PoEmS
UnTiLtEd
i know a girl who hides her pain
and bleeds while no-one knows
she just sits there silently
while her anger grows and grows
i know a girl who hides the truth
she acts like its normal and smiles
but the truth is shes feeling fucked up
and shes felt it for a while
i know a girl who cries at night
wishing she was dead
she cries and cries but no-one knows
the things going through her head
i know a girl who is alone
experiencing pain each day
but the pain she feels is self-inflicted
and she has no intention of changing her ways
i know girls who are all of these things
and they just want someone to see
that there are girls like them everywhere
i know this, cause they feel just like me.
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Loving Him
He�s gone,
I'm done,
He hates me,
I love him,
I will love him forever,
It will never be replaced,
No matter what happens,
I will save a space,
In my mind,
My memory,
My heart,
I will move on,
I will not hold back,
I will always love him,
Silently,
silently he will be loved,
After all the pain he�s caused,
But he will be loved,
Forever and Always
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I Love You
I wish I could turn back time
to the day that we first met
Remember I asked you were I nice
, but you didn't know me yet!
I wish we could've started going out
that same exact day
there are so many things
I wish that I could say.
That day I looked deep into your eyes
I knew you were the one
at first when we first started going out
I thought it was just for fun.
I didn't think we would have
worked out until those sparks did fly
when we first said I love you, did you honestly
know why?
I said it from my heart
because I knew I could trust you
but my heart is wondering did you mean it too.
As long as we have been together
no one can ever take my love for you away
because as long as I am with you
I know that everything will be okay!!
I want to be together forever hopefully you feel
the same way too
I want you to know I mean it when I say I LOVE YOU
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Always Only a Friend
You and I we are best friends,
at least that�s the way it�s always been,
when I listen about your chicks
I try to put a smile on my lips,
but as soon as you walk away the tears fall down
my face,
I could kill the chick that makes you blue,
yet even if they loved you I could still kill them
just for spite,
even though I know it isn�t right,
I turn green with jealousy every time you talk to
me about a pretty girl that you know,
I pray one day you will look at me and realize I�m
the one from your dreams but until that day comes
I want you to know that you are my doom,
My love,
my hope
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GoOd TiMeS
It's a long way back
To my best days
And you'd get lost
Trying to find the way
When good times, good times
Summed up my life
Before all the changes
And before all the lies
Friends on my hood
Rode all over town
Sun roof open
And the windows down
I loved then
And it was returned
Now I'm the typical
Woman scorned
That was the time
That I loved best
Those days seem
Younger than the rest
I'd give it all
To get back there
Good times, good times
Are better shared
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CANT TAKE IT
i cant take it
and i cant fake it
u not that it hurt me
but u act like u cant c
i no they r my problems
thats y i tried to solve em
wen i say i am really sory
u just try 2 ignore me
i hate that u r mad
b/c it makes me feel really sad
i cant live without u
no matter what i do
i want u
i need u
but no matter what i do
<3 <3 i will always love u <3 <3
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A Secret Lovers Dream
When ever I think of you, my hands tremble and my heart rushes.
There is a knot in the pit of my stomach.
I can not speak, I can not think, I can not see anyone but you.
I dream of the day you and I will be together... forever.
Then, I wake up, and I realize that this wish will never come true.
But, my life has to go on without you.
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THE HATE
I feel the hate rise up in me
this is a hate that u can c
this hate is an overload
it makes me feel like i am goin to explode
the memories are 2 hard 2 take
i just dont wanna have 2 picture ur face
i still wanna b wit u
u use 2 wanna b wit me 2
but u moved on, i never did
u grew up, and im still the same kid
now u act like u can not c
c the pain that goes threw me
when u tell her u love her :'(
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confuzed
what do you do when you look up into his eyes and
you think you love him but you dont want your
heart to get broken? what do you do when you look
into his eyes and you realize that its to late ur
hearts already broken? then what do you do when
you realize hes the only one u'll ever love?
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In LoVe WiT u
You made me happy you made me mad
You made me cry but you never felt bad,
I tried to tell you how I felt
But in the end I chickened out,
Rock, paper, scissors was the name of the game
I wanted the kiss that never came,
I felt the pain day after day
At the end I was the one who had to pay,
I tried to ignore you I tried to look away
But I noticed you looking at me to stay,
I never wanted to talk to you or see your face
I never wrote back to rest my case,
You joked around and played to much
I felt like giving you one good punch,
�Let�s just be friends� were words of shame
But I had only myself to blame,
I didn�t fall in to love this is true
I tripped into it over YOU
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ABOUT A BOY
While you were leaping for the sky
And kneeling to the ground
Somehow you got lost
You can't find yourself
You broke the chains, open'd the gates
said hello to your future
And goodbye to your friends
You'll Never come back
I'll never see you again
Cause you can never change
I don't want to understand
And I don't want to care
But I can't say goodbye
Cause I can't let you go
And I can't change your mind,or how you feel
No matter how bad it hurts me to watch you go
You won't leave me alone
Your just runing free inside me
Stars are falling
the moon is dimming
I can feel your pain growing
And your fear lrucking
The clock is ticking
And your road is wide
Tears are forming
Words are crushing
And hearts are smashed.
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AnGrY
u motherfucker,
why dont u liberate ur mind
crazed bitch,
wondering what u'll find?
in what ppl think
your so caught up
your so fucking stupid
well this is ur closeup.
breakin through
get ready for the fun
your so crazed
in the end, you'll be done.
go screw urself
fucked up mind
spinnin round
come back to me, when u aint so blind
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Waiting
Over the sea
and into the night
I cried the tears
caused by fright
I knew it wouldn't last
that you would eventually be my past
but once the day came
I wished I had never learned your name
When I look back I see I could have
taken a guess
and found everything would turn out
to be a great big mess
Now I'm waiting to know
whethe ryou will regret letting me go
life will go on
But I will be thinking of you 'til
the break of dawn
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UnTiLtEd
slit wrists
right infront of you.
skin cut, bleedin
through and through.
crimson red drops
fall to the ground.
i dont scream
aint makin no sound.
you think this is pain?
well my feelings gone numb
i dont even care
where the feelings from.
put the blade down
for you the day is done.
for me the mornings
just begun.
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AnOtHeR UnTiLtEd
I will be there when your feeling down
a place in my heart for you i have found
I hope that you have one for me too
one that is so pure and true
I don't know all your stuff
but I know that you'll get through it because
you're tough
I trust you with all my heart
NO one could split us apart
I love you and I always will
for you I could kill
I will be with you always and forever
I love you forever and ever
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Written By Nikki:
i think about u every night!
do u think about me?
i still love u!
do u still love me?
i was thinkin about how u broke my heart
and how mean u could b!
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Written By Nikki:
As i putt the gunn 2 mah head, said a prayer and though of all the funn i had and though about is this my real chance? as i remeber the stuff i went though and my mom and dad, what they will think, itz hard nott 2 think! should i or should i nott? thatz the qustion runnin in my head! im nott shure if i do this if it will make thingz better 4 my family butt as i pull the triger i hear a scream i drop the gunn 2 late my sister is already gone! neva though about how much it would attceked my family as me, my mom and dad look @ my sister so sad layin in a castent thinkin 2 my self! i wish i neva did what i did now my poor sister is dead! i wish i could turn back time and tell her 2 stop! and tell her everythin is goin 2 be okay! butt 2 late now as my mom walks away started 2 cry me and my dad think 2 urselfz what her future would b like itz sad seein her layin there and remeberin it waz all my fault! and i didnt even help!
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Written By Nikki:
As the mornin ringz and i think about my life. i think why am i livin? why am i here? as i pick up the knife and see the blood i start 2 cry and think about what i have done! I promised everyone i will be okay butt i have done it again nott think waz done as i sitt here on the floor waitin 4 someone 2 help i try 2 sream they cant hear a word as i lay there diein waitin for someone 2 come!
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Written By Nikki:
As my mom comes 2 check on me itz 2 late im dead on my floor tryin 2 come back butt itz 2 late as i slowly go wit someone who will understand me and where i have been comin from!
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Perfect
I try my best to please you
But i just dont know what to do,
Anymore!
Tear after tear
I tell you what you want to hear,
Enough!
It seems like everything i do and say
Is never okay,
To you!
Im sorry im not perfect
But im gonna be who i am and theres nothing you
can say,
Today!
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Love?
What is love this emotion you speak of?
Have I ever felt it, Will I ever know it?
You say it cant be discribed, can it be
prescribed? Man this blows. I got a boyfriend but
only found heartache, Is love just a fake?
Then you said let me show you, and you placed your
lips on mine and I knew that I loved you.
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Secret
Every time I wink you think im jokeing.
Why dont you beleive me I feel as if im choking.
You smile at me and I stumble.
We hold hands to pray and I ramble.
I know it is a sin, but why for once cant I win.
Im afraid if I tell you how I feel,
You'll ask are you for real??
I would rather live w/you in my life, and fell
full of strife.
Then risk losing you, and always feeling blue.
But then again you might feel the same and we will
have love like a burning flame.
we could be lost soul mates, tired of nothing but
fakes.
but untill im sure, even though its all a blur.
I will keep my feelings a secret, Until im sure ur
ready to keep it!
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