today i was in the midst of sin. again. and as usual God grabbed me by the collar and pulled me back to Him. why...i don't know. i guess the only reason would be because He loves me and He cares. i don't deserve that love and care though. anyway...today has just been a long and disgusting day. i found out that being christian and being human apparently can't go hand in hand. people don't get the fact that christians still have human desires and they still sin just like anyone else. perfection isn't part of the package deal when ya get saved. i wish it was. it would make life a lot easier. *laughs* i make mistakes too and i just try to do my best. sometimes i screw up and God still loves me. if only mankind were that forgiving. i've had a hard time at work lately. i hope God will be with me this week. right now i feel like i just can't take anymore. i'm slowly going bananas. i'm scared i'll just explode on someone and i don't wanna do that. so hopefully He'll hold my hand while i creep through my own "valley of death" at work...hehe. then there is the subject of men. why are they so hard to get along with? this is so puzzling to me. is it me? is it them? what? or does God have one special one tucked away in His robe somewhere for me? *sigh* maybe i'm supposed to go become a nun? who knows? *laughing* tomorrow is another day and hopefully God will be right there by my side to let me know that all is well. His love gets me through each day when i seek it. when i don't...it's my own fault. This journal will be continued at: My Yahoo 360 if you would like to continue reading about my walk with Christ.