Awakening Power of a Splotless Mind
3rd November 2005
I will stay forever here with you,
My love.
The softly spoken words you gave me,
Even in death our love goes on.
Some say I'm crazy for my love, Oh my love.
But no bonds can hold me from your side, Oh my love.
They don't know you can't leave me,
They don't hear you singing to me.
And I can't love you, anymore than I do.
I will die, but real love is forever.
Kuja's library. 6pm.
After the debacle with Kaijou, Kuja had retreated his hours into the vast and knowledgable realm where many a mystery, many a secret, many a map, road and pathway may be found to anyone's desire. A slender finger pushes an archaic hard spine back into the shelves amongst a row of other recently undusted books before the man leans back agaist his desk, looking high.
His last thoughts were questioning his existance. His last decision was to become a god. His torment has been the loss of Desora.
"She hates you!" Rang Drucilla's voice, a haunting echo sending a hollow and empty sickness through his whole body. The feeling of her light fading away, away from him.. He felt her sadness.. he could feel it now as he remembered Desora's last words to him.
"Why...why have you forgoten to love? Why do you curse your loved ones, why do you blame them, why do you hurt them, why do you betray them, why have you forgoten yourself, Kuja? Why have you abandoned everyone, why kuja why."
How can i love anything when the one i love the most is not here beside me.
"Your heart, it's dying, and you have yourself to blame."
Tonight will be the last tears that he'll ever shed for Desora.
Beyond the hills lies a bargain to make. A wish for the price of ones most precious thing. Or so the tales tell. He thought about it and knew he could never lose Damien, nor any friend. And so lies the loss of Desora's memory, the loss and defeat of Kuja's struggle, the loss of what little kindness and compassion he ever showed. Desora was the one to bring a sincere nature about him, without her he would be ruthless and tadgic, the worst part is he knew it.
He would have to cast a spell upon anyone that knew Desora and he ever existed together. The first true steps to erasing her... may her name never be uttered around him or he would fall into a state where his mind would split, a spiral down of uncertainty and ambiguity, insanity and emptiness. But despite the mishaps that might happen along the way... boy, how powerful he will be.