| I sat silently on my little island. It�s been what? Two years since we got back? I rarely see you now.
Unless she is there. Then I see you close to her side. Laughing, joking, kissing her cheek. �How can you be so sure?� I laughed as if I cared for her joke. I knew if would make you happy if I played along. As long as you smile I don�t care how fake I have to be. But I wish those smiles were for me. Those smiles of happiness beyond any happiness imaginable. I remember when you gave me those smiles. Now they are rarely for me. �You know� I used to think I was better at everything then you�� �Riku.. You�ve been strange lately.� �Hmm? How so?� �You just seem different.� I watched my brownish golden haired friend swing his legs off the edge of the paupou tree. He looked over at me full pout in place. �You seem depressed.� �I think I like this world�� �I�m fine Sora.� I lied as I gave him a smile. He beamed and nodded not noticing the slight tremble when I said his name. �Hey!! Kairi and I are planning this party Saturday!! After all it�s our 2 year anniversary!!� He swung his legs so he sat on the tree like one would a horse. The look on his face� so hopeful. �Sorry I can�t I already promised my father I�d help him with the house repairs.� �Oh yeah! Didn�t the roof get messed up from yesterday�s storm?� I nodded and he gave a thoughtful look. �We�ll be together�. In darkness.� �Do you remember that day?� �Day?� �On the beach�� When we made love.� I knew it caught him off guard because it made him fall off the tree in shock. �Riku!! I thought we�d-� �Never speak about it?� I can�t stop thinking about it.� I admitted. I remembered everything about it. His soft skin, the way his muscles tensed around me, the small lips trailing my collarbone. �We can�t dwell on that Riku.� �I�m in love with you.� �I was jealous. You were so true to your heart. I wanted to be like you.� �Don�t say that� you know I can�t return it.� �Why not?!� �I love Kairi!!� It hurt me� him saying that� I knew I had lost my chance awhile ago� but I had to try. Especial after that day. �I do have something that you can�t imitate� You as a friend.� �Well in that case I have something you can�t imitate�� Those words�. He had kissed me after. And we�. We continued� until I was pounding into him with all the strength I had left in me. And then in the end we were kissing each other whispering words of love. �I don�t believe you�� I whispered against my tears. �Shut up�. Just because of one day�� �One day we were together� we were lovers. Don�t you get that? You were mine and I was yours.� �Leave me alone�� I watched as Sora ran off crying. And here I stand staring off into the sunset. Trying to figure out what I am to do now that I have completely lost the one I love�. Slowly I dragged the sharp object in my hand down each wrist and I watched as the blood poured into the ocean. I raised my hands as if they were wings and fell off my tiny island, into the greenish orange that was the ocean. |