) It's about damn time I see or meet (that would even be better) them again. On the other hand, I think I don't have any friends anymore that would still do those crazy follow-around tours. They all grew out of it. *snickers* Well, I obviously didn't. Couldn't think of anything better to light up my mood of the past few weeks. =)
Went out with Patricia and Sonja last night. First we went shopping a little (first time I bought new clothes since I'm back from the states and I hardly got anything, cuz I want my US stores back!! *pouts*) and then we went to the movies to see "Sum of all fear". It was fun and at the movie theater there you don't have to pay half of what you pay at the one where I usually go...
Oops, it's Monday. Reminds me, I gotta make new weeklies. =P Oh, and since I haven't pleaded for a while, I need some guestbook luv! No one ever signs it *sniff*. Of course no one can if no one's coming to the site in the first place, but those that do come could at least sign it once in a while. Y'all can just hope my life's getting more interesting soon so I can blog about more interesting stuff again.
wednesday, july 31st
And 2 days without Franzi & Ariane and I'm already going crazy cuz I can pester no one with my little problems. =P Of course I could clog their inboxes, but somehow I don't think they'd appreciate that a lot...lol =)
Okay, I just decided this week is gonna be a no-whining-and-talking-about-problems-week. I can't even read my own stuff anymore it depresses me so much...lol =)
Ugh, it's...alomst 3pm and I just got up. I can't remember ANY time I woke up that late. On the other hand, I also can't remember the last time I was out until 4. Was definitely in the last millennium, though. But that's normal, for weeks no one calls once and then they all call at the same time wanting to do something. So I was out with Sonja & Patricia last night and on my way home (around 1:30am) my cell rings and Tina asked if I wanted to go to a party with her. So I was home like 10 minutes, got picked up again and off we went. My parents thought I didn't come home at all until I just showed up in the kitchen like 10 minutes ago. Just proves my theory from yesterday that I could lie dead in my room for 2 days without my parents realizing it...
Just wanted to wish Ariane and Franzi a great flight tomorrow and much, much fun!! I envy you two soooooooo much right now! Hope you're having a great time!
Yeah, still awake. Actually quite distressing. I'm thinking about not going to bed at all, maybe then I can at least sleep tomorrow night.
Just downloaded a random Bryan White song and I actually had to laugh at the lyrics, cuz they fit so much:
Have you ever had one of those days
When you really need a friend
The day drags on and on
And you think there's no end
Then you know how I feel
Have you ever had one of those nights
When you just lie awake
Starin' at the ceiling
Until the dawn breaks
Then you know how I feel
Already put up the new layout. I actually wanted to wait till the beginning of August, but the layout just fits my mood and since I couldn't sleep anyway (like I predicted) I decided to just put it up. I changed the site name, too. This is the 3rd name in not even 3 months now, but I'm kinda confident that this name will stay. I just needed...some change I guess.
*sigh* Here we go again. I knew all this life-crisis-bullshit wouldn't be out of my mind for too long. Lay awake until 4am last night thinking about how fucked up everything is here. I don't know why, I keep telling myself it can't be that bad, and everything's gonna work somehow and that works to get through the days and then, as soon as it gets dark outside I get this damn sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach and I feel like I'm such a loser. Bad thing is no matter who I talk to about this, no one's ever really gonna understand, as much as they try to. My whole family situation is just so messed up. I'm getting a feeling I won't get too much sleep again tonight. This just sucks, I'm literally getting sick of it or rather from it, headaches all day, nausea etc. I really hope things are turning around for the better soon, I don't know how much longer I can stand this.
And if I didn't have enough problems as it is, I have to worry about a thousand other things, too. Like my luggage that's still in the US, friends who aren't the friends I thought they were and shit like that. What I need is a lottery jackpot and things would finally start looking up again.
So my sister sent me "new" job offers today. Finally some stuff I would actually do and when I looked at them more closely they all were at least 2 months old. Great, as if one of them would still be free now. =P
Franzi, I'm gonna try to call ya tonight, hope I can get a hold of you. If not, I'm gonna email, k? Have to complain a little about a certain American starting with "D", ending with "evin"...lol =) Not that I can really blame him, but well...What the heck am I gonna do when you and Ariane are gone anyway? Noone's ever gonna come to the site! =P
Oh, and I finally have the answer to my random thought. Watching MTV once in a while really helps you out with stuff like that...lol =)
LMAO. I just went through my old US visa application
cuz I was looking for some info I thought might be on there. I don't think any American has a clue what
others have to go through to get into this country. There are this totally ridiculous questions that you
have to answer on the application form like
Have you ever been a controlled substance (drug) trafficker, or a prostitute or procurer?
Are you a member or representative of a terrorist organization?
Do you seek to enter the US to engage in export control violations (aka smuggling), subversive or terrorist
activities or any unlawful purpose?
and so on, and so on. We were always laughing about that stuff already, cuz, come on, yeah right, every
dealer or smuggler or terrorist is gonna check "yes" on the application, right? NOW, the funny thing I saw
today is that below all those questions there is this little box saying
"A YES answer does NOT automatically signify ineligibility for a visa."
Umm...okay. So it's okay if I smuggle or deal, you just wanna know about it? Oh, okay then.
Stupid. Just stupid. Same thing with getting pregnant: if you're in the US on a J1 - visa (residence permit: 1 year)
and you get pregnant, let's say in your 10th month of your stay, you have to leave the country immediately. If you
don't have a visa and are just there for like a week of vacation and the baby gets born there it's automatically
a US citizen. - ?????????? Some people should really start using their heads before they make crap like that official...
*giggling childishly* Ya know what I've been listening to for the past few hours? My Backstreet Boys CDs. All of them. *giggles some more* The really old ones make me feel like I'm 13 again. But there's nothing like some very loud "That's the way I like it" and the...uhh... "connecting" memories...lol =) Really now, I had much more fun in my life when those guys were still around here and we had those mad follow-around tours. Ah yeah, the good old times. Doesn't look like anything like that is gonna happen again anytime soon. Dammit. I could really use something like that right now. Complete with all the embarrassing moments, the disappointments, hiding from TV cameras and everything else that comes with it....
New weeklies are up and since I don't wanna have to say that every time I put them up just go and take a look every Monday, cuz that's normally when I update them.
Driver's License probation is over!!! Yay, yay, yay! *jumps up and down* Now let's just hope Tina was kidding this week when she said that it was prolonged. Then I'm gonna die. Another year having to drive in the speed limit? Nu-uh. No way.
By the way, weekly life-crisis is over...I hope. At least until next week, when something else is probably gonna happen that's gonna make me think about my pathetic existence night after night.
Oh, and Franzi, sometimes I think I make this site only for you (well, and Audrey...lol =)) Franzi's the only one who always signs the guestbook (maybe I should call it "Franzi-book" from now on...lol) and Audrey is pretty much the only one who comes to the site regularly (counter stats are fun). So people, wuz up? Some guestbook love? And I really gotta start promoting myself. I've been saying that for weeks now and haven't done it yet.
I gotta go watch Lilo & Stitch later with the devil nephew. I wanted to say no, but then my sister said she's gonna pay for me, so...well...gotta have your priorities right, right?
Dunno what to blog about lately. Don't get me wrong, I could blog about a thousand things, but...they all just don't seem to matter. Too much to think about. Life just sucks. And I have a feeling that's not gonna change anytime soon for me.
Yay, I'm gonna see MIB2 today. =) And my brother, the whiner, whined until I said I'm gonna take him with me. Mind you, my brother is 31 and married with children. His wife said she's not gonna go with him, so he thought it fit to throw me out of bed this morning and inform me he's coming with us. Reminds me, I still haven't told Tina about that change of plan. At least he was so nice to get us tickets already, so we don't have to stand in line tonight...lol =)
Oh, and anyone remember my blog from yesterday (and if not, it's just a tiny little scroll down)? My niece HONESTLY (I swear to god), wore a bib that said "Hooray! I'm sooo tall already!" I thought I was gonna choke on my soda I was laughing so hard when I read it.
Nothing else new here. I'm working on my new "project" and I'm actually surprised that I haven't gotten bored and gave it up already. 3 days in a row about 6 hours of working on it and I still have so much more I can add =)
So that's what I have to deal with every day:
Cute? Sweet? Endearing? Think again.
Look familiar? Thought so, too. He's my new tail. I can't go anywhere in this house (except for my room and the bathroom (you gotta draw lines)) without him being 2 feet behind me yelling obscenities at me. Ugh.
Anyway, my brother and his fam are coming over today, so baby-time for me. You know those people who get all mushy "tootsie-tootsie-booh-booh" around kids? You think those are annoying? My mom's one of those "You're sooo tall already? Yes? Yes you are! So tall! Yes! Yeah, you're looking at me! Yes! So tall!" persons. Very annoying. Personally I think when babies start laughing when adults do that, they're not laughing about the act, but laughing about the dumb people doing that stuff. I'm too uptight for stuff like that. I'm not making an ass of myself, even if it's only in front of a baby. But it's definitely gonna be interesting watching my mom again.
Serenity...serenity...my new mantra. Still haven't started yoga now that I think about it. One of these days I'm just gonna take that little a**hole, throw him out and lock everything up that he can't get back in anymore. He's in 2 therapies now to "fix the problem". Ha, didn't really change anything yet. Ugh.
I have 2 new layouts ready to upload. I hate that....lol =) I wanna upload them, but what's the sense in having a layout only for a few days? And if I upload those 2 too fast then I'm gonna sit there in a few weeks and not have one at all again. So I guess I gotta restrain myself I...lol =)
I got my cellphone back, thank god (or in this case, thank Franzi)!!! Well, or at least my chip. The real cellphone is still in the states. Now I gotta use my old one that has some...well..."minor" problems. Like a battery that's pretty much constantly low, the annyoing habit of just turning itself off whenever it wants and - I don't have a clue how to use it anymore. Guess I gotta read the manual again...
K, I've calmed down somewhat. Couldn't wait until today and called Franzi in the middle of last night (thank god for time zones) and got my frustration out a little, but I still couldn't sleep until 3:30am, just was too charged. Not a good thing I had to get up 2 hours later. I was so confused when my stereo went off, the first thing I actually remember is not waking up from the music, but sitting in front of the stereo trying to figure out why the hell there's music coming from it, pushing all kinds of buttons that didn't work. I was so nauseous and my dad of course had nothing better to do than light up one after the other on our way. Then he almost gave me a freaking heart attack when he slammed on the breaks that I probably would have flown thru the window if I hadn't had my seat belt, just because there were 2 freaking ducks on the road (I'm not saying drive over them, but he could have reacted a little earlier maybe). I just don't need mornings like that in my life...
Sunday, July 14th 4:34pm
So it's Sunday afternoon, for once I have the house all for myself (happens like once in a blue moon) and what am I doing? Sitting in front of the computer, being bored. I'm a really, really pathetic person...lol =) I always forget to call my friends soon enough in advance so we can do something at the weekend and then I end up sitting here waiting for the next weekend when they're back in town - and once again forgetting to call them. I really gotta meet up with Simone this week though to get my video back and maybe I can convince Tina to go see MIB 2 with me, at least she's around throughout the week. Maybe I'm gonna make some popcorn and put in a movie later. Gotta do at least something....lol =)
New weeklies are up, too! (And don't ask me why I chose the song of the week that I did.......)
Still Saturday, 9:08pm
I just KNEW I shouldn't have gone, I knew it. So why did I go
anyway? Cuz my dad was faster than me and said he'd stay home, so I was volunteered again to drive the rest of
the family. So I actually spend an afternoon with my nephews and I'm really having fun,
and I sit down for a minute, and absolutely out of the blue my eldest sister's like
She: "I need to know which job exactly you wanna do."
Me: "Why?" (veeeery suspicious, my sister doesn't ask something like that without a second thought)
She: "Because a friend of mine is looking for a job for you in Nuremberg." (which is "only" like...2 hours from here?)
Me: "Why?"
And there she went. I gotta do something in my life, and I can't just sit at home another year doing nothing (newsflash: I'm not
planning on doing nothing) - for a good half an hour (I'll leave it at that, she said muuuch more). Excuse me???? I'm 20, I just graduated
(and with a damn good average, too),
just came back from a year abroad and now I think I'm allowed to spend a year just jobbing around a little to finance the school I wanna go to.
And that's especially coming from my high and mighty sister, who moved out when she was like 24, who never even graduated, never learned a job,
just always had sucky little jobs until she decided to get pregnant, marry, get pregnant again, get divorced and now live off money the state's
feeding her and having more debts than I wanna have in my whole life. I just love that. And she's really surprised that my brother and my sis in law aren't
talking to her anymore? Well, I wouldn't either if her son wasn't my godchild and if I wouldn't have to see her all the time. Not to mention
that she's like the National Enquirer. All afternoon we had to listen to her trash pretty much the whole village she's living in. And my
other sister isn't better. Stood in the kitchen trashing me with Miss High-and-Mighty (if she thinks I didn't hear it she should think again)
and 5 minutes later she's all like "Oh, do you wanna see that movie? Maybe we can go together! Oh, do you wanna go to the fair, maybe we can go together!" Yeah,
right. The only reason she wants to go with me is because I have a car that I can use and she hasn't and she needs someone to drive her around. I don't
know if she's really that dumb that she thinks I don't realize that. If we had a great relationship or something I'd maybe believe her, but our whole lives
we never really got along, cuz she was always jealous of me (of what exactly? I don't have a clue, I don't think I have the greatest life), and suddenly
when her friends aren't around all the time anymore I'm good enough or what? I really know why I'm sticking with my brother, he seems to be the only normal
sibling I have. Ugh! Stuff like that just pisses me sooo off. Good advice to everyone out there: if you went through a lot of shit yourself, don't go trashing
others about mistakes they didn't even make yet, don't behave like you know everything better anyway and most of all, don't suck up to people in the front and
then go behind their backs. Cuz you should know better. And NEVER assume the person you're doing this with doesn't know what you're doing.
And to my high-and-mighty sister: I don't need you to run my life, thank you very much. And I'd rather make 10,000 mistakes than letting you know tell me what to do.
Saturday, July 13th 9:39am
You know what I thought about yesterday? It's really fascinating how I can sit here every day, blogging about (admittedly not too interesting) stuff like I'm convinced a lot of people are gonna read it. I did some math yesterday and the average number of people coming to the site each day is around 2. Now okay, that's maybe my own fault, too, but it's kinda sad that I can tell you on one hand who comes to the site regularly, even if they don't sign the guestbook etc. And it's even sadder that I know it cuz some of them belong to my closest friends. So what do I blog about about graphics and layouts and people helping me out, when half of those people coming don't even know how a website works? And why do I work on the new layout already (which was driving me nuts yesterday, too) when almost no one's gonna see it anyway? Hmpf. I need to get dressed. Do...something off the computer until I have to go to that stupid party...
Friday, July 12th 12:31pm
Hey, I found out how to do this CSS external linking AND how to do image maps, yay! lol =) I KNEW it would help to actually LOOK for the answer instead of waiting for it to come to me...lol =)
So this morning I was looking for some images online for a new layout, and is it just me or is there only trash there? I always only end up at Clip Art pages. It's probably just me, since everybody else always has the cool stuff on their pages. Where the heck do you all get your images? So I ended up at fullmoongraphics again and boy, do I envy that woman. I have to admit I downloaded some sets and I'm totally intent on using one of them as my next layout, cuz I just LOVE it. It's kinda simple, but totally awesome (I actually like it so much that I was thinking of putting it up right away, but then I decided against it. What the heck did I sit on this one for hours then?). I know, it sucks not making your own layouts, but give me the money for a great graphics program, someone to teach me everything I don't know and URLs where I can find some decent images and I promise you I'm never gonna use pre-made stuff again. There's some more stuff that I'm probably gonna use later on, but let's see. Is it actually that bad to just use graphics and buttons that others made? (come on, I need some reassurance here that I don't TOTALLY suck just because I use stuff others MADE FOR OTHERS to use...lol. Drop me a line in the guestbook, will ya? lol)
Still Thursday, 5:41pm
K, I fixed the links, but I still didn't look up the normal www-links. I was actually in the middle of it but then I got distracted and just starting thinking about how there are 13 or 14 year olds out there whose layouts are just fucking amazing, while mine suck all the time. How do they do that? I wanted to buy an HTML book to learn some more, but they're so expensive! So I guess I gotta stick to learning thru the net. Any maybe I should really start looking into Javascript and that stuff. But ya know what would really help me? If I finally found out how to do this external linking to CSS. Of course maybe I should look it up somewhere and not just wait that the answer mysteriously pops into my mind, but still. Or image maps, how in the world...? I'd probably spend days on one and in the end it probably wouldn't work or the stuff would all be in the wrong place. And what I saw again: my images were all uploaded blurry again. What the heck? Why does that always happen? They're perfectly fine and sharp offline. Anyone know why that is? It'd really help me out.
Thursday, July 11th 1:01pm
New layout, my first attempt at tables. The links on the right aren't working yet (or maybe they are, I'm not sure), but I'm gonna fix them later today anyway. And I gotta add some more links, I just never have the URLs nearby when I do stuff like that, so I gotta look them up first. Why is it, though, that whenever I start thinking about a new layout I think it's gonna look great and whenever I start it I think it's just plain horrible and I have to start a new one right away only to have the same feeling about that one then? Weird. Ugh, I gotta go get dressed finally, I have goosebumps all over..
Wednesday, July 10th 1:51 pm
They're playing war again. I tell you, living so close to an UN International army base is so no fun. Their training territory starts like a mile behind our house and today it was first some shooting and bombing (but very little compared to normally) and then they started with the helicopters and people hanging from those helicopters in various angels and heights. Scary. Something else must've been up though, too, I was in town this morning buying a mattress and while I stood in the checkout line (which overlooks the main street) there passed like...I dunno how many buses, I stopped counting at 18 full of soldiers and went on to their way to the army home, police escorting them. I think I saw instruments (trombones, trumpets, that kind of stuff) in some of the buses, so maybe they just met for a little concert, but like 20 buses full? Practicing to scare their enemies away with music? Okay, I know, war's not a funny theme, but I don't even live in a war country, so why do I have to have to be woken up every second night because of bombs and shooting? If we (heaven forbid) really went into war one day I'd probably just shrug it off as another maneuver...
Tuesday, July 9th 7:25 pm
I've got my computer back, yay, yay, yay!!! Finally. Another week and I would've gone nuts. Means regular blogs again and today new weeklies, too!
Oh, and Mel: boyfriend? That requires deeeeeeetails! lol =) Can Angela try playing matchmaker for me now?
Monday, July 8th 12:01 pm
I love those days. Woke up at 3 this morning with a splitting headache and couldn't go back to sleep for another hour. Then I had to get up again at 5:30 to drive my dad. Well, at least that's what I thought. "What are you doing up already?" kinda threw me for a loop there. Every second week my dad tells me the wrong time when he has to leave and then he denies it (and my mom's always helping him, even if she wasn't even there when he told me the time). I think I have to make him sign something every week from now on...lol =) So I got back to bed at 7, couldn't sleep until 9 and like 15 minutes after I fell asleep the phone rang - and then I REALLY couldn't go back to sleep again =P I hate those days. And I want my computer back!!! I'm going crazy here!
On a happier note, happy birthday Andy! (crazy birthday week is finally over...lol)
Sunday, July 7th 4:17pm
They raised the prices at the movie theater.
Again.
Now I'm already paying $7.50 (equals $7.50 on
paper, but in reality is like if you had to pay $15 for a movie). So in December it was still
$6.50, then when the Euro came it went up to 7, then one week ago? Two weeks ago? Anyway, when I
went to see Spiderman I had to pay $7.50, cuz it was longer than 2 hours, so it counted as an
XL-movie. So yesterday I looked in which theater the movie we were going to see was running and
saw that it cost $7.50 and I was a little surprised that it was an XL movie, too, until I saw
that all the movies cost $7.50. So now I guess every movie 2 hours+ is gonna be $8. Usury. I
remember times when I paid $2.50 for a ticket. Hell, I even remember times when I paid only $1.25
(but those were special conditions...lol)
And before I forget, happy birthday Simone!
Saturday, July 6th 11:37am<
So now it's official. I didn't get a greencard this year *pouts* No fair. Got a funny little card
today telling me about it. Looked like this:
Friday, July 5th 4:53pm
Argh! I'm not gonna get my computer back before Tuesday - EARLIEST. I'm so+ pissed about that, cuz I was supposed to get it back today. =P Means another weekend of indescribable boredom. Tomorrow I'm going to the movies with Sonja, but that's pretty much it for the whole weekend. My sister wanted to go the fair with me, but honestly? I'd rather die of boredom than having to spend an extra afternoon with my bratty nephew on one of the 2 days each week I don't have to see him. Thought I'd had to endure...wait, I'm telling myself I have to be more positive about things like that, so...thought I'd had to look forward to another kiddo-birthday party this weekend, but that was scratched cuz I have plans. So they scratch the whole party because of me? Should I feel honored? Could of course be cuz it's my godson's party...lol =) Well, probably just means I have to go next weekend and then I really don't wanna go cuz I'll have my computer back. This week I actually would've liked to go...Well, at least I have another week to get a gift =)
Thursday, July 4th 3:15pm
Happy 4th of July to all the Americans! Of course I had to go and miss it again. Typical. =P
Any why the heck are my hands peeling?? They've never done that and it looks really weird, like I put glue all over them that's rubbing off now...
Tuesday, July 2nd 10:05pm
I should start Yoga, or whatever it is that's supposed to help you find serenity. Cuz if I don't, I have a feeling my dear live-in nephew won't live to see his 6th birthday. That boy is worse than...UGH! Just call him reincarnated devil and it comes kinda close. I tried everything now, fighting back, not fighting back, being nice, not being nice, ignoring him - nothing helps. At first my parents accused me of being the problem, but now they see that it's him like I told them all along. My dad was short of busting the vein on his forehead this weekend and my mom's getting hoarse, and she hardly yells. And people still don't understand that I don't want kids? And risk that his behavior is a streak that runs in the family? No way. Not happening.
And on a happier note. Happy birthday Angela! I hope you're having a great day! =) And don't worry about...people (ya know what I mean)
Wednesday, May 1st 76:15pm
At least that's what my watch says. If you ask me, it's
Monday, July 1st 7:18pm,
so don't ask me why my watch says what it does. Really weird.
So wuz up with Germany? I once wanted to be malicious and tell every whining male "I told you so" and now everybody's celebrating like we actually won. What's up with that?Sunday, June 30th 7:29pm
Aww, Germany didn't become soccer world champion *cackles maliciously* Not a big surprise if you ask me (although people are still accusing me of just not wanting Germany to win cuz they kicked out the US - which ISN'T true! I just don't want them to win, because...just because.) So, not a big surprise if you ask me, but of course the whole male German population (well, and the occasional female I guess) will be in mourning mode now for the next...3 to 4 years. Gee, it's just a stupid trophy and they didn't deserve it anyway! And here we are again, having grown men cry over shit like that...
Hmpf. It's my nephew's birthday tomorrow and I still don't have a gift. I hope they won't make any surprise visits this week (completely coincidental of course, they [=my sis and her family] always make surprise visits here when one of them had a birthday...), who knows when I'm gonna find something to give him? Thinking about it, did I ever give my sis a present for her birthday in...early May........?
Saturday, June 29th 4:43pm
Already updated the weeklies, cuz I don't have a clue if I can go online next week =P
Mel, I'm gonna mail ya as soon as I have the time, I promise! Angela, hope you're having a great birthday next week!
Thursday, June 27th 3:15pm
Hmpf. Last night I was in a "romantic mood" , so I decided to light one of my huge 3-wick-candles in my room on my small table and what happens? Well, the table isn't exactly very stable (did I mention I made it myself....?), I tried to move it a little, all the liquid wax spilled over and drenched my easychair, my carpet and my favorite skirt. Great. Surprisingly (yeah, I'm surprising myself more and more these days) I started laughing after the first round of "!@x*#!?", cuz stuff like that seems to only happen to me all the time. I think I rescued the skirt, but getting the wax out of the carpet and the easychair was kind of a mission impossible. =P Anyone know any tricks? lol =)
And how come my images always look so blurry after I upload them? They are perfectly fine when I make them! =P
Wednesday, June 26th 12:46pm
My neighbors think I'm crazy. They haven't said it in so many words, but the way they look up at my window says it all I guess. "Life's a bitch and then
you diiie!" *sings at the top of her lungs* Well, that may be why. They're probably used to me sing...howling along to everything on the raido by now (been living here long enough), but today I decided
to open up 3 of my windows (needed some air) and use (for unexplainable reasons) headphones. Oops...lol =) So the only thing they hear ("It's over nooow!") is my off-key howling ("Gooo beee yoooung!")
without a background. Mel, remember our girl groups plans from last year (ya know, the leatherpants and all) - I think you might have to go solo after all...lol =)
Tuesday, June 25th 6:08pm
Yay, yay! I'm not as dumb as I look sometimes (no comments please!). Though the way I had to find that out was so not funny. So I'm sitting happily at my bro's, my niece is drooling happily next to me (she's only 4 months, she's allowed to drool) and the moment I log off the internet the phone rings. I'm supposed to pick my dad up at work at 6. He NEVER comes home on Tuesdays. So I was all grumpy cuz I had to leave and drive an hour to get him hen my brother decided to explain me another way that would save me "at least 30 minutes!" . When he was finished explaining I was as wise as before, but I decided to give it a try anyway. And I found it, yay, yay! lol =) Stood in a traffic jam for the 30 minutes I was supposed to save (car vs. motorcycle - the later lost, wasn't a pretty sight, poor guy =() So I arrive at my dad's work just to have him tell me surprise, actually I didn't have to pick him up. Surprisingly I wasn't as p.o.ed as I thought I'd be...lol =) Though I hated having to off the computer cuz Saturday is the last time I can go online at my bro's place =(
BLOGS OF THE PAST FEW DAYS POSTED! And updated the weeklies!
Tuesday, June 25th 1:03pm
So peeps, you can start coming back here, I'm working on a system to update at least twice a week for now and I realized that saying I will be gone for a few weeks got me around...well...no visitors (or 2 or 3), so I gotta do something about that. So instead of being at the seniors' prank at my old school, where I was supposed to be today (they always invite some of the old seniors) I'm sitting here, updating. So, proud of me? lol =) I'm even posting blogs of the past few days that I wrote offline, so you've got something to read. Anyway, I've been gone for a little while and there's havoc on the net again. My my, some people...I'm gonna stay out of it, but the people involved, you know my opinion on that one, right? Talking about mature and immature...
Still Monday, June 24th 10:13pm
Not good. Caramel Frosties + warm milk for dinner = not good. Splitting headache that I can't get rid of since Friday night = not good. New pillow with questionable filling that stinks = not good. Arguing with my mum about the same things over and over again = not good. My memory getting worse each day obvioously = not good at all. So I'm trying to reach people all day thinking they came back from vacation yesterday just to find out they just LEFT yesterday. Hmpf. And I was so sure they told me they'd go last week. Dammit, I need my SIM card!! I'm going crazy without my cell phone! So hopefully that weeks passes fast, they come back home and can finally send it to me!
Monday, June 24th 11:01am
Sunday, June 23rd 2:04pm 4 more books this week. 1777 pages and I wasn't even home 3 days or so. I'm giving up updating the "Book I'm reading at the moment" section in the faves now...lol =)
And can someone tell me why I'm so tired today? I slept 10 hours for heaven's sake! I think I need to get a new job, too. The other one sucks and I have a feeling they wanna get rid of me anyway. What else? It's
still hot, but the more I sit in the sun the whiter I get it seems. At least I don't really get brown. No fair, I never get a decent tan *pouts* Saturday, June 22ns 2:08pm So I've got a new blog system for the time being. I write the stuff I wanna blog about down at home each day and just post it up when I get the chance to go online. That way I
won't forget so much of the stuff I wanted to blog about and the individual blogs don't get too long. So it's still hot as hell outside, I'm alone at home, I just had to dress my parents (NOT literally), cuz sometimes it's really a shame how they wanna go out (my mom's even wearing one of my skirts now, I swear if she busts the
zipper she's dead!), but I wasn't really in the mood for another kindergarten party, so I stayed home. Last night I went out with a few friends to what was supposed to be another concert (for free of course =) ), but it turned out it was more
like a market with a stage at each end and...well, we kinda agreed that it sucked, so we didn't stay too long. I was looking for a new pair of sunglasses, cuz my favorite pair broke 2 days ago (I'm stubbornly still wearing it, though), but
did I find a pair? No, of course not. =P Thursday, June 20th 11:15am Sorry for the lack of updates lately, but I had a little bit of a situation here with my "dear" computer (actually, I'm still having it),
and I couldn't use it for 14 antagonizingly long days. =P Believe me, on day 2 I was in severe withdrawal. For the next week or two though, I luckily can go
online at my brother's place, if only once or twice a week. I could go more often, but
my brother doesn't exactly live around the corner and my parents would probably kill me if I drove there every day (gas price at the moment: around $4 a gallon - they pay =))
So I have to be thankful for whatever time I get and hope I can go back to my normal routine VERY soon. The last time I had to go more than a day without a computer
was on vacation and there I had plenty of things to distract me, but here? Bored outta my mind!! Pathetic if you think about it. "Name one thing you can't live without."
"My computer." I SO need to get a life. Actually, not having the computer around helped me a little with that. I went to the movies, saw a concert, accompanied my godson to his kindergarten party (yeah...that's
what I thought, too), went to dinner with a friend, whined until my sister gave in and went to the German-American fair with me (that disappointment would've been worth a whole
blog by itself), read books (yeah, plural, you know how long I
went without that stupid thing? Now multiply that with approx. 80 pph (pages per hour), divide through +/- 500 pages per book and you know how much stuff I went through)
and: I even played with my gameboy (what I haven't done since...the mid-nineties I believe). Oh, and I read some of my mom's women's magazines...ummm...when exactly did they start
putting stuff in there like "How to cheat on your partner without getting caught"?? And then there were those other days,
like sometime last week I believe where my dad in his infinite wisdom forgot to close the car's sunroof overnight. So Nicole used the car the next morning and on my way I felt
more and more like I had peed in...well, you get the drift. Did I mention we had a thunderstorm that night and everybody kind of "forgot" to tell me the front seats were
completely soaked? Hmpf. My family. All my tapes that were scattered in the car (yeah, there are still people who refuse to get CD players for their cars - like my dad)
are goners now, too, cuz - you guessed it - dripping wet. Don't you just love days like that? Funny how stuff like that never happens when I sit at home (uhh...wait...maybe that's the problem...) and don't know what to blog about, but all that is when I don't have access
to a computer at all. I never wanna have to go that long without one again, I swear it was making me crazy (I admit, that's pathetic, pure, sad addiction). Oh, and I'm back with a new layout, too. Nothing great, I didn't really have the time to learn new stuff and actually test it out and neither did I find any good graphics, so it's
pretty much like the old layout, just...uglier I guess...lol =) Hope the next one's gonna be better again, but I really gotta sit down and learn some more html first I guess...
New category, the "weeklies". Nothing great either, just stuff like quotes, songs etc. A few shout outs at the end:
Tina, didn't you forget something?(lol)
Mel & Angela - don't work too hard! =) Let me know what's going on on the boy front with you! I'm curious..lol =) And does anyone mind explaining to me how that blogger thing works with tables
(and for that matter, how it works at all??)Fran & Ariane - do you know how much I envy you right now? I can compete with the temperatures, lacking the beach though. And you know what I just realized
a few days ago? No one ever told me what I missed at that State Department get together party thingie! Oh, and Fran: Du bist doch die einzige, die immer auf Deutsch ins Guestbook schreibt. B�ses M�dchen! Grad du solltest's
doch besser wissen! lol =) And yeah, I meant "voicemail in heaven" Monday, June 17th 12:54pm Sorry, major computer problems on the home front here. So no updates for a little while until I get it fixed
(which could take a few weeks maybe). Sucks majorly, but there's nothing I can do about it at the moment. =( But y'all can still sign the guestbook and tell me that you miss me! lol =) Wednesday, June 5th 8:19pm I'm on a sugar high today. I don't know what it is, but I've been craving sugar since the moment
I woke up today. I'm driving my mom crazy with it, too, cuz I come downstairs every 20 minutes looking or asking for something else to eat and
earlier I kinda messed up half of the house cuz I couldn't find our blender and was craving a milkshake (caramel, yummy).Let's say I didn't find it,
but I get creative when it comes to my cravings. =) This sucks, though, I can literally
feel the pounds forming on me...lol =) But I can't stop! (What can I say, my self control is very, very low) So, someone finally signed the guestbook again (thanks Gabi), only took me what? 3 weeks of pleading? Wow, makes 1 entry per week. But seeing that only like
3 or 4 people come to the site every day anyway I guess I shouldn't complain, huh? Guess I have to promote myself a little more. =) Spiderman's finally starting over here tomorrow. About time it did, I've wanted to see it for the longest time, but we always get everything here
months later than everyone else...Guess that's what I'm gonna do on the weekend. Anyone of my homies care to join me? K, I'm out for now, gotta look for some more suuu-gar! (Where are the Twinkies when you need them???) Tuesday, June 4th 1:45pm I have a feeling there is someone out there who is kind of p.o.ed at me. I'm not sure
about it, but I've had the feeling for a little while now. Maybe I'm paranoid, but it's really bothering me. And bothering not in the sense
of annoying me, but of troubling me. So maybe it's my own fault if I'm right, but I never intended anything bad, I swear. =( I hope I can fix
it and I'm willing to make some sacrifices to make it right again, but I want my suspicions confirmed first before I say or do anything about
it. I'm not pointing fingers here, but if you think it's you that I meant (if the person even comes to the site, I don't have a clue, no one
ever signs the d*** guestbook! [hint, hint]) drop me a line and we can talk about it (I have a feeling I'm gonna drown in emails and complaints now that I
wasn't even aware of...lol). But maybe I'm just being paranoid. Still haven't changed anything about the site. I just can't think of anything that not everybody else has already. Yeah well, call me uncreative...lol =)
I don't have to work until next Monday again, so maybe I'll come up with something this week. Shout out to my folks around here today (since I met Sonja's mom yesterday), I swear I'm gonna call or email all of you this week (if I don't decide that
I'm too lazy). Funny how we kept more in contact when I was still in the US, but I know you all are busy. Tina, Gabi, Sonja & all the others, what about some
guestbook love here? Fran, I still need the answering machine thingie from you! Oh, and did I tell you the army called me personally because of this job-thingie
I was talking about? And I didn't even apply for it! lol =) I wasn't there when they called, but I hope they won't call again, I don't wanna do it anyways! lol =)
I'm not that much of an actor =) Sunday, June 2nd 10:08pm Argh, y'all can't imagine how I feel right now. =P After 2 days of pretty much
working non-stop I think there's no part of my body that doesn't hurt. 10 hour shifts and guess what? I'm not allowed to sit down
during that time. Dumb little rule there, but nothing I can do about it. Tomorrow is the last day till next weekend at least (I hope).
And I come home today at like 8pm and my dad needs exactly 40 seconds to get into a fight with me because I was supposed to do a thousand
things that he never told me about - and just because he was too lazy to do them himself =P I wanted to blog last night already after I came
home but every activity then involved me lying down, no sitting no standing...lol =) And since I don't have a laptop...well, I'm complaining
too much again, bad habit, I know. I guess after a few weeks all that will be routine and not even worth complaining about =) K, gotta go, I gotta
get up at 3am, so I should get some sleep before that! Friday, May 31st 7:16pm There, I've had it. I'm planning to stay online for the rest of the night
so no one can bother me on the phone anymore. Geez, people can be so persistent. My parents are organizing some kind of
bash for the club my dad's the head of for tomorrow and since they both aren't home everybody's pestering me about it on the phone, cuz
they need to know stuff, can't find stuff bla bla bla. I told some people 3 times already today that I don't have a clue
where stuff and people are and what's going on (and I don't really care either. I'm just wondering where in the world my
mom is, she was supposed to be home to take care of this hours ago!), but do they get the hint? No, of course not. Ugh. So God bless (for once)
only one phone line in the house, meaning no more phone calls while I'm online. =) Tomorrow is my first day of work. So not looking forward to it =P And this morning in bed I had such a good idea what I
could blog about today and then I fell asleep again and it was gone. Typical. Well, maybe I'll remember it for tomorrow. And people wuz up? What about someone signing the guestbook? I know some people are coming to the site, so why is noone signing?
Please, for me, okay? Wednesday, May 29th 10:30pm I just realized I haven't updated yet today, and since I don't
really have anything interesting to talk about and am just plain bored I took some quizzes again. I'm starting to
like those thingies waaaaay too much =) You're ANGER!
You're not the most pleasant person to be around! You've got a short fuse, and you're almost always mad at the world.
You're represented by the color red. Hmm..interesting...lol =) Guess my friends could throw their two pennys in there..lol =) Oookay... See? I always say "Vanilla" when it comes to chocolate or vanilla...lol =) So, friends, any comment on that one? lol =) K, that was the last one for today, this is taking up too much space...lol =) Tuesday, May 28th 11:26am Some people just suck. So I was waiting to get this great
summer job in the company my brother works where I'd earn like 3 times as much as I get on the other job and now
what? They won't take me cuz I'm unemployed. Erm...hello? Isn't that normal when you're looking for a job? Well,
they only take students for summer jobs. Funny how I still count myself as one. And I HAVE to be unemployed or my
parents won't get child support. Whole thing may be a little confusing for people who don't really know the "great"
German social system, but I'm not gonna explain that now, so y'all can be happy. =) It still sucks majorly, though,
guess my summer vacation is a little shaky there at the moment... Otherwise, nothing interesting's really happening these days. Hope that changes again so I can have a little
more interesting blogs soon. Oh, by the way, good luck to Angela on her final! Monday, May 27th 5:12pm Happy Memorial Day to all the Americans! =) And oops, my bad.
Audrey just pointed out to me that the "enter" link on the main page led to the old layout. My bad. And here I am
complaining that no one signs the guestbook (well, almost no one). Explains that at least. =) It's fixed now, though,
so I hope there shouldn't be any more problems. Sunday, May 26th 12:33pm People, guess what. I got a job. Now. After I've mentally prepared
myself that I didn't get it (it was the one where I had the 2 minute interview this week) and didn't want to do
it anymore (found out that they only pay half of what they told me they'd pay). I start next Saturday and I'm so not
looking forward to it...lol =) Well, at least I get some money finally. Oh, and why is no one signing the guestbook by the way? Obviously a few people are coming to the site, so sign it
please? Saturday, May 25th 12:13pm Parents. Or maybe it's just my parents (or better yet:
my dad). Last night I had to pick him up from work and on the way home he insulted me as a wild sow. Gee,
thanks Dad, you know you're in some way related to me, right? Anyway, why did he insult me? Just because I
like to use the speed limits here. He's always wondering why people always pass him and not me, well newsflash:
happens when you decide to block traffic cuz you HAVE to drive 15mph slower than the speed limit says...lol =)
Since I'm back from the US he seems to have this urge to criticize my driving every chane he gets. He's outta
luck there, though, cuz I don't care. =) And talking about him: last night he suggested I should drink beer before I go to bed just because I said I
couldn't sleep until late the night before. I dunno about all you guys, but I'm kinda fond of my brain cells
and don't see any reason to murder them just to get a little sleep. But that's Dad-logic I guess...lol =) My graphics program sucks by the way. I was trying to get the next layout working yesterday amd I was so not
satisfied with it. I changed everything around until I pretty much deleted it completely cuz nothing worked like
I wanted it to. And what's the worst about that? It's my fault that nothing worked cuz I realized yesterday I don't know
shit about all this html and java stuff. I really gotta get a book and learn that stuff, it's driving me crazy
if stuff doesn't work the way I plan it to. So you can just hope I learn a little more or we're stuck with that layout forever. Friday, May 24th 10:19am Me + little sleep = baaaaad combination. That's what my
mom and my nephew had to deal with since 8 this morning. And then they start complaining. Hey, it was NOT
my idea to chauffeur them around town! And at that time nonetheless. I threatened to kill my nephew
about 5 minutes after I got downstairs already. Normally it takes me at least an hour. Then my mom asked
something like what I would have done if she had had another baby after me and well...let's just say I gave her
a really, really mean answer. So sue me, I'm no morning person, don't talk to me before 10 and you don't get mean
answers. It's not like she doesn't know that. The guestbook is down again I just saw. Ugh, Getstring just sucks. I should have stayed with bravenet from the beginning.
Guess that's what I'm going back to now and where I'll be staying. I'm sick of Getstring already. Guestbook has been down
like 5 days already since I have the site, and we all know they site doesn't exist that long yet. So all you people who signed
the Getstring guestbook, wanna sign the new one again? Pretty please? Thursday, May 23rd 11:39am So yesterday I got a little bored. And what do I do
when I get bored (well, except for whining)? I go online. So I looked around on some sites and took
some of those little quiz thingies you find everywhere. Let me tell you, I was lmao. Turns out I'm 30% gay,
50% evil, a french kiss and...ummm...Chris Kirkpatrick? How the hell did that happen? I don't remember which
answers I gave that they came to THAT conclusion but it's kinda scary...lol =) Audrey and I had "fun" last night learning to make special characters with our keyboards (found out that we have
different keyboards and wanted to be equal...lol). So much fun my computer crashed and Audrey got booted...lol =)
Tsk, technology nowadays. But I still don't understand why mine crashed completely and she just got booted, she
went waaaaay more overboard than I did...lol =) Does anybody else have that problem that you lie in the sun for days, think you finally have a nice teint and
you wake up the next day and it's gone? This is annoying the heck outta me. I hardly get a teint anyway and
yesterday I finally thought I had succeeded and what do I see when I wake up this morning? Nothing. No fair. =P Oh, and if you come here, could you sign the guestbook, pleeease? Cuz that's what it's here for. And it would really, really
make my day. Just thought I'd mention it. =) Still Wednesday, May 22nd 5:55pm Decided to change the layout already. Kinda didn't like the other one anymore.
I'm still working through the content of the site, I wanna add some more..well...original stuff and cut some other
things out, dunno what yet, though. So if everything's a little messed up over the next few days you know why. If not
that just means I couldn't think of anything. =) Oh and Mel, happy now? lol =) Changed the title. And even took your
suggestion (liked it and couldn't think of anything else...lol) You were right about the stuff you said, so I hope it's all's good =)
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Wednesday, May 22nd 12:21pm
Just came back from my job interview. If you can call that interview. Let's say the total time it took me until I was back home was...14 minutes. Take that minus about 12 minutes it takes me to get there and go back home and you know how long the interview was. And you probably know the outcome, too. But at least it wasn't my fault! =) And why was she so surprised anyway that I've done that before? Do I look so dumb? Geez.
Tuesday, May 21st 8:05pm
So here it is, the moment of truth (drums, please). I just told Mel about this whole thing (*squeezes eyes shut and ducks*) and she's probably gonna show up here sooner or later. So if the counter goes up one person (kinda depressing how I can count the people that come to the site on half a hand each day...lol) I know who it was. =)
Monday, May 20th 4:03pm
Housework sucks. I was just trying to iron some of my clothes and my dear flat-iron had nothing better to do than losing all its water (of course without me realizing it at first) and therefore leaving brown marks on my white nightgown. THAT'S why I always tell my mom ironing clothes isn't worth it anyway. It's just making trouble. Ugh.
Haven't heard anything from Melissa for quite some time now. Wonder what she's up to now that finals are over. She still doesn't know about the site, even though I wanted her to be the first to judge it =( Well, can't change that now I guess...
Guess what, I'm planning my next US vacation already. Just came back 5 weeks ago and already wanna go back. I have to anyway because of my luggage, but I wanna have a real vacation there, too. =) Only thing I need for that to happen now is a job...lol =) And someone telling me when the heck I'm allowed to enter the country again...
Sunday, May 19th 11:30am
No update yesterday, cuz Geocities was down, sorry.
Ya know what? I HAVE to stop reading Whitney's Live Journal. God, she always makes me so jealous. With what? Well, she's not even doing anything special, it's just... well, ever mentioned that my goal in life (well, one of them, but one of the biggest ones) was going to college in the US? Almost got true this year, then it all burst like a bubble. Well, back to Whitney. The way she describes her life at college in her journal - just like you always hear it is: the time of your life. A lot of work, though, but she just seems to be so close to her all her friends there and...ugh, I can't even explain it. University in Germany is not at all like that. I said since I was like 7 or 8 I'm either gonna study in the US or not at all. So guess what I'm doing next year? Definitely not studying. So what do I wanna say with all this? All of you stressed college students (well, most of you already left finals behind you, haven't you?) don't complain too much, be happy that you get the opportunity you have, I'd kill for it (not literally...lol). =)
Friday, May 17th 6:28pm
Geez, it's after 6 and it's still hot as hell out there. Not that I'm complaining, though, I love the sun. Hope it stays for a little while. So once again today, a tribute to FRAN, who's probably still stuck in the middle of all my luggage in her living room (or kitchen) - geez, wonder if I should build you a shrine as often as you tell me to mention you...lol =) I didn't have a clue I had THAT much stuff still over there (and I didn't know I OWNED half of that stuff). Y'all gotta pray for me that I get the job I'm having an interview for on Wednesday, or I'll never see all that stuff again...lol =)K, I'm off to the backyard to get some more sun while it's still there!
Thursday, May 16th 11:53am
Ugh, I just got up. =P Not voluntarily, mind you. We have this stupid construction site right in front of our house and you wake up every morning to what feels like an earthquake. Happened a few times last week that some of my picture frames went to the floor even. About time they got finished down there, this has been going on for weeks now.
Oh, by the way, a big shout-out to FRAN, who wanted to be more involved in the site...lol =) You don't have any idea how happy I'll be when this whole luggage-situation is over and I finally have my stuff here. You know how much I <3 you for helping me with that?
Looks like today is finally gonna be nice and warm and sunny, too! About time I'd say. =) And now guess what? I can't openn the windows cuz of the construction? Well. Maybe I'll flee to the backyard later on. Let's see how warm it's gonna get.
The guestbook was down yesterday, dunno what happened. Finally some people come to the site and then that. But I checked some other sites and it was down there, too, so at least it wasn't my fault. Hope it's working again today! Hey, and I have the next 2 layouts for the site completely done already! =) They're completely different from that one, though. I'd love to upload them, but what would be the sense in doing it already when no one has even seen that one?
K, gotta go and grab some breakf....lunch now! (Seems like I'm always eating, doesn't it?)
Wednesday, May 15th 2:07pm
German customs is crazy. Totally insane. I just found out what I
have to pay to get the rest of my luggage that I had to leave in the US over here. I brought half of
that stuff from Germany to the US in the first place and now to get it back I have to pay customs duties. Um, hello?
Anyone agree with me here that that's not really fair? They told me I should have filled out some forms before I
went over there to prove that I brought the stuff from here with me. Yeah, right, as if ANYONE would
think about something like that beforehand. You have to pay 17% on shoes already! 13% on textiles. Do you know
how much clothes I still have lying around in DC? It would almost be cheaper just to fly over there and get
it! Plus the funny thing is they don't count the worth of the stuff that you send to calculate your duties, nooo,
that would be way too easy. They count the worth plus whatever you have to pay for postage. So if my stuff
is worth $800, but postage is $500 you have to pay 13% of $1300. Things like that just piss me off. And they won't
believe me anyway that some of my stuff is worth what I'm gonna tell them, but hey, if I buy CDs and books used,
I don't see why I should write down their normal store-price, right? Anyone agree with me here (please?)
Ugh. I just get so upset over stuff like that. Especially since I hardly have the money to pay the postage,
and now I need another carload just for customs. K, deeeeeep breath now. =) About time I got a job I guess. =P
I good thing about today, though: I got Micky D food for free =) We have this point thingie going on here, where
you can collect points in certain mags and then you get food free =)
By the way, happy b-day Manu!
Yay! I'm done! Everything's uploaded. =) It still sucks, but I gotta think of some cool stuff first (and I can't do that with 2 nights of only 3 hours of sleep). Now comes the hard part - telling people about it. Especially telling Mel about it (hear that, your opinion matters most! lol =). And Angela of course, and if they don't approve...Well. But i should really start telling people about this, or I'm gonna write all this stuff all for myself to read until the end of time. Can't let that happen, now can we? lol =)
Tuesday, May 14th 12:18pm
I just came back from this reeeeeally boring seminar they made me go to and...ugh. Did I mention I have to
go again tomorrow? I even have to get up early for it! =P I'm so used to sleeping in since I'm back home,
I can't just go and get up at 7am when I only went to bed at 3:30am!! Well, guess I have to, though.
I'm not anywhere near satisfied with the site by the way. I'm changing everything around like every 20 minutes.
I even re-named it already. Geez. Maybe I should make up my mind before I upload all the stuff just to uplpad it
again 5 minutes later. I even have another layout in the works, even though I'm not even finished with
that one. When I started all this a few days ago (and also before that) I never understood how Angela can change her layout
so often (sometimes even twice a day...lol), but it's actually really fun to make them (if they actually work in the end - mine normally don't at the first...
let's say 2647 times). =) Okay, gotta stop rambling here and get some stuff done to upload! And I gotta have lunch, I'm starving. =)
Still Monday, May 13th 12:45pm
Well, it's slowly coming together I guess. Nothing's working like I want it to but what did I expect? I got into html like...umm...16 hours ago? lol =) So I practiaclly spent most of the night sitting over all this (had to stay awake anyway) and I wish I was done already. Dunno why I keep blogging, though, it's not like anybody knows about the site anyway...
Monday, May 13th 1:51am
So, here it is: my very first try at building a website. If nothing works, don't sue me, I'm working on it, really...lol =) I built this place as a new home for my thoughts and ramblings (I'm just gonna be confident that SOMEONE's gonna be interested in my dull and boring life), so check back once in a while, I'm attempting to get this baby running in no time (yeah, right)!
