My Prayer Wheel
(Letters to God)
(January 30, 2001, Tuesday ) (Written by: Karlo V. Miranda)
Dear Father in heaven, I send my love and silent prayer tonight that You would lend me Your heart and hear my call. I feel as if I'm in a state where I'm merely passing through in these earthly existence and living a life without a sense of direction, I find myself lost and confused to where I am... to where I am going and to where I'm suppose to be. How I feel as if my contribution are almost gone, out of date and sqeezeed dry out of me. I continue look for refuge in the things not even worthy of my time... Your time. How I pray that you would bring me back to You into the path of righteousness teaching me to speak in truth and live by faith, putting my everything in You. To be wise as a disciple that would lead others to you and move with your divine power and grace.
Day by day, I watch my life pass me by as I drift in the sea of dreams and flood of human emotions only to find myself empty and back to where I have begun, lost in my sinful and disturbed ways. I say words and make promises that I would change for You and You alone, only to revert again to my old self, relying in my own understanding. How I recall the words that comes out of my lips praising you as Lord of the heavens, my everlasting sun. I lifting my soul and feel your spirit move in me, yet deep within me, deep within my human side, sleeps the shadows of my being, darkness and pride still remains intact. Just as the sun gives and brings its ray light in me every morning, shadows are also build up where light doesn't shine through. Even in times of happiness and clear blue skies, my shadows remain only hidden among prying eyes. How can I say the words I love You and make it count and actually mean something that would outlast time itself, a year or even just a day of my life enough to fully mean what I'm trying to convey when it is not in my own strength that I am able to do so. Its only by You Lord that I am able to abide in Your presence and make miracles happen. Its not my time anymore but Your time, guide me as I live a life in You and make it a worthy offering.
(Feburary 5, 2001, Monday) (Written by: Karlo V. Miranda)
Tonight, however is a different night. I look back into my younger self, to my teen years and to the man I've grown to be. Of how I am truly blessed. And knowing You were there always watching over me, my family, my friends throughout my lifetime. and that's a long time.
I have now currently been living 21 years of my life. Many would say that 21 is still sucha young age. But the way I see it, its a very long long time considering there's 12 months in a year, about 4 weeks in a month, 7 days in a week, 24 hours in a day and so on. It all adds up to a very very long time. As I meditate on your words of wisdom from the Bible, I can't help but wonder where are the "missing years" of your childhood. The Bible seemed to have jumped in time, from the time you were 12 years of age teaching the wisemen about Your Father's will, to the times when You have started (You and) Your Father's ministry at the age of 30. So many questions but so little answers. Please grant me some understanding regarding mystery.
Oh Dear Jesus, did you ever had to face teen and yourng adult life where decisions are just too difficult to make? Experienced moments of trial and defeats? And how you got along with your parents (Mary and Joseph) when they think differently? Dealth with decisions of disputes between parents and peers? And even the little things such dealing with school, education and labor? Or, perhaps, falling love? And Otherwise, hehe? If only someone could provide me some answers to these questions of curiousity, which is very unlikely... Only you can the answers to these questions. Oh how I wonder, what if only You have lived in this time (the present time), would things still be the same? would you still give me part of your time and listen to my ramblings as you are right now and do the same for others? In my heart I believe You would, but how it would be possible in beyond my reasoning and comprehension. In all things, this I know for sure, You've always done Your Father's will... and so should I... Nonetheless, I thank you for everything You will always be my all in all. Your Child, Karlo...
(April 18, 2001, Wednesday) (Written by: Karlo V. Miranda)
Dear Jesus,
"My heart opens up to thee
the One who sets me free
for giving me the gift of sight
that helps me see the light
guiding me through the night"
"As I wait for the coming of a new day dawn
beneath the majestic rising of the morning sun
let me count the days of my youthful years
giving me ears that I may hear your call me by name
and walk with you the path of righteousness"
"Let me abide in the truth of Your holy words
that you may be there to draw me close
unity and one with the spirit that flows
live in me, thru me, then absord me
never let me go, nor let me be lead astray
to the author of my life I pray
to God be the glory!!!"
Nothing without Him,
~ Karlo V. Miranda ~
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(Subject : "The Chase" ) (Date : June 28, 2001, Thursday) (Written by: Karlo V. Miranda [G.C.])
How sorry I am to be swayed and distracted my means of trickery and decieit by the enemy of this world and be lead into false finish lines when the journey to victory is still far from reach. I should have known better and You expected more from a servant like me. And now, I look forward into Camp Bambi Lake, just a week from now, where I hope to catch a glimpse of your glorious manifested prescence, wanting and expeecting more and more. I wait for You year after year, time and time again till my last dying breath comes. Teach me your ways and make me hungry for You. So hungry that I won't care for anything else but You. Never satisfied and always wanting more. Oh Lord, I find no remorse or guilt in calling You out. Stike me, if You must, but I want You to show me what You can really do. I've been waiting so long and I just want more of You. In this world, heaven is my victory, Death is my final destiny. But in you, Oh Lord, I am complete and at rest. Take me higher than before, fill my cup and show me the way back to Your Heart. Break me into pieces and mold me to Your desires and contentment. I for one, wants only to be your hands to touch others, to be your feet leading me wherever You want me to go, to be your eyes seeking the light that gives light.
All this I give to you with all my heart, my soul and my whole being. The chase is on and I am out to get YOU, my Lord. Its impossible I know, I believe I can and I have faith in what I cannot see but I can't do it alone. Take away my every everything, all that may be dear to me, all my distractions and my sorrows, that I may get a lead on where You will be. For where You are, is the only place I want to be. The chase is on, I pray that You hear my call and that someday, I will find my place in You. Catching the impossible, oh how awesome that would be. All this I pray, in the name on the Father, the Son and the Holy Ghost.