Mirror;
Im trapped inside the walls of myself bouncing off the walls of me struggling to be free.
Free from the judgement, the expectations, the guilt, the hate, the hurt, the pain.
all that is me.
all that haunts me.
all that breaks me down.
all that makes me wish i were
someone else.
somewhere else.
all that keeps me from being who i was meant to be.
And even if things seem like they're going all wrong, remember some people care, and for them try to be strong, i care, and so do others, please remember, i hope i will see you in next novermber, simple truths and people, can make things seem better, always try to remember things said in this letter.
HOOK
The other day i got that strange feeling again, The one that i get when you try and bring it to an end.
It got all cold, and i started to shake.
i was petrified and i prayed you wouldnt break
but you're dead and i know it, you're dead and i know it.
Im crying inside but im trying not to show it, it hurts me everyday to see you in so much pain.
I wish that i could come and take it all away
but when you're alone you stop with the pretend.
you say its ok? then why have you tried to commit suicide over twenty- two times?
I hope that with me you'll always be real
and always tell me you're secrets revealed
I think i'm the only thing keeping your fate unsealed.
Im here for you , and thats a done deal.
HOOK.
*Suicide isn't the cowards way out. you have to be strong to do what he did. i admire him alot. what he did wasn't very selfish at all. what he did was Extremely selfish*
..and though i dont know why, He has in mind a plan for me and it is not to die. Even though i hate myself and though i've lost all hope, It is not my time to die so i will have to cope. The stress that i am feeling is different than most things, It's because of standards that hold me up like strings.The world is not all black and white and no one can be perfect, SO when i make a small mistake, i dont need to let it affect me so much that i think im a failure, Im no good. Everyone makes mistakes and no one should ever feel they're terrible because they fall short of standards that are set way to high, and No one should resort to the things that i am doing harmful in every way. And i need to have faith that through God everything will be OK because God put me here for a reason and though i dont know why, He has in mind a plan for me and it is not to die!