Mistress of none --a true Blueblooded Bitch

kulasisi:(n)is a Tagalog term for Mistress. They are often referred to as Kalaguyo,Kabit,Querida,Kahati,Mang-aagaw,Number 2,3,4..etc.etc... These are my thoughts.. my life as i live it .. without limit, uncensored,and uncut.

"I SHALL HAVE NO MASTER FOR I AM THE MISTRESS OF NONE..."

.:Saturday, February 03, 2001:.

I bought a Book (technically speaking) entitled: The Best of YoungBlood-- Youngblood is a column in The Philippine Daily Inquirer.. It deals with the opinions and outlook of the youth today... the so-called Generation X. I must say it's a good buy..... for the thoughts matches what i feel.... the opinions towards life, love, work, ideology.... they are all there. The thoughts that crossed my mind, the thoughts that i can't well described in words. That Book is just a proof that the youth today are not just party animals... they got good sense too. Well most of us anyway....
--is it ok to act ok even if you are in fact not ok? (...wokey)
posted by .:|kulasisi @ 4:03 AM|:.

The Government service sucks! shet! shet! sheeeeeeeeeeeeet! i went to DFA yesterday..... to get my passport... (i dunno why i need a passport in the first place since i'm not going anywhere). It's an awful experience, it was a nightmare! I waited for 5 hours to get a damn booklet! The system suck... the people in the government suck! but hey.... wait a minute.... Who am i to judge the f*cking government????? i don't pay taxes (income that is) , i sell my vote....i really don't care much about the Government (except that time in EDSA) hahaha! ........ so in the end i only got me to blame! dang! err.... well at least i have my passport now.... and when it expire, i'm going to a travel agency and let them process it for i will never undergo that same experience. It's the kind of experience that will last you a LIFETIME.
--This f*ck*ng passport must be used or else the trauma that i had is not worth it... well i have 5 years... who knows? i want to go to TIMBUKTU, wherever that is.....
posted by .:|kulasisi @ 3:44 AM|:.

.:Friday, February 02, 2001:.

ISN'T IT AWFUL TO BE WRONG WHEN YOU ARE ABSOLUTELY RIGHT?? p***!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
--Someone told me that the sun will blow up in 5 billion years.. it will hit earth and consequently kill all the people in it. Buti na lang patay na ako nun...
posted by .:|kulasisi @ 1:52 PM|:.

My Bestfriend and her husband celebrated their 4th wedding anniversary 2 days ago. I'm so happy for them I do hope that they will be blessed with a child, now that would make them happier. =) Time passed by so quickly huh? Isn't it nice finding a person that you know is a part of you, someone that would finally make you whole? Without him, life is so miserable.... So incomplete.
--Ah, yes… a person that would make me complete… I have been looking for him… for a couple of years now… I'm beginning to wonder if he would ever come. What if he doesn't exist? What if he already crossed my path but I overlooked him? What if I have met him but ignored him? There are so many what ifs in my life, I lost count already. I know deep inside that someone is meant for me, someone that I get to share my jokes, my laughter, my tears, and my life. I am here, aren't you going to find me?
posted by .:|kulasisi @ 1:32 AM|:.

Good Morning to you... hmmm.. .... Sometimes you just can feel what kind of a day you're going to have. And today, I can sense that it's going to be an ordinary day for me, spending it with ordinary people doing ordinary things... In a very ordinary way. Don't you just hate to be ordinary? Being ordinary is not bad.... but sometimes I get the feeling that I just have to be ordinary.. I have to in order to blend in. I seldom get mad.... I hear but I don't listen... I smile though I feel like crying.... The more hurt I am, the louder I laugh.... Is that ordinary? I don't share my problems with anyone... I keep them in me and try to solve them myself... is that ordinary? I am ordinary…just like everyone else. I often wonder if I die... would people cry over my death? How many people will cry? Would they miss me? What will they say about me, about the way I behave, the way that I have lived my life? Sometimes, I just want to die-- just to know the answers to all these questions. I don't have suicidal tendencies; I don't want to kill myself. I just want to know. It’s just a thought…

posted by .:|kulasisi @ 12:22 AM|:.

.:Tuesday, January 30, 2001:.

mga balak kong gawin ngayong araw na ito na alam ko naman na di ko magagawa....
1. Umalis sa harap ng computer..
2. Mag-aral
3. Mag-basa ng aklat
4. HUWAG Mag-online
-- shet! alam ko na ang dapat kong gawin.. pero lagi ko namang di nagagawa..... ano ba namang buhay to!!! I need to be disciplined!
posted by .:|kulasisi @ 12:35 PM|:.

Looking straight in the mirror trying to see
the face of the woman staring in front of me
She looks so sad, as i looked in her eyes
Though i can hear her laughter and see her smiles
I should have looked away,but i caught her eye
There i see , a heart so badly broken,
a soul that lived a lie....
Minutes have passed and i just stared.... trying to figure out
why the woman is scared....
"Be brave little one..." all i can say....
"Death will come before the end of the day....."
Staring and looking made me realize.... that the woman is me....
its no big surprise....
---nyehahaha..... wala wenta!

posted by .:|kulasisi @ 2:10 AM|:.

i made a poem.... habang yung teacher ko e..... dakdak ng dakdak sa harap..... i already know what he's talking about kasi naman review class na yun.... i still have to do some editing....
--I'm looking for a job......
posted by .:|kulasisi @ 12:21 AM|:.

hmmmm.. muntik pang maging masama ang araw na to! shet! i tried to edit my HP dun sa internet cafe...... bago pa nakaload... kailangan mo na magrefresh.... di pa ako makapasok sa IRC! tapos yung katabi ko---- she's so weird........... she keeps on mumbling! haaaay! puro email lang ang nagawa ko... well at least di na magtatampo sa akin yung friend ko! haba nung letter ko sa kanya ! hehehhe!!
posted by .:|kulasisi @ 12:18 AM|:.

.:Sunday, January 28, 2001:.

A charm invests a face
Imperfectly beheld.
The lady dare not lift her veil
For fear it be dispelled.
But peers beyond her mesh,
And wishes, and denies,
‘Lest interview annul a want
That image satisfies.....
-- Beauty is skindeep so i've been told.... Beauty can give you ... power.... authority..... it is an established fact.
posted by .:|kulasisi @ 2:28 PM|:.