Hello again and just to tell everyone out there life aint so good on me side again. I'm gonna lose me job cuz of me mom now telling me she doesnt want me to work so she wont take me in for work anymore which means ill walk and keep me job. But then she said shell call in tell them i quit....she really wants to ruin me life Well I'm takin a shit load of quizzes right now and headin soon to watch Lilo and Stitch with me Stitch stuff animal and me kittie. And play FF8 as well, need some good playstation time in, been awhile since i decided to play it or get me hands of me snes :P. Well I'm off for now it looks...OMG its most the next day :P, but other then life its ok need to cash 2 paychecks now ...maybe do that tomorrow morning before I gotta draw and paint again....hmmmmm oh well right highschool 11th grade what could go wrong when you have so much to do this year and hope to god you got the classes you wanted and think life it ok...needs more sugar but oh well right i have to much spice in it...wooo cauldron im off to go play me PS and watch movies ttyl -hugz- look at quizzes page later to see me links to them of funfunf.
~Tasha
You know some nights you wish to kill yourself and others you dont know what to do with your life. Well today ill tell ya something made me wanna kill alot of people and want to hurt meself.. -sigh- Well just life sucks more and more doesn;'t it over time it's like you just want people to leave ya alone sometimes and they keep pushin or its you doin the pushing cuz you worried...well i aint gonna worry anymore bout anyone that solves me problem im to worry sum..gotta not be so im gonna cut back on the talkin which should help problem maybe since i was born to talkitive maybe thats why in the end ive been alone..or maybe im just meant to be alone in ways well i dont know anymore the night has just confused me like shit so whatev well nite i guess whatev
Yes I fell asleep lastnight I cant help that, But i've been out for about 13 hours or so, and now all I can do is be pissy and in a mood that I just wanna shoot someone in the god damn mother fuckin head...something seems out of place in me mind right now and I can't figure it out at the moment due to lasp of mind and the fact that all me poetry and "art" is pissin me off. Right now i was ready to take a damn lighter to it all and make it all go away so I never remeber any of this for god sakes I want all this shit I have in me room burned I'm so lost and so pissed thought this day get better and its not its all hell everything i touch is like a bad memory everything i do just seems to go away and everyone i know finally lost touch and care for me, once again i feel alone. A good friend of mine sent something to me today telling me he misses me, wishes he was back by me. we grew up together -snicker and we never knew it- we went to preschool together lost touch in elemetary and middle school, then found each other in highschool. Both of us have come around and seen each other grow up from little kids of just learning to us now the ones who just are different and not really care about whats around us. Sometimes I wish for those days of old to come back, I miss the days of not caring and being free. -sighs and puts her head down- now i face the facts of life and just wanna hide again from this damn world. Just life was so better being known as the ice queen and knowing that nothin could get to me and then I fall in love and see everything at a different slant,then i hit a break up then it changes again and things men are fuckin stupid, then im free again and happy and want to enjoy life, then its back to him and all is changed again, we have grown apart and different,you try to rebuild what was lost but seems some pieces just wont work anymore, that more was lost then gained. and now i look back at meself in the mirror and look back at the comp and sigh. Ive grown up and cant take the fact me heart is weird and me mind is totaly fucked.
~Tasha
Well just lettin people know i have a fuckin headache and feel like shit. And not happy that the fact soon I have to put more hours in at work due to back to school.. Well school isnt that far away either now i come to think of it and scared of school once again due to all the problems it seems to bring. well ill be on here again tonight to post more but now i need sleep ttyl buh byes.
Yes once again I'm postin on the day well yea its like 2:01am :P. once again I try to sleep and all I get is rolling and tossin and turning like something I need has to be finished I dont know what it is,but something is restin on me like I need to.Well god knows how look it took me to take the song I sung on me tape recorder and put it to writing now I gotta swing it by someone and see if I can get it out there in this world, knowin me since I'm a drummer I got the beat and all down so its all good. Well for some reason I;m tearin at meself cuz I can't draw humans anymore, I don't know when it was the last time I drew a human instead of anime so...I need to get back to normal people, and me poetry picked up again due to some pent up anger, I sent a few to a friend of mine in an email as we where chattin, tellin me all bout how sometimes i need to just get away from everything and be free and I started to write a poem again, good to feel like the old me again. I miss meself so much and the fact this is me junior year now....damn highschool flies by you know.
~Tasha(seeyaallagainheretomorrow)
well hello all i know u cant read this that well but im really tired and drugged up on me medicine for me headache. So im kinda in and out of me own head right now and just felt like snuggling with someone and thought i'd turn to me bf who is busy today and all and now i look at him and i feel all bad cuz he goin through a hard time and all, Well wish me well with things im off to lay in chair and sleep again for now.
Well I only work fri and sat which brings bad luck to me, taking care of little things here and there with workin on me room and also being forced to clean room but late at night all i do is mess with PS7 for fun until this one becomes as easy as all the others :P takes forever to learn then over and over again :p well ill write more later tonight now i need to bug some people so see ya soon take care all.
7-23-03
Yea I know I never got back to this thing due to the fact I really didn't wanna type and get back on nor was I in the mood tired and stuff ...special me third book me poetry goin in....lets hand it ot poetry.com for gettin me a third book :p take care all buh byes.
Well yea its like 12:22 and all so yea, but its 7-7 alright hehe. So work never called back which meant I didnt have to work and kept me ass at home waiting for them. Damn people, I know what they pulling so they can go fuck someone else. Well Hmm looks like i found a job that doesnt care and doesnt like me. Well i know where im gonna find the next job so i can be happy and glad of meself once again muhahaha. Well all i know there isnt much in the news of me cept im doin a a stunt i fell on now and cant get back out of it cuz i made a mistake and now i worry that what i wanna do is wrong. Why cant i just make up me mind. and to those of you helping me thank u it means a lot. To those i love and to those i hate, im so confused now, plz wont someone just pick me back up and just let me be normal again.
~Tasha
Well it's Saturday and where am I spending another Saturday...at work. Once again probably forced into the back and sent there wooooo funfunfun....well nothin much has been going on in me life as is same old shit, havent seen the friends i was suppose, no one calls no one does nothing. The only good thing that made my day was a postcard from a friend who just went on a trip. Damn makes me wish I didn't work so I could go out now. Seems Ann has slipped away or something, because I haven't heard anything from her side of the world nor do I think I will. Wed. I bought X4 and X5 is out so next fri when I get my check I'm going out to buy it. Plus I went out and bought a cool top, but took shit of a chunk out of my check...damn stupid shit you pay for the name brand. Well I'm keeping a close eye on a friend which I'm not sure if I should or not making sure everything ok, and also tryin to get me other friend to help him out alittle cuz girls can't do what guys need i guess so yea. Well off to work I go....YES OMG I WORK NOW ....i work me ass off more then i need to now day in and out and now I'm suppose to slip to fulltime soon...uh oh...and mike mad as is without seeing me with my hours.
~Tasha (whythe helldoihavetogotowork)
Well at the moment it's like 2:36 and well i was in bedbut woke up due to something in me head that wasn't very pleasant. But everyone has to learn to live up to fears and move on sooner or later. I it just me then that things it...well i guess it is then. But some nights it's totaly fine and other's just seems like someone ripped something out of you. But when I look at this happening to me it must mean something has to change in me life to end it, and there will come the change sooner or later when I can look again at the skies and be happy.That'll be the day when i can consentrate on spells instead of losing me mind half way and fuckin up -growls-. Well all I think maybe I'll go try to sleep again, don't know if I'll make it back to that place but I hope I find alittle comfort or I gotta figure a Tea or a Spell to get me out of this. Nitenite all take care-hugz-
~Tasha(zzzzzbacktobed)
Well to everyone who reads this life has been going slow here in MN, had tornados pass through us last night and life just seems weird. Retail sucks. Well i just got back from work did something i should of never did, wonder if i gonna lose me job now cuz of this. Not me fault a customer wanted me and i looked only with me eyes and he thought i was rolling then and well....i only have one contact that in and all so...what i suppose to do i was looking with the good eye. Well anyone have a job i can go to now after today since me boss and me director manager both pissed...Never do bad things to the head...even though he kool in the sense he gay and all he all sweet hehe. But you piss him off all hell breaks loose and your boss comes down on you and all and yells at you for pissin him off when you just doing your job in the first place ROAR. Well all I'm off of this thing for the day due to some techincal error with me and me job. Me head hurts, me back hurts, I wanna die right now but no I cant god damn mother fucking shit....woops sorry can't swear either, well still looking for a nice time to relax which I won't find it tomorrow, work again tomorrow..damn fucking shit.
~Tasha (thisbetterbeadreamsohelpmegod)
Once there was a little girl who tried and tried until one day she did something to be proud of, well when the next day came she hit rock bottom and noticed that it meant nothing to anyone but herself and that once you hit retail..ah hell you get back stabbed to much and you learn to not be friendly. I think I'm goin back into me shell once again after having enough people say shit about me, what the fuck they dont know me or ever will. So everyone I hate at work can kiss me ass right now, I think I'll listen to Karen and people telling me get the hell out now before it gets worse. I see me first job blow up right now and i still can sue them muhahaha. I mean oh poor them. :p. I have something else to say but seems to depress people so i decided to let it to meself so people dont think something wrong with me.
~Tasha
Well its about 1:30 or so, Dont know all me clocks are wrong so im not sure of the time. But just wanted to give people an update on me life here. Well i only work once again this week nad that's mon from 5-10....well i think as soon as school comes I'm leavin becuase of pay and me co-workers whichi I just wanna kill so bad right now. They all starting to piss me off royaly. Well for the last few days I'll I've been doing is goin out for drives and not listening to anytihng but me music. Matrix relaoded CD so kool hehe. Well I guess I'm gonna head to bed soon, I just tired and things just seem out of place latly, and everything seems to come to an end so soon and I see that one day maybe that brick wall i was talkin bout on me blogspot comin true...well <hugz all> thanks for stoppin by im off for the night.
~Tasha(deadtoallaroundhernow)
OMG wonderful joyous day....someone come kill me now....Im goin to Taste Of minnesota today so if anyone needs me I won't be here. Im in the middle of gettin pics drawn for a website that wants me to do pics for them so :P, im havin fun now...i getta draw all the anime i want. So im all happy with what's goin on now, but once I think of it I wonder if I can get bigger then this with them, I started drawin them this year and just seem to improve more and more, and me old photoshop isnt workin on comp, so i bugged a friend to burn the new one for me :P. Well All there will be more tonight posted here, but i need to head out buh byes
7-4-03
Ok I lied I was to tired last night to start to write up on here..well me bf told me some bad news about someone I know and well I feeling bad for him now. Well the food was good and so was the fireworks, but needed not to be so hot, i was sweating so much out there and i wasnt wear me normal color black so it was just weird. I was wearin a tank like I am now again...what's with me why I dressing like this...I'm startin to scare meself. Well I might be goin out again today to a sweet place called GameWorks, but I dont know antmore never got a call back yet from him so, I hope or ill be sittin here doin nothing, right hehe. Well take care all and have fun day post more tonight if I get home before 12 hehe.
~Tasha
Hello all as of right now I am doin nothing. Mike's leavin town for 2 days, I'm here alone, wonder how it's gonna be without him here. <looks around> Well also I'm listening to Inside Out by Eve 6 once again. Don't know wh i am but seem to be listening to it alot more since I went to Gameworks on friday and well just remebered i DL'd it along time ago. See how little things make you remeber songs you never knew you had still on your computer:P. Well I headin back to bed I really tired for some strange reason, without work this week I've hit a low streak...dont know why but see ya later.
Well this day seems so much fun of cleaning and cleaning and roar. Well to those who know me as Kittie, she's back alive more then ever and ready to kick more butt then before. And for those who know me as Silver Fox, more poems i've been busting out...and for those who just know me as Tasha aka white girl <blame that on me aunt who is japanese her friends call me that> Nothin been goin on much with me either. So combine that into one and get Super Kittie-Tasha-Silver Fox.....Long name damn. well im off for the night off me log here...have shit to do and people to screw i mean see....so see ya all later.
~Tasha(comewhatmay)
Yes it is me once again, and i can tell you summer hurts you alot i guess in ways no one would think it would. First retail climbing up me ass and second just never enough time for the people you love. Just driving me crazy i try so hard and keep failing over and over and over. Its like me tattoo always repeatin..-hits head- damn life right now i need something to bring it up a knotch well how bout i go for a little dance little sleep and then maybe some kittie loving. Get muffin up here to sleep with and take care of the lonliess i feeling right now. Sometimes she just fits the bond no one else can for me, i dont know why maybe its cuz i raised hre meself and since she always acts like im her mom and does things most cats dont i guess i grew to love her more and grew a special bond only i can understand. Well I'm off to bed to curl up with muffin and to make meself happy for the night by listen to me cds and just thinking of what tomorrow brings and hop that it becomes a happier day tomorrow. Well tomorrow if i not on yahoo or aim, im at work got callin from 1:30-6:30 and then im probably goin to breakfast too so yea take care all buh byes. <hugz>
~Tasha(ifuwheremeprincewouldilive?)