They lay on the bed among pillows, sinking into blankets and cool, clean sheets. He was on top of her threading his long fingers through her amber tresses. She smiled up at him and turned, moving them both onto their sides. His mouth took the place of his fingers; he caught the familiar scent of her hair, strawberries and wild flowers; now mingled with the scent of salty sweat.

He kissed down to her forehead and over her upturned nose. She felt a spiral of heat clenching her insides as his moist tongue flicked the tip. He continued the sweet torture, kissing every part of her face except her lips till they cried for his attention. Soft, wet kisses adorned her eyelids, cheeks, and chin. He bit quickly just above her jugular, licking the pain away and searing her flesh with a fiery whisper of breath. His tongue continued down licking her soft neck, paying extra attention to the base of her throat.

Her breath came in short gasps as her fingers pulled his shirttail from the waistband of his pants. She raked her fingernails up and down his spine as he unbuttoned her denim shirt. She moaned as he licked her collar bone and nibbled at the surrounding flesh.

He reached towards her breasts and he ran his fingertips around the top of the lacy bra. As he started to reach to loosen them from the restrictive garment she made a sound of disagreement. He looked into her eyes and was surprised to see the smile there in the emerald depths. He started to ask what he had done wrong when she took his hand and ran his fingertips between her breasts.

She brushed them lightly along the edge of each till he echoed the motion. She removed her hand from his and stroked his cheek. Pulling his face closer, she kissed him lightly, softly, fighting the impulse to show him how excited she was by swallowing him in her passion. When his hands started towards their previous path, she pulled back and again showed him how she wanted to be touched.

The torment of being denied the touch of her soft peeks, to caress and kiss till she was in a heated frenzy seemed almost a pain. He repressed the urge to groan aloud, he wanted so much more than a light breeze of passion. He wanted to love her till she cried from it, till she begged him to stop from an overload of ecstacy and pleasure.

So much had kept him from this point, but he was ready. No longer did doubt clouded his mind with indecision, making him blind to the love he felt for her and the wealth of love she offered in return. Now that he no longer wanted to wait, she made him wait. She had pleaded with him for months to put the past behind him, to move on with his life, with their life. Now that he had finally gotten over the many obstacles and confessed his willingness, his strong need for them to move forward she tortured him by holding back. They had been staring into each other�s eyes as his thought battled his passion, an emerald island surrounded and held within by deep, blue water stared into blue satin permeated with gold flakes sparkling throughout hinting at subdued but ever present passion.

A smile played on her plump, wet lips as she saw torment change to confusion, awareness and, finally, acceptance. She rolled over till she was on top of him and kissed him with all the fire and heat of the passion he unleashed inside of her. When he tried to hold her and turn so he was on top, she pulled back and smiled playfully.

�No, I have to go take a shower.� She laughed as his lips formed the pout she so loved, �Be a good boy love.�

�What if I don�t want to?� The flakes of gold intensified as he tried reaching for her again.

She laughed lightly and quickly escaped the bed and his strong arms. Quickly going through drawers she got the articles of clothing she needed and retreated into the bathroom.

He heard the water running in the shower and he wrestled himself to follow her. After five minutes of a losing battle he walked to the door and knocked.

She almost jumped when she heard the light tap and gripped the handle on the shower door to steady herself. She had left the door unlocked but didn�t answer when he repeated his earlier knock. If he wants to come in, let him figure it out - she thought to herself and continued bathing. After a few seconds, she heard the door open slowly and she smiled when she didn�t hear footsteps coming towards the shower. He must be wondering if he should bother me. Slow footsteps started towards the shower. They stopped shortly before a light knock sounded on the door behind her.

�May I join you?� a soft voice asked.

�Maybe,� she wasn�t going to make it easy on him. She heard him walk back towards the door and felt disappointed when the door shut. She assumed he went back into the bedroom.

Jax shut the door and removed his socks. He walked quietly towards the shower and took in the sight through the foggy glass door. She is so beautiful - he thought to himself. Water danced over lightly tanned skin, cascading down firm breasts, slender thighs, and curvy, long legs. He ached to repeat the path with his fingers and tongue. He saw her reach for the knob to cut off the water. �Not yet,� he stated.

Elisa nearly fell down when she heard the unexpected voice and Jax quickly opened the door to steady her. �What are you doing her?�

�I took your maybe in a positive way.�

She smiled at him. His hair was slightly wet making the curls tighter. She took him in with a heated look and he smiled when she licked her lips. �Well, those clothes have to come off. If you stay in wet clothes, you�ll catch a cold.�

�Oh? ..... You wanna help?� His voice took on a teasing tone.

She practically purred with excitement and approval as one article of clothing after another quickly piled up on the floor. She ran her wet hands over his broad chest and down to his thighs were his arousal was evident, causing her to elicit the small purr she had felt vibrating through her body.

She stepped back so he could enter the shower but refused to remove her hands from his body. He always seemed to good to be true. A stone sculpture of a god come to life, or a brave knight leaping from the pages of the fantasy books she loved so as a child. Her Adonis with his feet on the ground, reaching for the heavens, and a heart of gold. A heart he professed to her in all it�s splendor. She had loved him from almost the moment she first saw his picture. A dream lover that had come true for her. She couldn�t believe her good luck. He bent down to kiss her and one arm wrapped around her body while the other stroked her breasts and stomach so softly she was almost afraid this was a dream. She would just have to be sure she fully enjoyed this dream before she woke up.

Jax removed the pins she had used to keep her hair from interfering with her bathing. Letting the clasps fall to the floor, one hand ran through the curls as his other hand caressed further down her body. He stepped forward causing her to walk closer to the wall of the shower, he bent her back slightly so she was slanted against a tiled wall. He continued to kiss her, slowly increasing the intensity as his hands explored her body. She gasped against his lips as she felt two fingers delve into her, gently stroking her deep and hard as his thumb massaged her soft skin.

Her body shook as his lips matched his nimble fingers driving her closer to her breaking point. As if he could tell she was getting closer, Jax thrust deeper and harder, increasing the pressure of his thumb. Waves of molten pleasure washed over her body, her legs buckled from the intense power of her climax.

Jax lifted her, holding her to him to steady her. When her heartbeat was closer to normal, he lifted her higher placing himself inside her. Her head fell back as new sensations filled her as deeply as he did. Instead of moving up and down, he turned her slightly back and forth staking his claim and leaving no doubt in her mind of this being reality. His hands left her waist and he cupped her buttocks to bring her up till he was almost out of her then, he brought her back down hard. He continued this, slowly increasing the speed in which he lifted and filled her again and again.

She felt him deep inside as she enveloped all of him in her slick warmth. His strokes created a friction inside of her that threatened to burn her alive. She threw her head back when his thrust caused her to splinter into a million pieces. She felt his warmth fill her at one last stroke and they held each other till they noticed the water had grown cold.

They separated and Jax turned off the water. He helped her out of the shower and followed her into the bedroom. They lay under the clean sheets, holding each other tightly. They fell asleep warm and content in their new found love.

Brenda and Sonny were home with their son. They were inseparable and made love often as they were wont to do. Brenda noticed she was getting sick almost everyday and she was always tired. She couldn�t get enough of Sonny�s cooking and hated the thought of Lucy ever having to see her figure suffering from banquet like meals. She went to the hospital when Sonny became to worried to console. She knew what it most likely was, she just didn�t want to deal with it, not just yet. The hospital confirmed her suspicions, she was pregnant again. One day soon after (or maybe even same day, not decided yet) she found out, she comes home to an empty house. She walks all through the house looking for her son and was terrified when she couldn�t find him. She hadn�t told Sonny she was pregnant again. She walked into the kitchen and sat down, fighting tears, when she saw the note. It was in a plain, white envelope simply labeled Brenda in Sonny�s handwriting. It was propped against a clear vase holding a single white rose and a few sprigs of baby�s breath. She ignored the rose as she tore open the envelope and read the enclosed note.

Brenda went upstairs and saw the dress she missed in her scared rush before. It was a long gown of white satin. The torso and waist were almost skin tight but the fabric loosened a bit at the waist and flowed down with one side softly overlapping the other. It went to her ankles and Brenda loved how she looked in it. She grabbed a couple of towels, so she wouldn�t mess up the dress on the drive over, and the matching shoes that were safely nestled in a box. She went out to the car, draped the towels over her seat, and drove to her destination. When she stopped, she put on the satin lined shoes. They were the same white as her dress and she could easily walk in the short heels. Reginald was watching and opened the door before she could knock.

�Good evening Ms. Barrett.�

�Hello, Reginald. Do you know what is going on?�

�Yes, follow me please.�

Brenda had no choice so she followed him up the stairs. He knocked on a door opening it when a voice responded.

�Please go in Ms. Barrett.�

Brenda was looking at Reginald as he shut the door hoping for a clue as to what was going on and didn�t notice the figure on the bed till she heard a familiar greeting.

�Hey girlfriend.�

�Lois?�

�Hey Aunt Brenda.�

Brenda stared at the smaller person at the last greeting. She couldn�t believe it was Brooke. Last time Brenda saw her she was barely a baby out of her diaper. In her place was an angelic child about six years old. Her light brown tresses were curled and hung in ringlets to her shoulders. A small clip, adorned with baby�s breath and tiny, white roses, held the hair from the sides of her head on top of her head.

�Well, you remember us. I was wondering when you didn�t write us.�

�Lois?� Brenda asked again.

The woman stood and Brenda almost cried with happiness at seeing her best friend again. She was wearing a dress similar to Brenda�s and her hair was styled like Brooke-Lynn�s. 'Yes, its me, but I think you already said that.�

Brooke giggled at Brenda�s expression, �We�re here to see you get married.�

Lois looked at Brooke and sighed, �Well, I guess there�s no point in waiting to tell you.�

�Married?�

�You know, I remember you being able to say more than one word at a time. Yes, married. Sonny has decided to make up for his leaving.�

Brenda was standing beside the bed and she dropped into a sitting position, her mind whirling.

�I told him to ask or at least tell you. But, he wanted it to be a surprise.�

Brooke had grabbed a brush off the nightstand. She walked over to Brenda and started brushing her hair, �We�re going to make you pretty.�

�You knew? When did you find out?� her questions were aimed at Lois.

�Did you know? I thought you were just surprised to see us.�

�No, I didn�t know he was even thinking of this. And yes, I was surprised,' she smiled, 'and happy to see you.'

Lois smiled. �Careful Brooke. Brush her hair don�t pull it out,� Lois told her daughter when Brenda winced.

�Sorry Aunt Brenda.�

�Its ok, I know you didn�t mean it,� she smiled when it finally hit her, she was going to marry Sonny.

�I�m glad to see you are happy about this. I still don�t understand why he wouldn�t tell you. I can understand him wanting it to be a surprise but, there seemed to be more than just that.�

�I know why,� Brenda said as Lois helped Brooke clip Brenda�s hair up. This clip was different as it had hooks to catch the veil she was to wear as her heart�s dream came true. �He knows that if he asked me, I wouldn�t believe it. He is showing me he means it.�

�But, what if you didn�t want to marry him?�

Brenda mouth was stern and her eyes were fixed on Lois in an incredulous stare.

�Relax, I was joking. Now keep your head still so we can put on the veil.�

It was a light veil made of lace for the short front that covered her face and head. The lace was woven into silk that fell from her shoulders down. It was a long train that Carley�s son, Micheal, would hold up. Brooke was the flower girl and Adam would be the ring bearer. He would hold a pillow with the golden rings Sonny and Brenda would wear for the rest of their lives. The three females walked outside where Robin, Lucy, Jason, Luke, Ned, Alexis, and Micheal stood. Jason, Luke and Ned were going to be Sonny�s best men and Lois, Lucy, and Robin were going to be Brenda�s bridesmaids. Alexis was standing with Ned till the wedding started and she and Lois shared angry glances. Alexis kissed Ned and sat down. Brenda saw her friend�s sad face and placed her hand on Lois� back for support.

�Let�s make magic,� Lois said and they all got in position except Brenda.

�Wait,� she said.

�First Sonny, now Brenda. Please tell me there is going to be a wedding today.� Jason asked.

Brenda didn�t have an answer for him so she asked to talk to Sonny.

�No, Brenda. You�re in your wedding dress, he can�t see you.�

�Lois, I need to talk to him.�

�No.�

�I�ll go behind a door and he can stand on the other side so he can�t see me..... You can stand guard,� Brenda offered when Lois still looked hesitant.

�Ok, but if either of you tries to walk around the door ... I wish I still have my nails.�

Brenda smiled as Jason said, �I�ll get Sonny.�

�Tell him to meet us at the room where I got ready.�

Sonny was nervous, he knew Brenda was ready and wondered what was keeping her. He recalled Lois warning him that he needed to tell Brenda of his plans but he knew that, after he left her at the alter last time he wanted to marry her, he couldn�t go that route again. She would always wonder if he was going to leave again. They would be second guessing themselves and each other and that would put to much strain on their relationship. No, if he was going to marry her, he had to show her that he was actually going to go through with it this time. He just hoped that she still wanted to marry him. His heart started to beat faster and sweat broke out on his brow when he saw Jason walking towards him without a smile on his face. Jason pulled them aside so that he and Sonny can have some privacy.

�What is it Jason?�

�Brenda wants to talk to you.�

Sonny sighed, �Did she say why?�

�No, only that she needed to talk to you,� Sonny was visibly worried so Jason told him the rest.

�Let�s go.�

Brenda was pacing in the room waiting for Sonny. Would he still want to marry her if she was pregnant or was it too much? They had both looked forward to some quiet time together. Just them and Adam, a family. Would he want to have another child so soon?

�What�s got you so upset?� Lois asked.

Brenda started to tell her when a knock sounded on the door. Brenda looked to Lois and walked towards the door.

Sonny could hear Lois telling Brenda to calm down. He could only wonder and worry about what the problem was. Jason had gone downstairs to give them some privacy. Sonny felt alone, swallowed in the feeling of being out of control, and scared to see the door open. He was even more scared that it wouldn�t open. The door finally opened and Lois walked out pulling the door half closed. She looked at Sonny, crossed her arms, and shook her head. �You know, my life would be very boring without the two of you.�

Sonny would have smiled had his thoughts not held him frozen in terror. �Brenda, baby, are you okay?� he asked when he could get a word past his closed throat and swollen tongue.

Lois had moved off but she didn�t look away. She knew they belonged together. That�s why she came back to town even though she knew her heart would break when she saw Ned with someone else. She still loved him but she saw that he was happy and she wished him only the best. Brooke was with him right now as Lois offered support to her best friends.

�Brenda?� Sonny�s voice was cracking with pain and he couldn�t see the way out of the place he was. He should have seen this coming. She did love him, he knew that but, she didn�t want to marry him. He had caused her to much pain for her to share her life with him. A tear fell unnoticed down his cheek as he thanked his lucky stars that she was with him at least.

�Sonny ....,� Brenda�s voice was hesitant. She didn�t know what to say. She wanted this to be her wedding day but she couldn�t marry him without being honest. She swallowed tears as she remembered the good times and would hold them to her heart forever, even if she couldn�t do the same with Sonny.

�Yes love? Tell me please, I am here for you, no matter what.�

�I love you so much, you know that don�t you?�

�Yes, I know. I love you the same if not more. But, I understand if that�s not enough ....�

�Not enough? That�s all I�ll ever need ..... Oh Sonny, I do want to marry you today and spend all the rest of my days as Mrs. Corinthos,� Sonny�s heart burst at her confession and tears of joy fell from his eyes, �but, there is something you need to know.�

�Whatever it is, you can tell me. We can go on, be stronger than we ever were.�

Brenda�s tears fell ignored at his tender words. They hurt so deep but she was glad to hear them. Sonny, don�t make promises you can�t keep. �You know I went to the hospital to find out what was wrong with me.�

Lois� head throbbed at Brenda�s last statement. Sonny hadn�t told her anything was wrong with Brenda. He was going to get it after the wedding. If there was a wedding.

�Yes, I know. You never told me what they said. Whatever it is, we�ll get over it. You are strong and I love you no matter what.�

Brenda�s heart hurt at Sonny�s declaration of his unconditional love for her, how she wished it were true, �We may not be able to get over this.�

Sonny and Lois� thoughts were similar. Fear spread out from their hearts to clench at their stomachs when they thought of what could be affecting Brenda that had no cure.

�I�m pregnant.�

�You�re what?!?� Sonny and Lois asked at the same time.

�I know you wanted time to ourselves, just the three of us but, ....�

�Brenda, is that what you are worried about?�

�I didn�t want to tell you till I worked up the courage. I was afraid you wouldn�t want another child on top of everything else that has happened.�

Sonny laughed, he couldn�t help it. The joy of knowing that Brenda was alright, wanted to marry him, and pregnant was too much to contain. �Beloved, you have no idea how happy I am at this moment. We�ll be a family whether there are three, four, or how ever many of us. But, we won�t be a family if you don�t come downstairs and say �I do�.�

�You still want to marry me?�

�Yes, you have no idea how much ..... You want to marry me still, right?�

�Oh yes but, there is one more thing before we can get married.�

�Now what?� Lois was getting tired of the ups and downs these two put her through. She dealt with more changes than when she and Ned visited the roller coaster at Coney Island.

Brenda pulled the gold chain, she had started wearing it when she found out she was pregnant again, from around her neck. She took the engagement ring Sonny had given her so many years ago off the necklace and put the chain on the dresser. She hadn�t gotten rid of it or given it back to Mike, she kept it hidden. She always hoped she would get to wear it again, that this day would come. She handed the ring to Sonny and heard a loud sob erupt from him.

�Sonny, are you okay?�

Sonny nodded then laughed when he realized that Brenda couldn�t see him, �Yes... yes I am baby. I just can�t believe you still have this.�

�I couldn�t just throw it away. I wore it on a chain near my heart when I found out I was pregnant again. I hoped .......�

Sonny took the ring and got down on one knee. She reached her hand out to him and peeked around the corner. Lois came up to make sure he couldn�t see the dress. Lois took one look in his eyes and realized that Brenda could be wearing a burlap sack and Sonny wouldn�t have noticed.

�Brenda Barrett, I have loved you for so long, I feel I was born loving you. It feels the most natural, most comfortable thing in the world. At the same time, it is the most exhilarating experience of my life. I humbly ask you to be my wife, best friend, and mother to my children for the rest of out lives.�

Brenda was crying so hard her throat was closed. She didn�t say anything till Lois yelled at her, �Answer the man Brenda. There are a lot of people downstairs and the food�s not going to wait forever.�

Brenda laughed, �Yes, with all my heart, yes.�

Sonny was shaking as he replaced the ring on Brenda�s equally shaking finger, �May it never come off again.�

Sonny went downstairs to tell everyone that there was definitely going to be a wedding today. Lois touched up Brenda�s make-up and they went downstairs to take their places.

Jason took Robin�s arm and they walked down the aisle. Luke started to take Lucy�s arm when Brenda said, �Wait.�

Everyone around Brenda looked at her. They were all about to pick her up and carry her down the aisle.

�I need someone to give me away .... I know. Luke, when you pass the Quartermaine�s, ask Edward to come back here.�

Luke looked at her like she had lost her mind.

�Please,� she begged.

�Its your wedding.�

Brenda�s face erupted in a smile when he said that and her friends walked down the aisle. Brenda saw Luke stop at the Quartermaine�s, bending to talk to Edward. Sonny looked at her with a questioning gaze and she smiled at him. He smiled back but it wasn�t very reassuring.

Ned and Lois linked arms and started down the aisle passing Edward on his way back. Brenda was fixing the rings on the pillow Adam was going to hold when Edward came back to where they were standing.

�Luke told me you needed to speak with me.�

�Yes, I do Edward. One moment please.� Brenda turned to the younger members of the wedding party, �Good luck and Brooke, please remember to walk slowly.�

�Mommy, what�s going on?�

Brenda smiled and wiped the tear away that always fell when she heard her son call her mommy. She had lost him for so long it still seemed a miracle he was with her. �Daddy and I are getting married.�

�What�s married?�

�I would really like to explain that to you but right now I need you to walk down the aisle with Brooke and take those rings to the minister.�

�Okay.� They started off, Brooke had to help Adam a few times when he lost the rhythm.

�I know this is sudden, but I would really appreciate it if you would walk me down the aisle.�

�Of course my dear. But, are you sure you want to go through with this, you can ....,� Edward broke off as Adam yelled, �Daddy!� at seeing Sonny. Brenda smiled at the image of Brooke trying to keep him from running to Sonny. Sonny picked up his son and kissed him on the forehead.

Brooke sighed putting her fist on her hip, �Men.�

Everyone laughed and looked towards Lois who was looking around innocently.

Edward held his arm out to Brenda, �Shall we dear?�

�Yes.� Brenda took Edward�s arm and they walked down the aisle towards Sonny.

They walked down the aisle and Brenda took Sonny�s hand. Carley went to pick up Micheal, his attention on something in the grass, before he ran into Brenda. When the minister asked, �Who gives this woman?� Edward replies, �I do.� Jason and Lois respond with a simultaneous, �Finally,� causing Sonny and Brenda to smile. Adam was still in Sonny�s other arm and he didn�t want to be put down so they were married with him holding his son. They decided to say their own vows.

�Brenda you are my life, my reason for living. I would do anything to protect you and keep you safe. I made a mistake once that I have been paying for ever since, but never again. Without you, I am a hollow core, a shell of a man. You are my essence, the most important part of me. I want to wake everyday to your face and create as many smiles and memories as we can. When I die, I will be happy as long as I have spent every second of my life, from this moment on, content and happy with you by my side.�

�Sonny, my most precious love. I have dreamed of this day since I realized I was in love with you. There is so much I could say, so many memories to cherish. I am happy that I will be able to make more precious memories with you. As our family increases, so does my love for you. I want you now, forever, and for all time.�

�Do you have the rings?�

Sonny and Brenda looked towards Adam who looked apologetic. They looked at the pillow he dropped and didn�t see the rings.

�I have them,� Brooke announced, �I picked them up when he dropped them.�

There was an audible sigh from the guests as Sonny took the rings from Brooke�s hand. He handed the larger one to Brenda and they turned to face the minister.

�Micheal, repeat after me. With this ring, I thee wed.� Sonny looked into Brenda�s eyes and smiled, �With this ring, I thee wed.�

�Brenda, repeat after me. With this ring, I thee wed.�

Brenda�s smile was as large as Sonny�s and she had tears falling down her cheeks, �With this ring I thee wed.� She mouthed the words I love you and Sonny echoed the gesture.

�You may kiss your bride.�

�I would be most happy to,� He gently lifted the veil covering Brenda�s face and folded it back over her shoulders. His dimples were in full effect as his smile broadened and he bent his head to kiss Brenda.

Adam covered his eyes, �Uck, mushy stuff.�

Sonny had his hands on either side of Brenda�s face and he smiled against her lips at his son�s words. He made Brenda his wife with one of the passionate kisses he was famous for.

Brooke obviously had a crush on Lucky. Liz asked her why she didn�t like Adam. Brooke responded that Adam was too young for her. This caused Liz and Emily to laugh and Lucky�s cheeks deepened in their reddish tint.

The incident with Robin, Micheal, and A.J. still happens. But, Robin has decided to stay in town when Jason broke up with her. She loved Jason too much to give up their relationship.

I like Carley. I believe her manipulative ways are a survival tactic she learned because she was raised in a bad adoptive family (if she was adopted and didn�t have to live all her life in an orphanage). I think she is too good for A.J. She and Jason share custody of Micheal. She will have a relationship that could lead to marriage (undecided). The joint custody and closeness to Jason will cause this relationship to be rocky.

'I still don�t understand how you could let him be anywhere near Micheal.�

'He�s Micheal�s father. I agree he isn�t the best man for the job but, he deserves .....'

"I�ll tell you what he deserves, my foot about ten feet up ...'He sighs. 'I still love you but I don�t trust you. Micheal doesn�t need to have anything to do with A.J.'

'If it wasn�t for A.J., Micheal wouldn�t exist.'

'Blame that on Carley�s complete lack of taste.'

Brenda is back in Port Charles with her son. Adam, Sonny, and she are trying to get over the past, the pain and the memories. Elisa and Jax are dating and she is angry because she knows Jax is still in love with Brenda.

'You still love her.'

'Yes but, it is different. I love you, I�m with you.'

'But, you want to be with her.'

'I�m with you know. She doesn�t want me.'

'I�m no one�s consolation prize.' She leaves.

Jax: �What�s so important about you? I don�t know. Maybe its your laugh, or your smile, or the way you act - like a hungry little girl who wants everything she sees. Maybe its your mouth, or your skin, or your soul, the part of you that is real underneath all the tricks and the lies. You�re brave, Brenda. You ignore the advice of well meaning people who tell you to compromise. I like that because that�s how I am too.�

Brenda: �I know. That�s why I don�t understand why you�d ask me to give up. You know, to settle for ....�

Jax: �Me? I�m no one�s consolation prize, Brenda. The trouble with keeping your eye on the goal is that you miss what�s right under your face. For example, you�ve missed the only man who will ever make you happy.�

Brenda: �You?�

Jax: �Yeah.�

Jax walks over and kisses Brenda.

Jax: �I belong with you, Brenda. He never did.�

The memory came so easily for him. He realizes that he was wrong when he said that to Brenda but if Elisa said that to him, she would be right. He goes after Elisa to try and work everything out.

When Brenda comes back to town and has her baby, Sonny gives her a gold locket with Brenda, Sonny, and their newborn son. Micheal Corinthos, III.

Brenda regains her memory when she is about six months pregnant. She knows she can�t just walk into Port Charles pregnant and back from the dead. Alice writes a letter to Jason saying she has information on Moreno and wants Jason to come to her. He can bring bodyguards but, not Sonny.

Jason leaves not telling anyone the real reason he is leaving. He goes in the building he was directed to and finds Alice there, alone. She tells him they need privacy. The guards search the room Alice and Jason are to go into and they go back into the main room. Alice tells Jason he can frisk her but, Jason says that its not necessary to which she replies, in a whisper, �Too bad.�

Alice tells Jason that she knows nothing of Moreno, she had to make up something to get him there. She steps to the door and call�s Melanie�s name. Everyone is surprised to see a very pregnant Brenda step from a hidden door and walk into the room.

�Brenda?� Jason can�t believe his eyes. He was so surprised to see that Brenda was still alive that he didn�t notice she was pregnant at first. His gaze swept over her body and froze on her abdomen. �You�re pregnant? You�ve been here all the time making everyone think you are dead? Sonny is miserable and you�re running around with God knows whose baby. How could you?�

Brenda whispered something. She knew she would probably get this reaction but it still hurt that anyone close to Sonny would think that she could pull something to the magnitude of what Jason was suggesting.

�What was that?� Jason�s voice showed his disgust. He couldn�t believe she could do this to his best friend. He didn�t know what to tell Sonny, this would hurt him severely but, Jason knew he deserved the truth.

�Its Sonny�s.�

At first Jason smiled, he was very happy and relieved that he had been wrong. Then the whole of what Brenda was telling him hit him. She was pregnant with Sonny�s child. It was something that would take some getting used to. He believed Brenda was telling the truth, but the concept didn�t quite seem a reality. Sonny would be thrilled. Jason reconsidered, no Sonny would be furious. He would jump to the same conclusions that Jason did. Jason understood why Brenda couldn�t just go back to town in her present state.

�How did you survive? Why didn�t you contact me sooner? Who is this?� Jason pointed at Alice.

�Right to the point,� Brenda smiled. �I�ll answer your questions backwards. Alice is a very dear friend, like a big sister. She saved my life. I didn�t contact you sooner because I had amnesia. I didn�t even know who I really was till a couple of weeks ago.� Brenda stopped. His first question required a long story to fully explain it and she didn�t know exactly what to tell him.

Jason absorbed everything Brenda told him. He understood head injuries. The man that called himself Jason Morgan was once Jason Quartermaine. He could understand how Brenda could have amnesia. Tricky thing the mind was, so easily tampered with. And it rarely chose a good time to go on the fritz.

�The other question is a bit complicated. Suffice it to say, when the car fell off the cliff, I fainted. I fell out of the car somehow and woke up on the beach below. Alice saved me when a couple of jerks tried to take advantage of a lone woman on the side of the road. She helped me and the baby survive and I have been living with her the past few months.�

Jason rubbed the back of his neck, �And, exactly what do you want me to do?�

�I want you to bring Sonny here so I can tell him what happened.�

�You don�t want to make it easy on me, do you?�

Jason left and went back to Port Charles. He told Sonny, Brenda was alive and he needed to take him to her. Sonny was out the door almost before Jason stopped speaking. Jason stepped outside and noticed Sonny pacing in front of his car.

Jason smiled when Sonny asked, �You think you can step it up a bit?�

They got in the car and Jason drove them to where Alice had told him that she and Brenda were living. Sonny was out of the car and standing at the front door by the time Jason shut his door and started up the walk.

Jason went up the steps and stood beside Sonny. His friend looked like he was about to burst from having to wait. Jason knew the past two and a half years had been hard on him and he felt for his friend.

�What are you waiting for, ring the doorbell.� Sonny asked Jason.

�Why don�t you do it?� a slight smile played on Jason�s lips.

Sonny looked at him. Haw long had Jason known? How was it Brenda was alive? Was she okay? What kept her away? Sonny�s thoughts continued as Jason rung the bell. The door opened and Sonny was disappointed it wasn�t Brenda.

�Mr. Corinthos, Mr. Morgan. Will you please come with me?� Alice tried to remain calm. They�re just people - she told herself. So what if a gun is a part of their daily accessories. Alice continued walking toward the bedroom Brenda had been using as she tried to calm her heartbeat. Alice shut the door, �I am sure Mr. Morgan told you why I wanted to see you.�

�All he told me was that Brenda was alive. What I want to know is WHO THE HELL ARE YOU?! WHAT HAVE YOU DONE WITH HER?!�

Alice�s mind was blank as Sonny unleashed his wrath upon her. A thought started and it repeated like a mantra - Oh shit!

�Sonny,� Jason tried to get his friend�s attention but, Sonny didn�t even hear him.

�I KNOW YOU DID SOMETHING, SHE WOULDN�T HAVE STAYED AWAY IF YOU DIDN�T KEEP HER! IS VERONICA INVOLVED?!�

Oh shit!

�Sonny.� Jason�s voice was louder trying to get Sonny�s attention Alice�s face was white as a sheet and her eyes were wide with fear as Sonny released years of pent up anger, on the terrified woman, over being kept from Brenda.

�OR, IS BRENDA BEHIND THIS?! DID SHE WANT TO STAY AWAY FROM ME THAT BAD?! DOES SHE HATE ME?!�

Oh shit! �SONNY!� Jason yelled. It broke Sonny�s concentration but, Jason suppressed a shudder as Sonny�s cold eyes turned towards him, looking for a new target.

Oh shit!

�WHAT?!?!�

�She saved Brenda�s life.�

Sonny�s anger cooled slowly and he shut his eyes as he reined in his temper. He knew Ms. Richards didn�t deserve his anger but fear of what had happened to Brenda filled him and he lost control. He looked at Alice and was sorry. The poor woman was pale as a ghost and Sonny felt like kicking himself. �I�m ..... I�m sorry.� He knew it wasn�t enough after what he had done but, he didn�t know what else to say.

Alice�s only thought was - Its over, thank God, its over. She swallowed hard and shut her eyes. She breathed deeply and opened her eyes when she felt considerably calmer. Both men were relieved when her complexion returned to normal. �Me ... Melissa.� her voice betrayed her self imposed calm.

Sonny looked to Jason for a second before his attention was gained by the door opening. He was going to ask who Melissa was but, his thoughts stopped and his heart beat rapidly when he first caught sight of a very alive Brenda. He smiled and started to walk towards her when his eyes found her abdomen. His mouth promptly gaped open.

Brenda smiled at his expression, �Maybe you should give us some time alone?� her question was aimed towards Jason and Alice but she never stopped looking at Sonny.

�Come on. I�m sure I can keep you entertained till they are finished.�

�Alice, he is dating someone.�

�Actually,� Jason smiled, �I am engaged to someone�

Brenda looked at Jason and smiled, �You have to tell me everything .... Later.�

Jason nodded and started walking towards the door.

Alice sighed, �All the good men are attached or gay.� She looked towards Sonny�s gaped expression, �You were right Melissa, he is kinda cute.� Alice laughed and shut the door behind Jason and herself.

Sonny closed his mouth, �You�re Melissa? Why did she call you Melissa?�

�Its a long story.�

�Who�s the father?�

Brenda smiled, �You are.�

Sonny was confused. He hadn�t slept with Brenda since ..... Sonny�s face erupted in a smile. He was never one for fantasies, but this was a dream come true, literally. Sonny walked over to Brenda and held her face. He meant the kiss to be soft but it quickly erupted into something blazing. The kiss ended and Sonny ran his hand over Brenda�s face. She would always be beautiful to him, he burned at night with memories of the Deception Cosmetics model. Her beauty matured and had increased by the time he came back to town two years after being forced to leave. But, he had never seen her as beautiful as she was at this point. Her face was glowing as her blood pumped through her body and into their child, nourishing the precious life.

This story takes place after Robin has left Port Charles permanently. Her form of departure, be it by her decision, she was forced, she was dead, etc. I have not determined.

Jason attends Carley and A.J.�s wedding and when the minister asks if anyone could see any reason why these two shouldn�t be wed, let them speak now or forever hold their peace, Jason stands up and objects, much to Carley�s delight. Jason walks to the front of the service and confronts A.J.

'Who the hell do you think you are?'

'She doesn�t love you.'

'How does that give you the right to ruin our wedding?'

'She loves me.'

'Do you love her?'

A long pause.

'I didn't think so. No either, you can leave, or..."

Carley keeps looking back and forth between Jason and A.J. She couldn�t seem to catch her breath as she, as well as everyone else in the room, waited for his answer. She knew that if A.J. laid his hands on Jason, she was going to ruin her dress when she didn�t stop from slapping the shit out of him.

'Yes.'

'What did you say?'

'I said,' Jason's voice seemed to echo in Carley's ears as it strengthened with certainty. 'Yes, yes I do.'

He pulls Carley to him and kisses her deeply. He looks into her eyes, silently asking her if this is what she wants. Carley smiles and nods. They get Micheal and go back to Jason�s. They get his bodyguard to drive them cause they can�t keep their lips, or their hands off each other. They settle Micheal into his crib and walk hand in hand to the bedroom. He continues to hold one of her hands as the other brushes the hair off her face and caresses the skin there.

'I know this was supposed to be your wedding night. I couldn�t let you marry him.'

'Its okay, Jason. I didn�t want to marry him. I love you. I am very glad you stopped the wedding.'

'I would never have forgiven myself....'

Carley puts a finger to his lips. 'Jason, I don�t care who the biological father of Micheal is, you are more of a father to him than A.J. will ever be. He will never love him the way you do. I want you to be his father in every way other than blood. I want us to raise him together.' Jason kisses her finger and starts to kiss her hand. He looks into her eyes. 'I love you Jason.'

He places her hand over his heart. Looking deep into her eyes, he says the words she�s been waiting so long to hear. 'I love you Carley.'

He pulls her to him and kisses her. They end up making love.

They caught sight of him hiding behind Mrs. Guevera. She had warned them that he was shy and, even though he was told they were his parents, he considered them strangers and he would be very wary of them. Both Sonny and Brenda hurt that their son considered them to be strangers but it couldn�t be helped. They couldn�t go back and change the past no matter how much they might want to, they could only go forward and make Adam�s life the best it could be with their love. Mrs. Guevera pulled Adam from behind her skirt and bent down so she could talk to him at his eye level.

The beginning of this conversation is in Spanish. I don�t know spanish so you�re going to have to use your imagination >: )<

'Adam, these are your parents. Say hello.'

Adam looked up at his foster mother. She was the only mother he ever knew. She had told him for as long as he could remember that his real parents were in the states, that they had no idea he was still alive. He didn�t want to believe it. How could anyone leave their son to die. He wanted to stay with the Gueveras, in the only home he had ever known.

'You�re my mother. I don�t know them.'

Sonny was glad Brenda couldn�t speak Spanish, her heart would have broken over the last statement. She had grieved so long holding on to an image of what she thought her child would look like. He knew she had many fantasies about this homecoming but Adam�s dismissal of him and Brenda hurt him to his core and he knew it would do the same to Brenda.

'I love you like my own son, but you are their son. It means so much that you think of me as your mother but, these people deserve a chance to get to know you, to know their son.'

Adam took a few tentative steps towards Sonny and Brenda, he looked back at Mrs. Guevera for a boost of courage and his steps become more sure as he walks towards the parents he never knew.

'Hello Adam.'

'Hello, Mr. Corinthos.'

Sonny knew his son needed time to come to know him as his father. He was willing to take the time, and had all the patience to make this boy know and understand that his parents loved him and would always be there for him. Still, he couldn�t wait till his son first called him daddy. Sonny bent down on one knee so he was at Adam�s eye level. He held out his hand to bring his son closer to him and the few seconds of indecision on Adam�s part seemed a vast gulf in which each heartbeat took a year to pump blood through Sonny�s tired body.

'This is your mother, Brenda.' Adam had taken Sonny�s hand and Sonny pulled him gently towards his mother.

Brenda heard her name and finally took the chance of believing this was her son. So many doubts flowed in her mind surrounding the possibility that this was the wrong child. She looked into Adam�s eyes and she knew, though she couldn�t understand how, that this was her son. He was as she imagined him. A tiny version of Sonny stood before her afraid and hurting. He had Sonny�s eyes and Brenda�s mouth and nose. He wasn�t smiling, but she was certain that if he ever did, his dimples would rival Sonny�s.

'Hello Adam. I am very happy to meet you. I just want you to know that I love you very much, that...' She looked into Sonny�s eyes and answered the question Sonny had as to if she would acknowledge who he was to their son. He didn�t know if she wanted him to be a part of their lives till he heard the next words come from her mouth. 'your father and I love you very much.'

Sonny reached for her hand and squeezed it gently when it easily and familiarly slipped into his. Brenda stretched her hand out to Adam and when he accepted it she was patient, letting him get used to her touch because she knew that once she touched him, she would never stop wanting to. A bond was formed that had for so long been severed. Brenda�s eyes held acceptance and they shared Sonny�s expression of hope. They knew they were a family, the love they shared for each other had overcome unbeatable odds and survived.