*sigh*Sometimes life is just so hard to keep on living! At least one of my fears has been quelled, I was terrified that Lindsay would continue to hate me. But she's been wonderful. She's trying to be strong. I'm ecstatic that she liked her care bear though, Cheer Bear. I love the Hamtaro thingers she gave me, I really want to chew on them, they're like lego tires.
I'm happy she's getting out, of everything and her town. I'm envious, I hate this town. And I want her to stay, we'll all miss her! Especially if she moves to Austrailia.
Isaac broke up with me today. I don't know what to feel. I regret what I've done already but if Brendan sees me in the way I want him too, I won't regret anything. Except that I lead Isaac on, I feel bad for that. Sorry Isaac, it wasn't intentional.
I almost broke down in social. I had to write a test on two chapters I haven't even read(I don't even know what the Truman Doctrine was and there were SO many questions on it). Then I had to sit there and be quiet. So I started to think. I'd had two large cafe mochas from Tim Hortons and my mind was just going a billion, trillion miles an hour. Then I decided to finish my note to Spicki. I just totally spilled. I was such a coward too. I waited 'til the end of class to give it to her and then I left the school as quickly as I could.
Then I had to work! I didn't do ANYTHING! Especially after Lindsay came and went. I just kept waiting for her to come back, I was so scared she wasn't going to. Her mom is such a fucking nut job, some people just shouldn't have children! I talked to Ilona. I think it'd be good for Lindsay to spend time with Crystal and her mom, especially since Trisha and Amber and a bunch of people are close by. The only bad thing is Craig. ARGH! This world is just full of fucking assholes! DIE YOU BASTARDS DIE!
At least a few good things happened. I got 71% on a math test I totally thought I was going to bomb(trig sucks hairy balls) and I had a nice long talk with Tova. Now the rest of the class knows what it's like to want someone to shut the hell up! Whenever we talk, no one else does, it's just crazy insane. Which reminds me, I gotta send that freaking letter to Chantel. ARGH!
I wish there were a few more hours in every day! And that I could sleep, I hate being an insomniac. I talked to Kyle for an hour or so. It was nice, we haven't done that in awhile. I miss the friendship he, Trisha, and I had. *sigh*I miss the good old times!
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Name: Jingle Ham-Ham
Gender: Boy
Birthday: December 12
Sagittarius
The Ham-poet and lone guitar-playing wanderer. Jingle comes along to offer off-beat songs of wisdom to help the Ham-Hams find their way.
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*sigh*Sounds like Brendan!
