In May of 2000, My father became very ill. He was a smoker of more than 40 years. In May of 2000, He was diagnosed with Lung Cancer. As many of you know, when someone has USUALLY any form of cancer, they can go at any time.(as far as my knowledge) Chemo isnt always the option. My father told me not to worry, and that this was gods decision to diagnose him with it. As the days went on, he basically had his good and bad days. Sometimes it seemed as if he wasnt sick, and other days that he was in alot of pain. Although, he never wanted anyone to feel guilty for him when he went through his rough days. He never once told me about his disease, He just asked me to respect him and act normal around him as if he wasnt sick. In December of 2000, he was bed ridden in the hospital. He was on life support, life support had to beat his heart, and breathe for him. He became very very ill. I would sit with him by his bedside for hours at end. He said one thing to me "Kim, take life for granted, you only have one, so make it your best" He then continued saying "I will always love you, and When you float to heaven, I'll have a spot waiting for you" Everytime i think of that, It puts tears to my eyes. My dad told me not to worry about him, and that if i ever wanted to talk to him, He'd be right by my side listening. He said We could be in eachothers dreams, carry out the normal things in every day life that we did before. He told me not to get all emotional about things, and that he didnt want to see me cry because he would be with me no matter what and that he'd never leave my side. He taught me many things in life in which im grateful for. Well besides the necessities like tieing my shoe, and getting dressed he taught me to never grow old, and to have as much fun as possible because You never know when your last day on planet earth would be. He told me to be the best person i can, be the most caring, and be as intelligient as i could be. He told me to wish for my dreams which is still today to become a doctor. I told him "I'm too old to become a doctor, by the time I finish I will be in my 50's" He said "That's never to old and to fufiill my dreams", and that he would be with me while I was struggling through it or enjoying all the aspects of it.
I just wanted to write this dedication to my father and building this face site was for him, by hard nights of not understanding how to make it and my nights of enjoying it and hearing that my faces were good. So dad thanks for pushing me thru this, and making me believe in myself in whatever i do.
SO to all that's reading, Dont give up your dreams as I'm not on becoming a doctor. Hoping to go to college for it this summer. :o)
Dad, I love you with ever beat of my Heart!!
Love your daughter,
~*Kim*~ |
