.:you think you know, but you have no idea:.
i am a perfectionist, a risk-taker, a thrill-seeker. i am a writer, a reader, a singer, and a composer. am a sister, a child, a friend. i am good to everyone but bad to anyone who tries to hurt me. i am not greedy. i am a hardworker. i love my family and friends. i don`teasily trust someone but those who are close to me know me inside out. i`m outgoing but shy. i can be loud if i want to, but quiet most of the time. i hate doing presentations in front of class but i like socializing with other people. i am a dancer. i don`t drink, smoke, nor do drugs for those are just a waste of time and money. i am a shopper, a designer, a lover of art and beauty. i hate failing but i get over it easily. i like travelling and going to new places. i am a homebody, i like junkfoods and fastfood. i am good most of the time but feisty on the rest.
i don`t see why people go on living like hypocrites. they befriend you and act like you`re the bestest friend they have, and then when you turn around, there they are...spreading gossip about you...i hate it when people judge me by my colour, or by my height, the way i walk, or talk, or shrug, or simply do what i wanna do...the thing is, you can`t change a person just coz you told her to do so...just coz you told her that it`s cool to do all these things...it`s not cool to tell people do the things you want them to do...that`s the thing...and i`m not that kind of person, or the other one, i won`t be dictated on what i should or should not do. nobody can`t change me. not now, not ever...well, except when i do really wanna change. but until then...accept me for who i am...if not, that`s not my problem anymore...
tHiS GurL`s GoT sUmThiN 2 SaY
with all the what if`s and could be`s, should have been`s and would have been`s, you`d think that people would have been tired of thinking these questions and just do the things they`re thinking of doin...have you felt that thing in you when all round you seems hazy and all of a sudden you feel so happy but so scared at the same time? have you ever felt contended in your life or does your life seem to just pass you by? i just have a few things to say. live life. seize the moment. take a risk. enjoy life as much as you can. we can`t be this young forever...
fate vs destiny
do you believe in fate? do you believe in destiny? or do you believe in both? either way, these are just two of the things that most people i know believe in. but what exactly is fate? is it a certain situation where we find ourselves in but all we know is that what happened was meant for us to experience? but doesn`t destiny mean the same thing? that we are somehow destined to experience something or meet someone else? if you believe in either of those two, why do we have choices? if we picked one choice over the other,doesn`t that somehow affect our fate, or destiny? don`t we have our own reasons of making decisions and not have our life be lived on fate or destiny alone? which one then would you pick: fate, destiny, both, or the power of choice over both? it`s time for you to decide, now.
soulmates.love at first sight.simply love
have you ever believed that someone out there is meant for you to be forever with? should soulmates mean that you have to be a couple or could you be friends and still be soulmates and still have a partner of his own? if your soulmate is your best friend, but you already have a partner in life, how can you spend your life with your soulmate if you apparently have someone else? how about love at first sight? is there really a love at first sight? or is it just the physical attraction that is often mistaken as `love`? why do we call attraction at first sight `love` anyways? is it because all of a sudden you get this feeling of anxiety, confusion, and nervousness at the same time? that your mind is racing, your heart`s beating fast, and your knees feel like they`re about to give up? what if you`ve gotten to know that person, and after some time would still feel the same way you`ve felt the first moment you`ve seen her, would you call it love then? perhaps. or maybe not. people change, and so do you. anything can happen. love.ahhh, love. what is love? is love the feeling of loyalty, of happiness whenever you`re with someone you love, of peace? is it a feeling of contentment, or is love really undescribable? if you were to ask me, love to me would be indescribable. it would be this feeling you get when you`re with someone, that you know it`s love but you don`t really know how to describe it. all you know is that love is this wonderful feeling that burns you in the inside and somehow puts a warm glow in your face? i wish i know what love really is. but i haven`t really been in love. there were times when i thought i had, but how would i know? it`s just another puzzle i need to solve. until then, i`ll be as clueless as ever. but once i figure the puzzle out, i`ll know...
is there more to life than this?
what do you usually think of first when you wake up? do you go through the hassles of thinking of what to wear for the day, or what to do, or do you thank God first for giving you another day to start your life all over again? have you ever wondered what your real mission in life is? or are you so tired of your life that you don`t get to appreciate the better things in life so you`d just sulk in a corner and just wish that you`d never woken up... i`ve felt that way sometime...it`s true. i admit it. sometimes i`ve felt something dark inside me that even i got scared of what i was feeling. i wanted to give up when everything around me seemed to collapse. i got scared. i had no one to talk to...i was alone. alone and unhappy. i wanted all things to end. i was frustrated with my life. nothing i`d do worked fine. i even thought that i don`t really matter to anyone... someone told me before that sometimes we have to relax, live our life as much as possible coz we won`t be young forever. time will come when we won`t get to do the things we`re supposed to be doing today. and when that time comes, we might regret it. we might regret not having fun and not making the most out of our youth...that someone also told me that the Lord won`t really give us something we can`t handle...true. all the obstacles He`s given me gave me strength, and i in turn became more mature. so is there really more to life than what it seems? yes there is. why? i can not tell. but you know, once you get to that point when you want to give up, don`t. when you think that your at the brinks of self-pity and all of a sudden you feel like you can`t take it anymore, don`t give up. once you pass that stage, you`ll have an even more appreciation to life and well, even enjoy your life as much as you can...

with all the if`s and the but`s and the what if`s that happens,

you`ll wonder why people keep doing the things they do...

even when they know that it`s wrong,

or that they`ll have a great loss,

more or less, they`ll suffer the consequences of the actions they knew they could`ve prevented...

with this actions comes the how`s, and the why`s, and the what`s, as a long trail of actions follows...

so why do people keep doing the things they do over and over again?

well, perhaps it`s just the way we live, think, act, and feel

these are the things that makes us as a person, WHOLE.