A/N: This is a really old thing, done sometime between “Aurum” and “Touch”. Hell if I can remember. It was originally intended to be a drabble, but it kind of…overflowed. There you go.

 

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So sweet, so perfect and wanted. I twist for Him, breathe for Him, certain that there can be no greater Heaven than these soft sheets, and of course no higher angel than Him. Oh, when I cease to fail You, will You make me whole like this forever?

 

Sharp nails down my chest. You breathe in through clenched teeth and attack my body one more time, so hard I might as well break into a thousand tiny shards of crystallized pain - but I don't do that until You draw away from me, until You roll off and leave me like the trash I am, again.

 

I remember how You saved me, how You reached out a white-gloved hand and banished the killing whispers from a starving urchin's mind. I never forget Your kindness to him, how You took a dirty brat and molded him into a demigod. I never forget Your kindness to me. But I can never release the yearning for more, even after You've given me everything.

 

...Everything but love, that is.

 

But how dare I ask?