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TITLE: LIFE
BY: Shawn Foreman
my insanity exceeds this dream of extasy
your hopes and wishes become dirty dishes
my life of lives is dying tonight
my faith is gone
I have no one
all these people around me
but ignorance is all I see
the shimmering light
is dying tonight
everything that was
will never be
everything that is
will always be
nothing is working out for me
my passion and virtuosity
become another hurdle for me
all of this stress has taken its toll
I have become weary and cold
you are judged by your appearance
thats because people fear this
closed minds make for weak people
and some how I'm stuck in the middle
life has its way of working out
but it also has its moments of doubt
with life comes uncertainty
so just let your demons out
and set your self free
everything's made to be broken
I wish I knew who I am
I don't think you'd understand
lost in my mind
in the dream of ecstasy you'll never find
acidic questions are flowing like wine
is there something more?
than what I'm here for
so when it comes will I know?
I'm looking and I can't see
its gotta be right here in front of me
your infectious laughter surrounds me
I couldn't speak
I couldn't breathe
I am nothing but I long to be
everything I have has been lost
I have no faith in the cross
I hope the pain you've made me suffer
makes your life a bit rougher
I'll go on as you get colder
your world turned over
the earth spinning beneath your feet
the only thing you hear
is the sound of your own heart beat
TITLE:Now I Know
BY:Vlad
You led me to believe
That we still had something left
Letting me do all the things
A true man suppose to do
Enrich your life with flowers and apologies
Writing you songs just to remind you
That I've never forgotten about you
You put on a face like you really cared
This crap went for a week and a half long gone
It hurt so much since you stabbed me in the back
Now I know
You can't turn a bitch into a house wife
Now I know
When all feelings been lost
Now I know
To never let my guard down again
Now I Know
Though that I was doing something right
Giving all of my desperate times
But instead you let others run your freaking life
If you had really cared so much
Then you'd look for me when I wasn't there
Guess that proves I was nothing more to you
Just an innocent fool that gave you a heart for own pleasure
Now I Know
You can't turn a bitch into a house wife
Now I Know
when all feelings been lost
Now I Know to never let my guard down again
You thought you had me fooled
that when I'd see you
I'd drop like a fly and fall for you
but you're wrong been over you since the day you tried
to play me for a fool
Someday I thought of going out and
start stomping you just to get over the pain
you left preying over me
You act like you're number one
but in reality you were nothing more
then a cross breed of a pig and a hypo
your roles hang out like a arm rest
next year around won't you come by my house
and you can be my Xmas tree
your image reminds me of bubble boy
if I poke ya would you pop and split up
Now I know
You can't turn a bitch into a house wife
Now I know
When all feelings been lost
Now I know
To never let my guard down again
Now I Know
TITLE:ALL I CAN BE IS ME
BY: Shawn Foreman
With life being so hard
I don't see how I've made it this far
all this money I spend
and still I have nothing in the end
people are too materialistic
I really don't have patience for that shit
I had found the love of my life
but that relationship died
when I was with her it was like a dream
now she's gone and emptiness is all I've seen
I thought she was my soul mate
but I guess that was not my fate
since she left, I have done some things that I've regretted
but with that said, I think I'm getting better
the hardships in life help you grow up
sometimes I get stuck
but I always pull through
no thanks to any of you
I have always done my part
ever since we met right from the start
my life hasn't been easy
but in all honesty, I love being me
a lot of people don't like me
but fuck what they think, cause they don't see
that all I can be is me
TITLE:Missing Half
BY:Vlad
Ever wonder what it feels like to feel sad
without knowing the reason why
This matter daunted me for years
At times I get sad and had no clue why
Growing up wasn't too bad I guess
But dealing with such a matter wasn't easy
I'd go on about my day happy and laughing
and at one point I'd just get really sad
Which I couldn't explain
I had feeling in my mind that someone
or something was missing in my life
Just couldn't come out with anything
Time went by and still no answers
Everything started to crumble
Since I felt whatever I was missing
had no way of finding it's way to the surface
family and close friends always been there
still I felt alone at times with a hole
in my heart that couldn't be healed
By the time I turned 20
finally found out what I might have
had those weird feelings for
It was my missing half
One egg split in two
creating two alike
I was relieved finally
after being in between two worlds
one trapped in sadness, the other looking for answer to appear
Hope where ever you are. You're happy and well
watching down me every step of the way
Also proud of everything I have accomplished
You may not be close by but I still think of you
like you're right here next to me
TITLE:Bleed
BY: Shawn Foreman
You're ignorant, hours and hours in therapy I've spent.
Life is never fair
The mistakes I've made become another cross to bear
What makes me so bitter?
It's something that I've come to learn
Most people are cool until my back is turned
I guess I've become numb to the pain
In many ways you could say that I'm insane
I'll make it seem like someone else's fault other than mine
I'll find a way out of doing time
I'll blame it on alcohol, drugs, and violence on TV.
What about a plea of insanity?
Why does everyone want to criticize me?
What's the matter, don't like what you see?
If I had my way I'd make you bleed
I'm way beyond recovery
I have no morality
I would like to know my destiny
My attorney gets paid to do my lying for me
The justice system is just a game to me
Don't tell me about the silver lining
Because the cloud is all I see.
TITLE:Questions Unanswered
BY:Vlad
If I were to be gone today
would you care for me still
if my life was taken by a sudden
occasion would you still remember me then
don't feel for me since im merely
a face to be reckoned with
some say I'm vague and insane
but that's just another part of my life
trying to find out the purpose of my existence
looking for answers that seems to not exist at all
troubled by an ongoing cycle
afraid to take steps for the better
I lie here wondering when
will I make that decision
to move and forget about the past
Until then I am trapped in this dark hole
without any direction to look forward to
trapped in the middle of wanting to be something
or becoming a hero of war
Losing track of who I really am
it's just a scary thought when
you're trying to find more about yourself
and no answers seem to show up
Every day asking myself
Why am I here?
What's my purpose?
Whom am I ought to be?
all questions for now are left unanswered
sooner or later they'll be an answer to it all
TITLE:No Ressurrection
BY: Shawn Foreman
All the pain I receive keeps me strong
it keeps me moving on
I'm cold hearted
I don't even remember when this started
I spent some time in jail
until my parents posted bail
another violent criminal gets away with a slap on the wrists
man that shit should make you pissed
why take that risk?
just like a parasite
he creeps in
with friends like you who really needs it??
your smiling face is misplaced
you're so deceiving
I'm suffering like the fucking crucifixion
cover me with dirt
there won't be no resurrection
nobody's listening to me
cause no one cares
I have to stay high cause I've been left behind
I've tried to walk a very narrow line
it's not as easy as I thought I'd find
I feel that I’m losing my sight
I'm losing my mind
TITLE:From Afar
BY:Vlad Rosemond
Chained down by the wrongs in my head
Filled with confusion which I cannot handle
I try to cope with my wounded heart
But from afar an angel here's my cries
Everyday I just sit around and wonder when
If that image of her will ever be mines
Thoughts of her crossed my mind
Too afraid to share of what I feel for her
Since it feels like I'm living in a dream
Wondering when will I wake up
and see the truth
My body's gone cold since I can't feel her warmth
Only in time will our hearts shall touch
Sometimes I feel like she's fading away
But hearing her voice brings me joy
Such a comfort thought I'd never feel again
In my dreams you are like the moon watching over me
TITLE:Seeing Red
BY: Shawn Foreman
nobody loves me
nobody cares
I see you standing there
you're so unfair
my soul is empty and bare
I hate it when you fuck around
before you know it you'll be resting 6 feet under ground
I think I have found
that my life iz no where bound
fuck you
you are nothing but a pussy fiend
you're a jealous lil prick
I wouldn't be surprised if you sucked dick
you lil shit I hope you end up dead in a ditch
maybe its fate
you're god damn right I'm irate
if I listened to my friends
you'd be dead
I feel like beating you with a piece of lead
lucky for you my old life has shed
but you better watch your back
cause I'm liable to snap
you might end up in a hospital bed
you really have me seeing red
I'm so pissed at you
how could you blame me
for something I didn't do?
TITLE:Ugliness Within
BY:Vlad
Some days I go on about my day
Waking up to the daily routine
shower, brush teeth, get dress,
and look in the mirror
to see the ugliness within
Feels like I'm not cute,pretty,good looking
Just another ugly guy trying to live life
Well most always said it's what from within that counts
Hmm I wonder what would that be
If it was true then why am I still single eh
I've been like the gate keeper for years now
Someone who they can trust to create happiness
Till I'm no more of a use to them
Before I usually get the boot
First thing that comes out is
Oh yeah you're such a nice guy, too good for me
If I was that damn good for ya
Who in the world am I not good enough for
I may not have all of the physical, material things to provide
But I have a heart I'm willing to sacrifice
Done it three times already
It's been torn, stepped on, ripped in half
and still I stand on my own two feet
I must be a warrior in my mind
For which I see the ugliness within
Everyday as I wake up to go on about my routine
Ugliness from within is what I feel and see
When someone that you truly care for
Destroys you piece by piece till you fall
and crumble into nothing but sand
Title: Down
By: Shawn Foreman
Feeling this strange
Something has got to change
These disproportioned thoughts
These demons I've already fought
Bringing me down
life sux I have found
Insanity comes with no price
It's like your parents just rolled the dice
Never living to be free
They want you to be what they want you to be
Crashing your dreams
Making you think they care
Not everything is fair
Loving you a little here and there
All the time dragging you down
Look at what they're doing now
Living their life through yours
And now it's time to settle the score
Getting even is what this is for
You won't drag me down no more
TITLE:Dead Today
BY:Vlad
I feel the sad guilt flowing all over me
Same feeling I had when my first one ended
I didn't want to feel like that
But some people just know how to make an entrance
Crazy as I didn't think it would be
I feel dead today no need to live
I get out of bed and I think about it
Is the stupidness that's going on the inside
I try fighting it but effects already took it's course
Why must it be the same way
People I care so much about
just throw me away
After the feeling of being used
to create a little happiness kept hidden inside
I feel dead today
As it seems best way to feel
Wouldn't need to get hurt again
My heart's dying on me
I can feel it really bad
It's tearing me up inside
Choices I make always turn bad as I see it
Why can't some people make up their minds
From the beginning destroying an innocent heart
That's not ready to fail
I am dead today
With no more battles left to fight
Felt like a knife went straight to my heart
Ripping it in half for it to stop the pumping
Irregular beats are going from time to time
Is this what my life was suppose to be all about
Like a coat being passed around from owner to owner
I thought I was doing something right
Why can't I be ready for such a thing
Must be I care too much about people at times
I envisioned great things coming up ahead
wasn't scared of what the world wanted it to be
I set my mind on the road thought it all would bring
I am dead today maybe it's how I am ought to feel forever
Dead today when it stop
when my heart stops beating I'll rest in peace
Title: Nothing
By: Shawn Foreman
listening to the voices in my head
loving it, if you were dead
the sky so bright
no one or nothing of fright
the life of a king
things have never been so serene
thinking about things
needing nothing but a change
the drunken madness
wishing you could have this
rhymes with a radness
taking over
nothing can keep me from being sober
things I have suffered
made my life a bit tougher
but the things I have enjoyed
have let the happiness deploy
nothing in my soul
taking another hit of the bowl
weed is not that bad
I think crack and heroin are more of a fad
taking a place in society
wondering what is expected from me
hopefully not morality
the things I've seen
bring back the memory
nothings' safe
my life in a cage
holding back
not being knocked off track
nothing is fair
telling the truth with no care
people don't see
you get the best of me
things in my head moving so fast
its a wonder anything lasts
people being fake
there's too much at stake
the welfare of the people
just become another thing thats feeble
no one concerned
just the innocent being burned
people being fucked by the government
I think the system is supposed to be a covenant
to fit the conformists
instead of the info mists
looking in the wrong direction
hoping for the resurrection
nothing more disgusting
than people in suffering
lies of politicians
oh its nothing that should be mentioned
everyone should listen
these people are supposedly on a mission
making the nation better
the moral of the people is tethered
telling you what you want to hear
people all the time living in fear
the noose around our neck
I proudly welcome death
people playing god
wanting to poke and prod
life's more than checks and balances
maybe someone will see this
things have become complicated
but life should not be over-rated
there are things that suck
especially the people who are only out for a buck
taking things too seriously
seeing things way too clearly
people living in fear
that the next tax bill will appear
the government jacking us
the people should rise up
the truth will set you free
nothing should be expected from me
the whole government is set up for conformasy
people making fun of me
but they will not get the last laugh
the nation is like a calf
too young to know how to control it
too old to notice
plotting shit
these politics
nothing more hateful than these wannabe pricks
if you really think you're ready to die
then take up arms and have some pride
no one should hold us down
these politicians running our town
thinking they can keep us down
making us duck and cover
all the time making you and your family suffer
tasting revenge in the air
like I said life is not fair
TITLE:Cold Hearted
BY:Vlad
I was left for dead under the drifting sun
thought I had you there to rescue me
but I was wrong once again
Took chances that didn't exist from the start
I felt it coming along the way
but I steered my thoughts away from it
Hoping what I already known was coming
wouldn't end up right in my face
too soon to realize outcomes
but I kept my heart in place
so the effect of it all wouldn't destroy me for good
two strikes happened already
I was hoping for nothing more to happen
third strike it happened once again
my road is led by a river stream
I hopped off the boat to make it happen
funny thing about it all is that
it's more like a pattern over and over
Almost all end the same way
good guy treats girl right
and gets the boot at the end of the night
Is this what relationships was all about?
Use to watch people drive themselves crazy
over nothing that probably wasn't going anywhere
understandable when you have to refresh your mind
should of said it since the beginning of it all
as I wanted to take time to progress it all
crash course test dummies we all are
Just hit the end of the road
and pick up the pieces of what's left to hold on to
Should I be enraged, mad, sad, distrust?
I don't know eventually it grows on ya
Should have mind my interest long ago
I let my walls down so fast
Yeah I've lost the battle
now just need my wings to take flight again
TITLE:Living in Fear
BY:Shawn Foreman
Indiscretions and hypocrisy
Somebody tell me what have we come to be?
Everyone at war
The world has never seen this before
Issues at hand
It's too much to stand
People of different nationalities
Having to go through major legalities
To live to be free
To breathe a little bit of sanity
Living in fear
Washing the blood away with a tear
Lives have been lost
That's just too high of a cost
Why can't people live and be happy?
Instead they hate and spread misery
Everything has changed
Even the way we board a plane
"Terrorists" making idle threats
People wondering what they will hit next
Living in fear
Washing the blood away with a tear
Blindly following a lead
Watching him plant his evil seed
Next thing you know there are explosions and panic
It is sickening when I think of your antics
Killing people on holy grounds
You got your ass kicked, now there's no one around
Looking forward to each day
Not knowing what's in store and in what way
Hoping and praying for peace
But that's not possible
Look at what you see
Love, hate, and misery
Living in fear
Washing the blood away with a tear
TITLE:Good Bye
BY:Vlad
Thank you so much for little time we spent together
Gave my heart a chance to care for another person again
I cannot let myself shed a tear wouldn't want it to last forever
Even being crushed from within I can't quit
Things happen for reasons unknown by most
When you think you've found what you've been searching for
It almost always scares ya at first till you learn the best part of it
Someone out there really has affectionate for ya without a doubt
Eagles take flight at the break of dawn everyday
Enjoying the joy of freedom that nature provides for them
No more pretending on things left open to discuss
Tried putting it all behind me now
Still images of us comes to mind
with clouded skies moving over my head
Covering the light that I've long reached for
Goodbye dear short lived friend
our path was met by fate
Or maybe by chance
No one will ever know the answer
Drugged out of my mixed emotions
Still can't get mad at ya for it
I take with me the words of wisdom you provided
for which makes me feel good about it
Sometimes the best way to break free
Is get over yourself and fight it
You'll get it one day I hope
Good things don't come by so fast
I believed in you once before
Now it's just so hard to know what's true or lies
Thought I would get the big picture by now
Goodbye ol dear good short lived friend
roads and obstacles are still ahead
Hope for the best in which you take
Goodbye
Title: To The Dead
By: Shawn Foreman
why can't we be together?
everything that I feel is pain
this time I know what I want you to know
that pain is only my heart broken
but I don't understand why
you put me through this
I can't take the pain
yeah this time it's for real
I got too many scars on my heart and soul
to let you leave me again
this time I feel it
I know that we are one
and maybe you don't feel it
or maybe you do
but your playing this game with me
why you put me through this?
I can't take the pain
this time it's for real
picture yourself
in my shoes
and tell me
why the hell are you killing me?
I can see
the sun not coming up today
I'm staying in
it's gunna find a better place
as I sit here in this misery
to see the sun from here
knowing I've been away
they'll all look at me
and say "here live that way"
it's ok
because there's a faith to chance
to the dead
I walk away from you
TITLE:?????????
BY:Vlad
Hope you rot in hell
For the heartbreak trails you left behind
You ask me to be you friend, are you fer real?
Is this how your style works
Get with a nice guy and throw em on the side,
for later use
You talk about others girls screwing
nice guys hearts out of place
Isn't that player hating there
You doing the same damn thing
Three words can mean so much,
but never say it If you don't mean it
I never took it at heart to the highest point
Had no intention to break your heart
You said you'd prove everyone else wrong
So whose the joke really played on now
Must have someone else on the side
who knows it's just an assumption
shake that fake sadness off your face
You knew exactly what you were doing
when it got too real for ya, just had to
run and hide
Stop feeling sorry for yourself
I had the worst end of it
You're living on the edge
with the passion for protection
I cared for you more,
then you can imagine
didn't want to see you hurt
Maybe there might be a change again
but for now I'd have to put myself first
Because no one will care more about me then me
so hoped that you've realized that for sure
my door is still open even though most feel,
it shouldn't be open
Guess I must be an ass and a fool
For wanting to keep in contact with you
I live my life in a square box,
Once in a while I'll pop out and share my world with others
But you broke that deeply, hurt so much I didn't want to breathe
Oh well that's life isn't it, can't have everything all in one box
still learning things the hard way, reminds of that movie ghost
You're only remember to the world when you suddenly disappear
time to pick up some new knowledge and start over,
except this time I'll be the one doing the destruction
TITLE:I Love You
BY:Shawn Foreman
Looking into your eyes
Knowing that our love goes beyond the sky
Nothing can break it
Not even he said/she said lies
To make you happy is all I want to do
Pain and agony I don't want you to go through
You have my heart
I pray that we never grow apart
When you shed a tear I'll be here
Wiping them from your face
To comfort you or whatever may be the case
When you smile I'll be here
To see that angelic glow
Hoping I never have to go
When your scared I 'll be here
To be with you soothing your fear
Grabbing you and pulling you near
Fearing for rejection, I take a chance
Kissing you softly
Running my hand down your pants
When I'm with you I'm free
From all of life's deficiencies
Hearing your voice
I've made my choice
Loving every thing about you
I'm hypnotized by all the little things you do
You have changed my life
Taking away all the pain and strife
Without you I would be nothing
Putting an end to all the pain and suffering
My heart has been bleeding to long
These feelings will never be gone
I love you
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