Chapter 6
Shae-Lynn�s POV: My head spun as his lips once again attacked my own. The simple affect of his lips touching me was dizzying�but only in the best of ways. Hands leisurely wandered as he slowly eased me back onto his bed. I exhaled softly as he began to trail kisses down my neck, my senses now keenly aware of his presence. Every touch, each graze of fingers now seemed to be even more apparent to me. It suddenly hit me�I was going to make love to Vic. I knew I wanted it but I would be lying if I said that it didn�t scare me a little. I opened my eyes and gazed upon him. He glanced down at me, his eyes full of a passion I had never seen before. I felt completely at ease. �Are you ok?� He asked huskily, as he dropped down to place a lazy kiss on my lips, his breathing a bit labored. I nodded and reached up to brush back his hair. I reached down and grabbed the bottom of his shirt and swiftly pulled it up over his head. I couldn�t help but smile. �I�m that heavy, huh?� I whispered with a wink as I ran my hand over his rippled shoulders. I couldn�t believe I took advantage of this for all these years. His face flushed red and he rolled his eyes jokingly at the comment, as he continued his path of kisses down my chest. He slowly lifted up my sweater. I bit my lip anxiously as the pile of clothing previously worn began to grow. I needed him. I reached down and took his face in mine, where I kissed him with every inch of passion that I was feeling. Following his lead, I began to trail kisses down his chest when I felt his shaky hand fumbling with my bra strap. It was obvious he was having trouble but I didn�t want to hurt his pride so I ignored it and continued. I felt his muscles tense as he struggled with the clasp. I bit my tongue to keep from laughing. Something about the apparent nervousness that he seemed to be feeling made him even more endearing to me. � Got it?� I mumbled against his skin. �Almost,� He answered, obviously frustrated with his trouble. �Must be a new design or something,� He muttered aloud as he tried desperately to undo the clasp. I nodded. �It�s a new brand specifically designed to keep all members of the male species out,� I quipped as I giggled, unable to hold in my laughter. He looked up at me and burst out laughing. �I was really trying to be suave,� He declared in between fits of laughter. I laughed and nodded. I leaned down to kiss his cheek gently. �I know,� I answered. �I think we�re both a little nervous,� I reached over and undid the clasp and allowed it to fall. I never felt so vulnerable before. Maybe it was because I wanted so badly to impress Vic�I don�t know�but the moment his eyes fell on me, any uneasiness I felt for any moment vanished. He looked into my eyes mesmerized and kissed my forehead gently. �I love you,� he breathed against my temple. � I love you too,� I muttered as we focused back on each other. Soon, every remaining object on our bodies was removed and it was just us. One would think there would be more embarrassment and much more apprehension after all the years we spent as strictly platonic friends, but there wasn�t. There was the occasional fumble, nervous giggle but for the most part it was us caught up in the intimate magic that we had created together. **Time passes** I snuggled closer to him, unwilling to break the connection we had just yet. Resting my head on his body and sighed happily. It was the first time in the longest time, I had felt completely content and safe. I was deliriously happy. �What took us so long, huh?� He wondered aloud. I lifted myself up to look at him. �I don�t think we were in as good of a place as we are now back then,� I answered. �I think we both had a lot of growing up to do�it wouldn�t have been as good if we had done this way back when, I guess,�. He nodded and leaned in to kiss the tip of my nose. �I think you�re right. The reason why this is probably so good is because of how close we got each year we spent together.� I nodded and kissed his lips slowly, finally appreciating every second of it. One thought, however, continued to plague me. �Vic,� I mumbled under his lips. �Mmhmm?� He answered, not fully paying attention to anything but my lips at that moment. I pulled away slightly. �I know I shouldn�t be even bringing this up now but I can�t help but wonder. What are you going to tell Maikki? I mean, we both agreed we can�t tell anyone about us until at least after Worlds�.� He nodded and held up his hand to indicate that he understood. �I had been thinking of that�I mean, when I wasn�t concentrating on you��. He added as my face turned red. �But I think that I�m going to say that I�ve just been having some doubts for some time now and that I don�t think that it would be best if we stay together. It�ll be as simple as that,�. I grabbed his shirt from the floor and put it on quickly as I sat up. �Vic, it isn�t simple�this is very much the opposite of simple!� He sat up too and put his arm around me. �Hey, calm down�� I turned to look at him. �I�m sorry. I�m overreacting�I just can�t help but wonder what can go wrong. I mean, what�s to stop it? What if she suspects something between us? What if Nikolai finds out?� He looked at me concerned. �He really scares you, huh?� I sighed. �In a way�I guess. I mean, it�s like he has so much power over me. I don�t know how to get away from it, you know? If this were a few months from now, I�d be leaving in a heartbeat but we�ve been working so hard,� He nodded and pulled me closer to him. Immediately I felt my body relax into his arms. �I know,� He soothed �And you never know how he�s going to react. I�d be lying to you if I said he didn�t scare me a little,� He pulled away and cupped my face gently in his hands. �I will never let him hurt you,� He promised, looking deeply into my eyes. �Never,�. My heart melted as I looked deeply into his cobalt eyes�so pure and honest. �I know,� I whispered as he kissed my forehead gently. I allowed myself to lie back down in his arms, resting my cheek on his chest. His slow and steady breathing had the most amazing calming effect on me. Just the affect of him had that effect on me. �I just don�t want to mess things up,� I confessed as I felt the tears begin to prick my eyes. I hated being so secretly emotional. I always wanted to hide it from everyone. It was so hard. With Victor ,however, I felt I could let it out. �I don�t want to hurt anyone,�. He sighed. �I know you don�t. I want to be honest with you though. I don�t know if this is a situation where we can avoid hurting people. Someone�s bound to get hurt, no matter what we choose to do. You have to accept that,� I nodded and took a deep breath to compose myself. So much had happened in the past few hours, it was almost too much to take in. No wonder I was reacting like this. �Can we just not think about it? At least for tonight?� I felt his arms pull tightly around me and I immediately felt warm and safe. �Yeah. This can all wait until morning. We�ve got an early practice anyway. We need to get some sleep,� I yawned and closed my eyes. No matter how right everything felt and how safe I felt at that moment, I had the awful feeling that things weren�t going to be as easily solved as Victor seemed to think.
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