| Journal entries concerning: The BIG Move |
| Trouble At Home: July 27th 1999 Trust the Lord completely;don't ever trust yourself. In everything you do, put God first, and he will direct you and crown your efforts with success. Proverbs 3:5,6 God help me! I feel so hopeless when it comes to my father. In the past 2-3 years all the emotions and communications between us have been twisted around. The only words I ever hear come from his mouth concerning me fall under the following subjects: I'm an incovienience, I'm selfish, I'm hateful, I'm lazy, I'm just plain wrong. And the list, believe it or not,just goes on and on! I feel like something is hurting him right now, but the only emotion I ever see from him is submissiveness to my sisters or anger towards me. Dear Lord! Hear me! I'm trusting you now. God Bless All, Sarah Jane |
| Second Thoughts: July 30th 1999 I, the messiah, have the authority on earth to forgive sins. Mark 2:9 Its nice to know that you took that authority all the way by dying on the cross and forgiving all sins of those that trust anf believe. I blew up at my sister Jennifer today. Shes so hateful and thick-headed! Bless her and help her through whatever is causing this negative transformation in her. I really hope that its your will for me to go to Mohave HIgh School. Whether or not I move in with Mandie and Teresa is another thing. But if I can be some good for them then use me for your purpose and good. I love you Jesus. Love, Sarah |
| Jumping Through Hoops:August 2nd 1999 Hi. sorry I haven't talked to you much lately. I've just got my focus back on you and almost lost it again. I moved into Mandie's house yesterday. Actually, it was official today. This whole transaction is weirding me out. I tried out for Mystic Rythm choir. Dear Lord, if its in your will, please let me make it. I love you Jesus. Help me to keep my eyes on you always. Help me to stay persistant in my search through life and keep a firm grasp on faith. In the verse I read today it says: But now in these days He has spoken to us through his Son to whom He has given everything, and through whom he made the world and everything there is. Hebrews 1:2 I love you so much! Love, Sarah |
| Opposites:August 7th 1999 Jesus replied,"Your trouble is that you don't know the scriptures, and don't know the power of God." Mark 12:24 Hey Jesus. This scripture, like all, speaks the truth. I really don't know the scriptures and I truly believe that if I really knew the power of what You can do I would be overwhelmed. I hope that this move to Mandie's house was a wise decision. I feel as though we're opposites. But deep inside we are much alike. Give me wisdom! Love, Sarah |
| Looking 4 Mr Bullhead: August 27th 1999 I get so frustrated with my opposing feelings. I really want someone who cares about and respects me, but who wouldn't treat me as though I were the most perfect person to ever grace his existence. TOo much pressure. I want a guy who could make me laugh my ass of andl ikewise, thought me humorous too! I want someone whos sweet and often times unpredictable. One who likes to hold me and shows interest in the same things as I am. someone who looks at the world through a slightly humorous perspective, alwas a joke or pun behind everything-keep things interesting. Who likes to smile and dance and have a good time. Whose honest but not to the point of being brutal. I guess right now I'm looking for a friend that might turn itno something more. And I wonder if I might find him here. Sarah |
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