Well, as sad as the thought may be, I think "it" is over with Isaac. Ha, if there even was something.
If only there was an "it". Yeah, now I'm just being an ass. I don't know, I had to close on
Wednesday and it just seemed that . . . well, like he didn't care at all. I don't know, this is
probably me being an ass. I was really pissy on Wednesday, didn't wanna talk to anybody(and I had
to close lobby and work counter all night so I wasn't exactly in a position to be happy). And that
was actually night where I wanted to do dishes.
I've talked to Garn and she said that I should be the so-called "bigger man" with him and admit
that I made a mistake by going out with Stu(and boy, was that a mistake). But, I don't know what
it is, I just can't talk to him. Like, at all anymore. And if he's said anything to Trarback, it's
never made it's way back to me. I asked Jon awhile ago and he said that all he'd said was that he
was jealous of him because he had a girlfriend(for God's sake why, I don't know because it's LINDSAY).
But, frankly, I think that's the end of that. I don't want it to be but life isn't exactly
something you can control! Blech!
I'm thinkin' of tellin' Jo where this is but I really don't think she wants to read my online
journal and have to constantly read about her brother. Hell, if I did, I'd freak(but if any of my
friends liked my brother, I'd turn them off that in a snap). Who knows, just as long as Tova, Sara,
or Garn don't find this, it's fine. Ha, Jo might even tell Isaac and then the shit would hit the
fan. Man, I shouldn't even joke about that(oh well, no one's reading my written diary).
But I went to the U of A open house today. I think I definately want to go there. Unfortunately,
the psychology department is in the screwiest building on campus(there's, like, stairs that lead to
no where and sinks without faucets and crap like that). I know I want to live in residence but I
can't decide which one. We only toured Newton Place and I really like the bachelor suites, $500 a
month. I like the Hub a lot too, I think it'd be a really cool place to live, your windows open
up into a mall. But I was told they stick most first year students in Lister Hall and I've read about
it and I don't like it. Only 150 square feet for a single, it's furnished and I want to have my
own stuff, you can't stay there during the summer, it's an actual dorm, and you don't get to choose
if you get a single room or have to share and get stuck with a double. The only advantage I see
about it is that I get to meet a lot of people easily. And I want to apply ASAP(I don't know why
but I do). Also, you have to invest in a meal plan because there's only communal kitchens and meal
plans are EXPENSIVE!
Well, they legislated the teachers back and I'm goin' back tomorrow. AcK! I'm so screwed for
bio30 and math20. Eep! Oh well, I got all my math homework done and at least I made SOME bio30 notes
while we were away.
Anyway, sleep is good.
January 21, 2002
