Mistress of none --a true Blueblooded Bitch

kulasisi:(n)is a Tagalog term for Mistress. They are often referred to as Kalaguyo,Kabit,Querida,Kahati,Mang-aagaw,Number 2,3,4..etc.etc... These are my thoughts.. my life as i live it .. without limit, uncensored,and uncut.

"I SHALL HAVE NO MASTER FOR I AM THE MISTRESS OF NONE..."

.:Saturday, May 05, 2001:.

w h a t e v e r

fuck this word.
posted by .:|kulasisi @ 3:33 PM|:.

i forgot to mention that the result of the BAR is out! more than 900 takers have passed. as usual the topnatcher came from UP! when will i take mine?!
posted by .:|kulasisi @ 9:05 AM|:.

good morning, kulasisi! i have slept for almost 10 hours! it's just too much and now i feel so tired! lol.. damn.
posted by .:|kulasisi @ 9:03 AM|:.

thought about life

"Life isn't about keeping score.
It's not about how many people call you and it's not about who you've dated, are dating, or haven't dated at all.
It isn't about who you've kissed, what sport you play, or which guy or girl likes you.
It's not about your shoes or your hair or the color of your skin or where you live or go to school.
In fact, it's not about grades, money, clothes, or colleges that accept you or not.
Life isn't about if you have lots of friends, or if you are alone, and it's not about how accepted or unaccepted you are.
Life just isn't about that.
But life is about who you love and who you hurt.
It's about how you feel about yourself.
It's about trust, happiness, and compassion.
It's about sticking up for your friends and replacing inner hate with love.
Life is about avoiding jealousy, overcoming ignorance, and building confidence.
It's about what you say and what you mean.
It's about seeing people for who they are and not what they have.
Most of all, it is about choosing to use your life to touch someone else's in a way that could never have been achieved otherwise.
These choices are what life's about."

posted by .:|kulasisi @ 9:01 AM|:.

.:Friday, May 04, 2001:.

Do you know how it feels like to live in the shadow of someone? Being second best?! Hearing the words " why can't u be just like her!?" "why can't u be pretty like her?" endless why can't u be's… WHY THE HELL CAN'T I BE JUST MYSELF?
I mean we can't all be beautiful, we can't all be brainy.. we can't all be funny, we can't all be interesting. In someway to balance your inertia, u got to have flaws too.
When I was still a kid, I dreamed of being powerful, successful, rich and happy. I dreamed of having my own car, own house, own pool and my own family… those stuff and all. I still want those stuff… in reverse chronological order.
I had a dream about high school. I was back in senior high. Weird feeling… wonder where my high school classmates are! Bet they have their own families now and leading their own lives. HIGH SCHOOL HIGH!!~~ I didn't have a normal high school. I'm always absent. Though I have friends, I never do go out that much or spend time with them. My umbilical cord is still attached to my home. At the door to be precise.
Ok, this entry is somewhat criss-crossed. It doesn't express a single idea. So what!!? This is a journal not an essay writing contest. *C U T !!! Good take! , next set!! *
"It is amazing how complete is the delusion that beauty is goodness."
--Tolstoy
posted by .:|kulasisi @ 4:08 PM|:.

i took the guestbook off. it's a frigging nuisance. hehehe.. anyway, i got the blogsvoices...
someone asked me to be his mistress... damn, am i a mistress material?--
duh!?

tsk.
posted by .:|kulasisi @ 12:58 PM|:.

I tried applying for a job online. I don't know if this is going to work or what. I just got to give it a try. I'm that D e s p e r a t e.
I'm crossing my fingers.
My colds getting worst... eeeeeeeeew! *sniff*
everybody's obsessed with sex. damn. Mating season?! sex here , sex there, sex everywhere. yeah.. s e x
posted by .:|kulasisi @ 11:00 AM|:.

.:Thursday, May 03, 2001:.

i need to put a link on this .. site. they are so cool.
posted by .:|kulasisi @ 2:40 PM|:.

Look what i got for myself?! i got a guestbook. i don't know where to put it. If i put it anywhere aside from its present location, my *ahem* layout become such a m e s s. so there i got a guestbook, i just hope that it'll have entries. morning started out fine... m alone here.. yey! yey! i can laze around! listen to some music. But then, there's nothing much to do here that would result into enjoyment. So, i'd still be bored.
Anyways, i haven't seen my grades yet. I'm sure that it's out already. will i be able to be a full pledged senior? lol... *quivers* I have noticed that my past entries always have curses in it. hmmm.... what's wrong with me?!
posted by .:|kulasisi @ 9:45 AM|:.

tell me where it ends..
tell me where i'd stop..
tell me when...
tell me.. not to.......
. stop.
"..and it seems i'll spent my whole life waiting for love .. but when it comes , i always run away...."
posted by .:|kulasisi @ 2:17 AM|:.

.:Wednesday, May 02, 2001:.

REPEAT PERFORMANCE.. ahehehe! after all the not so nice things that has happened.. i want to stare at something beautiful..
posted by .:|kulasisi @ 7:58 PM|:.

lessons got to be learned the hard way.
posted by .:|kulasisi @ 3:51 PM|:.

this site is under construction!

frigging layout! damnation! need to fix it.
posted by .:|kulasisi @ 3:27 PM|:.

.:Tuesday, May 01, 2001:.

Something not good happened today! The filthy and smelly people from Edsa forced their way to Malacañang! (*as if they can get into the premises) They were carrying woods and stones. Damn ignorant people! Anyway, last night i realized two points about the rally in EDSA.
1. That unless they resort to violence (*which will soon happen) it will not cause work stoppage for the people in EDSA are mostly unemployed.
2. That they are blinded by their pity, which should not be the case beacuse what happened to Erap is a legal matter.
so there, there's a stand off right now at Malacañang. 2 policemen are dead… lots of injured people. And where are those politicians now? They are no where to be found.
They all suck.
"I am my beloved, and my beloved is me...."
posted by .:|kulasisi @ 9:19 PM|:.

.:Monday, April 30, 2001:.

My ISP is kinda freaky today. It's so slow. damn.......
posted by .:|kulasisi @ 2:57 PM|:.

Dear Kumag,
Do you really think I would and i do love all you with all me.
Do you really think I could?
yes I could,yes I would love all you with all me.
Do you really think I should?
yes I should love all you with all me,

yes I should

yes I could

yes I would.
alone,
purita
ps:do you really think i do love all you
with all me? yes I do love all you with all
me...
posted by .:|kulasisi @ 2:50 PM|:.

.:Sunday, April 29, 2001:.

Ok, now that I’ve finished cooking the longganisa. *yummy* I decided to have my say about this so-called EDSA III.
It started last april 27 I think. Now this happening is making my skin crawl and my eyebrows cross. I’m not saying that this people don’t have the right to organization or right to assembly. THEY DO! BUT I think and I’m quite sure that they don’t know what they are fighting for. Now the EDSA SHRINE is a MESS! A big toilet bowl for all these unhygienic people! They desecrated the meaning of EDSA… dang! And those fucking assholes called politicians are having a great time..running the show using the ignorance of these people for their own benefit. I caught ENRILE quoting: "dadanak ang dugo sa edsa…" the question is: whose blood shall shed in EDSA? Not Enrile’s. surely not Loi’s, what about Miriam "I lied"?… JV’s? –Nah! While these ignorant people are shedding blood in EDSA for blinded reasons—these people are secured by their security men, their money, and their power.
BLINDED BELIEFS, LIES, DECEIT, POWER, MONEY, FORCE ,CIVIL WAR , DEATH.
people power my ass. blinded dirty people.
posted by .:|kulasisi @ 8:19 PM|:.

there's no such thing as EDSA 3! these are just group of people who wants to have a taste of edsa... i don't have time to expound on the subject.. i'm cooking longganisa!
For all I care, they are just tools who smell of stools!
posted by .:|kulasisi @ 6:39 PM|:.

vacation’s over

howdy kulasisi?! Hmmm… just arrived from my 4 day vacation. I had FUN! Although the sun stings—Jane, joy and I managed to enjoy the climate and the company of each other. Hope that i can keep the topic interesting and as much as possible—accurate. Ok, here goes..
Day one:
yeah .. I remember waking up at around 3 am in the morning.. (*I guess due to the excitement) Jane and I met in Morayta, Manila. Hehe! A funny incident happened.. we were both coming from different ways and yet we have the same “look” (hair not actually comb, bags, shorts, and the way we walk) Then, we proceeded to the bus station—what do you know.. A COASTER! We’re going to ride in a coaster… (*felt like candidate from a beauty pagent*-*argh!*) Then – a stop over in a place called “Double Happiness” nyehaha! Don’t dare try the palabok and the cheeseburger. Eeew! We arrived in Olongapo city @ around—10 am. We rested for a while… and then eat and Eat, and EAt, and EAT! We want to go swimming…so Joy made some phone calls.
Day 2:
We checked in a hotel (*it’s what stated on the door) facing the beach… spent half of the day, sleeping and eating ..Oops, and lots of chattering too! Swimwear? Hahaha! Swimwear huh?! We swam for 2 hours that night. Then spent the rest of the evening… in our room… Jane broke a glass...because she used it …as…*slaps mouth*
Day 3:
Early in the morning, joy and I swam.. While Jane watch us from the veranda of the hotel. There were 2 Korean guests there… they offered us to join them ride a boat (“we go there by ship!”—duh!) ...Which of course we declined. (*Jane said it’s because of Joy! Hehe! ) @ noon that day, we checked out…and went home. Later in the afternoon… while playing mahjong…out of spontaneity we decided to go swimming AGAIN ..This time, we go swimming with nothing on hand but a small towel , 3 bottles of mineral water and a little cash. So, I swam a little. Jane learned to “float” on her own… we got home @ 11pm. Yeah, we went home SOAKING WET! Like salted fishes out of sea… we smell of salt. People were looking at us as if we are weird or something.(*and I believe that they got a point) .
DAY 4:
I woke up late! And my back – aching! Had some breakfast, then play a little mahjong…had lunch, took our baths and headed for home…..
"...she walks like...she talks like...she walks like..she talks like........she bangs! she bangs!! "
--© Jane
posted by .:|kulasisi @ 6:12 PM|:.