'Round here, people call that the Hippidy Dippidy!
1:10pm Isaac is such a dick! I tried my bribe with Jo and apparently she already asked him. He said he'd rather I phone him. What the hell for?! Is he, like, testing me or something? Or does he wanna bitch me out over the phone? I guess I should be prepared for that, he might just want revenge for what I did to him. I don't see why though, if that's the case. He won in the end, he found someone nice and had a nice relationship and I was left single, miserable, and depressed.
I was acting like such a queer at lunch. I grabbed Nicki's ass and I pushed her off a chair. It was pretty funny.
3:20pm Ha! Alicia's getting me Isaac's email! Her brother is friends with him. Bwahaha, I win!
10:22pm I hate LIndsay so much right now it's hard to breathe! When I got mad, I got shaking mad and not intentionally shaking. I feel sick to my stomach right now! Brendan is being all buddy buddy with LIndsay and it just makes me sick! And now she wants to talk to meL! I'm going to KILL her! I just lit the one plank I had down for our bridge on fire! And then dropped a fucking a-bomb on it! My heart is pounding!
10:56pm Well I just wrote Mel the most pathetic email I've ever writeen. Just tonnes of pent up rage and feelings that I could honestly never say to anyone else. I really hope she doesn't think I'm a pathetic loser because of it.
Alicia sent me an address that she believes is Isaac's and I wrote him an email. It was very straight forward and I made sure to mention that I have serious trust issues. I really hope it's actually his email.
I don't know if I'm willing to let someone into my world. When I get depressed I get mopey and pety and I feel as if the world's going to end. 'm very moody and I dump on people quite a bit.
Anyways sleep.
