Mistress of none --a true Blueblooded Bitch

kulasisi:(n)is a Tagalog term for Mistress. They are often referred to as Kalaguyo,Kabit,Querida,Kahati,Mang-aagaw,Number 2,3,4..etc.etc... These are my thoughts.. my life as i live it .. without limit, uncensored,and uncut.

"I SHALL HAVE NO MASTER FOR I AM THE MISTRESS OF NONE..."

.:Saturday, January 27, 2001:.

whew! what a day! ang hirap talaga mag-rent! di ko makontrol ang speed! kainis!!! lag pa lagi sa IRC! 100 beses ata ako na-dc sa IRC! and it's getting under my skin. Di ko pa magawa yung HP! waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!! 25 per hour.. is it worth it??? don't think so! kasi wala naman ako nagawa! and i thought may magagawa ako! hay! i still have an exam at 2. haven't studied yet.... gonna go back in school and cram the words inside my head! i have a feeling that is going to be a bad day ! waaaaaaaaaaa!!! i'm hoping otherwise!
--i have this feeling that i'm a lost soul wandering for years... sometimes i just want to close my eyes..and leave it all behind.
posted by .:|kulasisi @ 12:35 PM|:.

.:Friday, January 26, 2001:.

I'm using a prepaid acct! shets! kailangan ko na talaga humanap ng work!!! am i ready for it? am i prepared for it? sheyts! got to do some thinking.... shet talaga!
posted by .:|kulasisi @ 2:25 PM|:.

.:Thursday, January 25, 2001:.

Yes! I finally have my own hp--... ahehe!
it may not be as beautiful as the other
home pages that i visited, but for a newbie
--not bad.. ahehe! walang gumagalaw... wala
reng midi..... but i worked hard for it.
I spent time .. time and time.... trying
to figure out how to put the damn guestbook.
I really can't understand the damn html stuff,
maybe i'm just not born for this stuff. Oh well...
Better than having none.. ahehehe..
posted by .:|kulasisi @ 11:18 PM|:.

--Hay.... bakit me mga taong.. di mo talaga maasahan. Napaka-insensitibo
sa mga kailangan ng kapwa...magaling lang pag
sila ang me kailangan. Don't they know that you get what you
give??? oh well.... different folks with different strokes...
--LIFE gives you back what you give out...You're life is not a coincidence, but a mirror of your own doings.
posted by .:|kulasisi @ 11:14 PM|:.

Death is the ultimate release....

posted by .:|kulasisi @ 10:49 AM|:.

.:Tuesday, January 23, 2001:.

--Taken at tanay, Rizal... initiation rites....
posted by .:|kulasisi @ 7:03 AM|:.

gagana kaya?
posted by .:|kulasisi @ 7:02 AM|:.

"Funny how we set qualifications for the person that we will love when in the back of our minds we know that he/she will always be an exception."
---Love is in the air huh?! hahahahaha! Bakit kaya di na lang lahat ng gusto mo e nasa isang tao? Kailangan pang ang ibang qualities e mapunta sa iba.... why o why?! Kailangan mo pumili kung ano ba ang pinakagusto mo. sabi nga ng matatanda--- ang pili ng pili napupunta sa bungi. Buti na lang.....

posted by .:|kulasisi @ 4:34 AM|:.

.:Monday, January 22, 2001:.

Somedays Are Good But...
I woke up this morning with a yearn to cry
Didn't tell anyone for they'd want to know why
Got dressed this morning put on all black
Didn't wear any make-up where's the point in that
For make-up only covers the blemishes you don't want others to see
It can't get rid of the ones that only you see
Went to school this morning with a smile on my face
In the crowded hallway I felt so out of place
Wanted to tell someone I wanted to die
But thought they'd just laugh and say I have no reason to cry
For they see me as I want them to
Fun, caring, no worries, or important things to do
But they can't hear the screaming or see the torture inside
They never ask they have their own lives
But that doesn't stop them from leaning on me
Being their crutch but who in the hell supports me
That's not important I've started to say
When I wake up on one of these days
---Nakaw lang yan.... bwahahahaha! forgot where i got this... =)~
---this is absolutely true..... sometimes i have to show that i am strong eventhough i feel so weak and feels like crying. I don't know if it is shame or what.... I have set the mind of the people surrounding me that i'm carefree, i got no worries.. stable... that i can be depend on. But there are days that i feel so weak, so alone, so lonely that i need someone to lean on to. Someone that would listen.... but i'm just too damn afraid to open up. Afraid that people would know my weak side.. then that would be the start of emotional blackmail.... i can't take the risk. I'm too damn afraid....
posted by .:|kulasisi @ 12:46 AM|:.

.:Sunday, January 21, 2001:.

I'm no poet
i have no rythm..
i have no melody
i have no past
i have no future....
i easily forget everything
i'm heading towards nothing
all i have is the present..
now.

posted by .:|kulasisi @ 2:24 PM|:.