Look, the lines are even big enough for your extremely large writing! WOW!
Alrighty, I had a horrible day yesterday(but I think I did good on the social quiz). I talked to Bren, when I got home, over MSN. He said he might've called my house last night and asked for Lindsay, he thought it was funny. I didn't let on that I was mad but I was! Later on that night I ended up talking to him and meL(in the same window)on MSN. And just before I was gonna go to bed, meL's like "Who's Asylum Fodder?", it was some person who'd started talking to her. And Bren's like "Oh that's Lindsay, she wanted to talk to you." I got so mad, I started to shake and I wasn't doing it on purpose. I felt so sick I thought I was going to hurl. I talked to Tova for a couple minutes and then went to bed. I started writing in my journal and after a couple minutes I coudln't stand it anymore. I went back on the comp and emailed meL the most pathetic email I've ever written. I got so mad I made myself cry!
And then this morning, Jo let me read the notebook thing she has with Trisha and I got even madder. She wrote in there "Lindsay told me I'm a cry baby and I'm starting to believe it". First I did my mad face and then I closed the book and slammed it on the table. Then I let out a scream. We were sitting in the cafeteria during spare. Jo looks up from her chem and just gave me this book, she looked like she was going to pee herself she was so scared.
And then Trisha came over and asked me what's wrong and I tried to breathe and calm down. I managed to spit out, "I hate her so much." And Trisha's like, "Who?" I tired to answer her but I just burst into tears.
I hate her so much, no one can understand. I know it's wrong and it's bad but I wish she was dead! I hope she cuts a fucking artery one day and bleeds to death! I hate her with every atom of my being! I hate her! I hate her! I hate her! I hate her! I hate her!
She's taking over my life that I've worked so hard to make. Brendan tosses me aside like a smelly old sock for HER! Who broke his heart and messed up his life so bad that he couldn't eat or sleep. I stayed by him through everything, I only asked that he read my emails and reply. I have loved him unconditionally as a friend and more for years. I have forgiven him for everything.
AND I GET TOSSED ASIDE 4 HER!
And now she's after meL. No way, no how will she ever be friends with meL. And if she managed it, I swear to God I will kill her! I will not let her do what she does to her friends to meL. meL has enough problems, she doesn't need LIndsay dumping on her, she doesn't deserve it, no one does!
I'm so afraid that I might actually try to hurt her. It's not the fact of hurting another person that scares me. It's the fact of screwing up my future.
What she does to Jon is not right. "I can't play nurse maid forever", "How dare he do this", blah blah blah. She doesn't even consider what she did to him.
And she's mad at you for being all chipper yesterday and greeting everyone but only saying "Uh . . . hi" to her. And the fact that you "latched" on to Jon. My God, I hate her!
*SNIP*
Krys
