THE LIGHTNING BOLT
(VIA THUNDERBIRD~DAKINI)
I REMEMBER THE WAY I WAS GRADUALLY AWAKENNED; FROM A DISPLACED SENSE OF DUTY TO THAT OF THE ARTS; FROM A SENSE OF DISCIPLINE TO THE ARTS TO AN AWARENESS OF THE SPIRIT WITHIN ALL LIFE; FROM THE SPIRITUAL VIEW TO VARIOUS PATHS OF SERVICE, EVEN WHILE RECOGNIZING THE LINGERING HANGUPS OF DISPLACED DUTY AND AS FOR THE MAIN INFLUCENCES WHICH INSPIRED MY WORK, EVERYTHING FROM THE SEXY STRANGER'S PASSING GLANCE TO THE INTANGIBLE SOURCE OF LOVE, LOVE'S SERENITY; I WAS NEVER SO CLOSE TO MY GOAL AS WHEN MARRIED, NOR NEVER SO FAR AS WHEN DIVORCED; AND NOW I'M FORCED TO SEEK LOVE ALONE, REVIVE THE DEATHS OF BOTH, MY HEART AND MY ART.

IS LOVE A FUTILE PATH; DOING MORE HARM THAN GOOD? PERHAPS THE ASCETICS WERE RIGHT; THE ANSWER IS BEYOND THIS LIFE? PERHAPS NOT; AND ONLY THE AWARENESS GRANTED US IS THE ESSENCE OF DIVINE GRACE. DO I REMAIN A HOPELESS ROMANTIC, IF I SEEK THE HARMONY OF EXTREMES OR AM I ON MY PATH TO PEACE, AS THE GURUDEVA - GOD PROCLAIMS?

ALL I KNOW FOR SURE IS ART POURS FORTH FROM WITHIN MY HEART WITH FORCE, AND THOUGH I TRY EXPLAIN THE MAGIC, NO WORDS ARE SO CLEAR AS THE IMAGES SAY IT. THEMSELVES, A TESTAMENT TO THE TRUTH, I THINK IN TRYING TO, I END UP LYING TO YOU. MAYBE MUSIC IS NOT MY WAY AND WHEN I SING, MY SPELL CASTS AWAY THE MYSTERY IN SPITE OF ME, AND ALL I MEANT TO SAY; OF MYSTIC WORLDS, AND DIVINE BEINGS; THESE UNSEEN DREAMS DWELLING RIGHT INSIDE OF ME; IS BETTER LEFT UNSAID; KEPT LOCKED AWAY IN SECRECY.
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