OOO, LOOKS LIKE GOOD WEATHER TO GO BUY ME SOME SOULS!
Well well well, I'm back again. Believe it or not, I actually think this journal is worth
while. As far as I know, only one person has found it(and that's only 'cause he threatened me,
bastard!). I think I've decided what I'm gonna do on Valentine's Day. Since I have it booked
off and I'll be single, I'm going to watch Stigmata, End of Days, and any other Satanic movie I
can found to further convince myself that my life sucks ass. It sounds like fun to me, satanlicious.
But I can't forget the tons of junkfood and pop I'll be shoveling in my mouth. Mm, fatty!
Well, I think I've thoroughly proven that I'm pathetic and
STUPID!
I win!
I don't really have anything to say. But I am extremely happy! Showcase stopped showing 'Traders'
three nights a week so I thought they were going to get rid of it and I'd never be able to see
it again and I'd go insane and I have to kidnap Pat McKenna and kill everyone, including myself.
But Global's showing it now and yesterday I saw it twice and it was two different episodes. Hehe,
I have no life! But watching Traders makes me happy so I will continue to watch it and act like
a total moron! My God, school tomorrow, I don't know if I can handle this! I don't want to go
back. At least Trisha will be there. I don't want to see Stu, well actually I don't care. It's
Kyle I don't want to see. That kid is such a little snobby ass rich boy but he likes to pretend
he isn't. I'm sorry but he tries to portray the poor little boy who can't stand up to his drunken
father with a mother who expects too much in fuckin' Mavi jeans and shirts from Randy River. Kiss
my ass Kyle, you're just a rich snob and you always will be! And there is no such thing as "poor
little rich boy".
And Lindsay worries that I'll change Nicki. If it's anyone who'll change her, it's Kyle. I've
been friends with Nicki since Grade 5 and I haven't changed her, I know her a hell of a lot better
than Lindsay does(well, at least I hope I do).
And it's time again for another selfish rant: I keep feeling as if Nicki's ditching me for Kyle
and I find that extremely disconcerting! Sara and I aren't friends anymore and no one has any idea
how that feels. Seeing your old best friend with her new best friend doing stuff that we should be
doing together. *sigh*I hate my life! Here Sara is running off having fun with Garn, while I'm
stuck trying to find friends in a place I never thought I'd look. I've become what I use to hate!
What the hell happened? What did I do wrong? I neglected my best friend, that's exactly what I
did. I like to pretend that it's Sara who ditched me and it's just her being a bitch but it's me,
like always. It's all my fault. Everything's always my fault.
I can't even describe what's happening in my life, it sucks major monkey balls! I keep giving
my friends advice and helping them get through their problems but here's me with no one to help
me deal with mine. No one to run off and buy me a present when I cry, no one to sit around me for
hours and try to make me laugh, no one to come over and gorge on junk food and watch pointless
movies with. My life truly does suck ass.
I'm probably just being selfish though. I guess my life has just changed so much that I don't
feel like myself anymore. I use to go to a movie almost every weekend and I went shopping almost
whenever I wanted and now I always have to work. At least I'm going to Ozzy soon! =)
Anyway, I've got to do shit to get ready for tomorrow! Ciao!
