| Why do you do this to me? Is it something I did, Why can't I endure life, Pain free and tear free? Family & friends don't understand, Fore they can not see, But I know you're in there Slowly taking over me. Don�t you believe, you have done plenty, I can no longer conceive, Isn't that enough? I ponder the question should I surrender? But I know with God on my side, There will someday be a cure, For this atrocious disease Known as "Endometriosis" |
| 5 AM Thoughts..... By: Connie Newville When things seem tough And, you feel like you have had enough You look up into the sky And, see a shining star nearby As you look upon the star You wonder if God is far So, you say a little prayer In hopes that he is there Asking him for hope For him to help you cope Then as you close your eyes While staring at the dark skies You fall into a dream You dream of what you wish A wish of happiness You feel so quite content You don't want to awaken Back into reality But, the rising of the Sun Brings on a new morning With Birds in the Air Singing And, the winds blowing oh so softly You forgot about your worries Your pain and, your sorrows And, start the day anew Being thankful for Gods love for you. |
| I'll Be There For You By: Connie Newville I can not heal your soul, I can not fix your pain, I can only love you time and, time again. I can not save you, I can not make you whole, I can only be there to listen to your every woe. I will always listen, I will always hear, but, I can only do so much to wipe away your tears. Please don't be sad for my pain, it is my destiny, Just remember this, it won't last for all eternity. Take care my friend, Be in Peace, For God's Love will never Cease. I do appreciate you very much, For life would be nothing without your very special touch |
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| I Need You... By: Twy Velasquez My tears don't show my sadness, my smile no longer hides the pain I try to tell you, but you refuse to see my shame Life for you is straight out of a storybook Come on into my pages, have yourself a look I'm sorry, am I burdening you with my sorrows You don't want to talk about my uncertain tomorrows That's it, walk away, don't call for a week It's no different than last time; I always get your mean streak When it comes to my being sick you go blind Don't do this; please do not be unkind I need you, open up your eyes Quit sugar coating your disappointment with lies So this isn't what you wanted, you won't believe it's true Well I didn't ask for this, what am I suppose to do I know it's irrational for me to ask you to love me unconditionally But, this disease is taking over, I need you, can't you see You don't understand how I can be sick, you say I look just fine You think it's all in my head, and you're tired of hearing me whine Why do you distance yourself, does it scare you that much You need to remember I'm scared too, I need your touch You have yourself believing it is a little problem that will go away This is a non-curable disease that I live with everyday I can't talk about it outloud; it's not what you want to hear So what should I do, lock away all this fear When I got this disease did I ruin your dream Well storybooks are not always what they seem When you are ready to accept me, sickness and all Pick up the phone...give me a call When you are ready to believe this is true Let me know...I'll still need you! |
| To the ones who stand by our side... By: Twy Velasquez Sometimes I wonder how you can be so strong I want you to know; you can cry too, it's not wrong You always stand right by my side, I know it's hard on you And with my whole heart I appreciate everything you do How sad I think it is that you don't get all of me With this disease I can't seem to be all I want to be But you never complain when you have to pick up the slack You never seem jilted when attention for you I lack Who taught you to be so brave, to love me this way I gave you the choice to run, but by my side you stay You rub my back, you hold my hand, you say it'll be alright Did you know when I gave up it was you who gave me sight You always tell me how strong I am and how I amaze you But you are by far the stronger one with everything you do I'm sorry if I fail to tell you everyday "I'm so happy you decided to stay" Thank you for being my wind when I couldn't fly And dusting off my wings when all I could do was cry |
| Quietly I Envy By: Twy Velasquez Will him and I always be alone Will a baby ever cry in this home I'm scared the pictures on the wall Are all our lives are going to tell I long to hear little bare feet on the kitchen floor I wish for crayon drawings on every single door I want to hear the word "mommy" and have it mean me Through the eyes of a child I desperately want to see I would be glad to get the monsters out of the closet where they hide And wipe away crocodile tears that are cried I want to kiss bruises and buy special Band-Aids And spend a large fortune in penny arcades I long to get gum out of hair and share big ice creams I want to hear a little version of us tell all their dreams But this is not our destiny And yes it is because of me Do other people appreciate the precious beings they hold Do they know that it is also our dreams that they are helping mold |
| Can you hear me... By: Twy Velasquez You have stolen my freedoms; you've taken my dreams You continue to hurt me, you ignore my screams What did I do, Is there a reason for all of this So much pain I go through, so many things I miss You remind me that you're here, you continue to grow I try to fight you, but my defensives are starting to slow You elude all the doctors, you remain a mystery Show your face, my enemy I wish to see Just when I begin to think that there is hope Just when I am starting to believe I can cope Here you are once again to bring me back the pain Yes, I know your little secret, with me you will remain So stay if you feel you must, I'm no longer scared of you Go ahead and hurt me, do with me what you need to do I'm stronger than you think I am I'm not going to give up Let your ways run over, with pain you have filled my cup There is nothing left you can take away To you I say "bring on another day" For there will come a time when a cure is found And to your pain I will no longer be bound |
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