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Scarlet
- A lyric interpretation
***Disclaimer--the original Japanese version of this beautiful song ISN'T mine.
(Oh, and, just a note--this is
not
a translation. I sang this song, and unfortunately, I needed to sing at least part of it in English, and the translation doesn't really fit the music, so I made up my own set of lyrics!)
Kapitan Nemo
- My first stab at italian poetry...if I've done anything wrong (and I'm
sure
I have) that any fluent italian recognizes, please feel free to correct me
here.
What's so Wrong with Two Boys In Love?
--My original poem, also seen at the beginning of my "WsWwTBIL?" Banana Fish fanfic...this might seem a little racy, so use your better judgement reading it...Enjoy^_^
Stalking Lynx
--Yet another poem inspired by Banana Fish...This time, unfortunately, not so much lovey-dovey, more like...
atmosphere
...
White Chocolate Rose
- Just a random poem I came up with one bored day...If you don't like it, who cares! My writs, not yours!
Arg
--while I'm not the average, annoyingly angsty teen, there are a few things that tick me off. I guess that makes me spoiled...
Paper Overboard
! - Just a touch of AP Euro boredom shared between Julia and I...
Musings of a Poetic Manga Maniac
--Just my random thoughts on everyone's favourite Testusaiga-weilding, air-sniffing Inu-Yasha.
September Wind
--My own set of lyrics to yet
another
Iwao Junko ditty!
Unrequited Love
--More random thoughts...but this one, sincerely from the yearning of my heart.
Happy
- If there's one thing I've learned from Anime, it's that if you truly love somebody, you want them to be happy, even if that means your love is unrequited. (But that's not always the easiest thing to bear...)
Predilection
- "Gravitation" (
Nittle Grasper
)'s Transitation.
Inoru You Ni Aishite'ru (Prayer of Love)
- A "Fushigi Yugi" Transitation.
Itsumo Nando Demo
- "Spirited Away" Transitation.
Eternal Snow
- Another Transitation of a J-Pop song; this one from "FullMoon..."
Myself
- Another Transitation of a "FullMoon O Sagashite" song.
Setsunakutemo...Zutto (Even Though It's Painful...Always)
- Another "Fushigi Yugi" Transitation.
Tangerine Dream
- A Do As Infinity Transitation.
Week
- Another Do As Infinity Transitation.
The Real Folk Blues
- "Cowboy BeBop" Transitation.
Wishing
- An Ayumi Hamasaki J-Pop Transitation.
"PAPER OVERBOAAAARD!" By Bowie Bailey and Kapitan Nemo "Paper Overboard!" the looseleaf cried, as the sheet fell off the side of the ship, that valiantly traveled to the land of Mead(tm) ~whose sad tale is unraveled when once 200 pages, crisp and fine, became a meager 199. ~*Fin*~
�Eternal Snow� Full Moon o Sagashite I know, I am falling in love with you, but what can I do? I won�t tell, so will my heart swell until it bursts for you? I know, I am falling in love but you, you still haven�t heard How can you know how I feel inside, when I haven�t said a word? Like snow, so quietly, these feelings buried in me Pile up, threatening to tumble down on you Hold me tight, if I thought that love would feel like this I�d never want to know these feelings when I first realized that I love you, an avalanche of tears appears, this bitter freeze unlocks and frees a spreading pain through my veins when I think of you I don�t know how much longer your face will stick to my mind Cold eyes stare out from the glass window that fogs up with my sigh And I�ve grown so cold, I touch a candle�s flame Nothing seems able to melt My heart quite like you can Hold Me Tight, strong enough to break down this frozen wall, so that even if a blizzard hits, in our embrace we�d find warmth together, and I miss you, every time my thoughts run to you, your hat and scarf I hold to my heart, so tight it burns with the ice I feel without you... If this lonely world was covered in an eternal snow, Would you reach out your arms to shield me? ...Or would I freeze alone? Hold me tight, if I thought that love would feel like this I�d never want to know these feelings when I first realized that I love you, this feeling wells up inside me, longing to cry to the winter sky Your name, that pains me with shivers when I think of you...
"Scarlet ("Suka-Retto")," Sung by Iwao Junko Haruka na hoshizora ni Yume wa mada miemasu ka? Osanai ano hi yori Azayaka desu ka? Mune ni afurete tsunoru omoi, Nemuri wasurete jounetsu no iro... Tatoe tookute mo kitto tadoritsukeru tsuyoku shinjite'ta... Ano hi no watashi ga ima mo kokoro de nemutte-iru. Dreams are Fragile, and can break easily By destiny--so why do we dream? Sometimes two hearts can turn into love, But other times they do not. Futatsu no yume ga (I don't know what I would do...) Ai ni natte (In a life without you) You are all I need--you are the blood I bleed... Scarlet as the sun above you You know I'll always love you, darling... Until the very day we part! Fate may try to cease our yearning But fire keeps on burning scarlet in My heart...
"Untitled" By Kapitan Nemo Do you ever wonder who listens when you tell your story to the wind? If your heart whispers secrets to ears-- do they ever really hear your words? When you cry, does the "plip, plip, plip" of falling tears alert the senses of anybody? If you wish you were dead, if you begged for a friend, would anyone answer? Would anyone care? And when you think you're ugly, worthless, and stink like the dickens, does the lovely nose of an attentive hanyou... ...beg to differ?
"Myself," Fullmoon o Sagashite Oh please, darling tell me why I love you so much I could die You�re far away, but still you stay a part of myself... Back then, years ago, there was so much on the verge of breaking down So afraid was I, I couldn�t sing a song I can see now where I was, blindly searching for a face to smile tenderly And arms to hold me fast and strong Looking at that face so carefully disguised Loneliness you fought to hide Suddenly I saw myself in your eyes In that moment, I knew Forever I would stand by you Oh please, darling tell me why I love you so much I could die Your voice, it rings, pierces and stings more than anything else The distance that tears us apart takes your face and breaks my heart You�re far away, but still you stay a part of myself Like a little child, lost, alone, and searching through my tears for the warmth of a friend But it is in vain, for eternity's a fairy tale Soon everything has to end "If you've lost your faith, believe in me," you said Whispering so gently Suddenly, I saw myself in your eyes At that moment, I knew Forever I would protect you Oh please, darling tell me why your face lingers on my mind You're out of reach, my heart won't seek the warmth of anyone else I take your pictures from their frames, I try not to say your name But still I can't seem to remove you from myself Oh please, darling tell me why your face lingers on my mind You�re far from me, but you�ll always be a part of myself...
"September Wind" Sung by Iwao Junko English Lyrics by Kapitan Nemo (When the skies bring it back to my heart every time...) Every time the leaves come down Red and Golden on the floor I stop to reminisce on times we shared before And even though the day is cold and gloomy, sky is grey that's okay 'Cos when I think of you It turns my skies to blue And I start...a brand new day Your smile still moves my heart Your voice still fills my mind I see your face, your grace in trees your breeze keeps blowing... September wind
"Inoru you ni Aishite'ru - Prayer of love for you," Fushigi Yugi I think I finally understand Love between one girl and one man, even though We both live in worlds so far apart I believe we share one heart When you are hurting, I hurt too If you are sad, it makes me blue We are one, so let us always stay close Protect what we want the most ***Because it feels like praying Every time you say �I Love You� It�s a force that you can�t see A warming energy Feel like I�m in Paradise When I say �I Love You� I know you feel energy, too I believe in dreams come true In our passion, we both pray To love, now and always*** Each time you smile, I cheer up But I know my words are not enough How can I express all I have to feel for you? There�s nothing I wouldn�t do Because it feels like praying Every time you say �I Love You,� It�s a light that sets me free A loving energy Feel like I�m in Paradise Heaven far above Comes to earth inside your love I believe in dreams come true On our altar, we will make The vow we�ll never break ***Repeat, End***
"Happy" by Kapitan Nemo You're nervous, right before her and she blushes, demure and shy You both are unsure of what to say And I laugh as I walk by You walk together, hand-in-hand and slow down for a while The warmth you two exude is too much not to make me smile Enraptured with each other, I can almost see you fall The look of love that's in your eyes makes me happiest of all And in a tender moment, you tilt her head to yours Her face affects me so, that I get down on all fours And when you kiss her softly, it makes me wonder why; If these are tears of happiness How come I want to die?
"Wishing," by Ayumi Hamasaki I've never tried to count how long it's been since the day we met, so many years ago But after all this time, it seems that I won't ever find enough to follow you wherever you go As daylight gives away to dark of night, I wait for your call, your voice so sweet and clear "Let's meet over there now, by the hill where we used to play," Words you say with a warmth so good to hear Maybe it's because you and I have shared so much, the slightest touch sets my soul at ease A fear that makes me ache, that our bond might break, you don't long for me, can't belong to me, so instead I will be Wishing that I wouldn't feel so helpless without you, I know I need to make myself get a little stronger Wishing you could someday have happiness we never knew, and for your dreams I pray you won't have to wait much longer She is all I cannot be, the only one you see so for your love, for both of you, I am wishing Secrets I've kept so carefully pour out, I open up my heart and sing my song for you You sat down at my side, put your hand in mine as I cried, made me laugh in the way you always do Countless stars, countless memories we see the sky and I remember my reasons why I prayed so much for you, but now I pray for you, It's enough just knowing you, I'm blessed, and I wish her the best Wishing that I wouldn't feel so helpless without you, But I know in time I will be so much stronger Wishing you will someday have all the love I know I knew, and for her, I am sure you won't have to wait much longer We were never meant to be, even though it hurts me So for your love, for both of you, I am wishing.
"Setsunakutemo...Zutto (Even though it's Painful...Always)," Fushigi Yugi Even the setting sun that lights the sky With impassioned flames, alone will die It won't find release, never will its arms reach The Earth it yearns for, every moment burns for Though it's been hiding in the tears in my eyes Sleeping in my heart, I'm still surprised This pained emotion, beats in ceaseless motion The anguish of my love for you I cannot bear to see you look so sad It tears me up, and hurts too bad But since I know that you'll never be mine I'll keep you safe from close behind... I love you so much, it breaks my soul And there are no words that can console For it is a flame you must never see And so, always I hide the real me Strength isn't something one is born into It is what you earn, what becomes of you Courage to reach out, the power to speak out Are signs I can't be strong enough to prove But in its place I'll see the end of days Forever watching over you If there's a shadow of a smile too shy to show I'll make you laugh again, I know I love you so much, it breaks my soul And there are no words that can console me Because, it is a love that can't be returned And if I tell you now, we'd both end up burned Even the setting sun that lights ablaze Must never hold the Earth in its embrace But forever, I will watch over you Even though it's painful...always.
"White Chocolate Rose" Kapitan Nemo...please don't think I'm psycho...it's all an aesthetic metaphor! Fufill my wanting lips with wine Blood, inside the mouth of mine Caress the skin upon my wrist With silver steel in painful bliss Cut me out a paper heart My hateful love, your morbid art Carve into my neck, your hands Gripping, playing on their homeland Fingers, warped, a white chocolate rose Running black upon the snow Winter falling in July The perfect time and place to die Pure white stars fall and surround Two dead lovers on the ground
"Tangerine Dream," Do As Infinity Murmur, Murmur, tired city In sleep, hide from burning life A red light keeps me from my coveted rest A, strange, nameless anxiety The more I run, the less I cover A distance, stretching endlessly Not far ahead lies all my hopes, all my dreams And yet, I run eternally Moments pass you by, they fade and die So grasp them now Don't slow down and cry, you have to fly beyond the clouds ...to reach the tangerine dream Every now and then, it hits me Been clinging far too much to home That fate which threatens to break all I have known Destroy my warm security Moments through it all grow cold and small With each desire Thoughtlessly, we go into the throws Of hungry fire ...Burn the confusion of our pain "How have you been lately?" A familiar voice rings through the air Strains of music slip through cracks in the wall Lost in silver concrete of the past Moments of true bliss, A lover's kiss Wait to be found Tucked inside a cave, an ivory wave of mercy sounds Moments pass you by, they fade and die So grasp them now Believe you and I can touch the sky Beyond the clouds ...We'll reach our tangerine dream
"Predilection," Gravitation During the twenty eighth hour, this endless night will die It starts to close when the window is shut I don't want to undo the fragile time I had, yet for memories, there's no protection I want to leave a scar on you to lock you forever Shutting you inside this diorama As time soared, I screamed and desp'rately tried to lash out --But nothing can halt time's predilection It isn't possible, for breathless and enforced Age is inferior to this love Can�t get enough, it's more than simplicity of words Don't let me down, I want to show you plainly and outright One more night to scar you with my timeless love Tomorrow doesn't mean a thing when I look in your eyes Betrayal was inborn within my heart of darkness Sharpened lips struck out at all others But your presence suffocated my instinctive barbs Quickly defying my predilection There exists no beam from which your magic forms Rescuing each other from this lightless room Can't get enough of this beautiful midnight Don't let me down, because I'm still running to grasp One more night--I'd like to know if there is anyone In this black abyss of night who can escape the truth Can't get enough even with this cumbersome heart Don't let me down because this pain can be wiped away With one more night, the future in your arms is bound To grant the healing elixir of love It starts its completion, the dark of night is lost This eternal night will solely exist in our hearts Can't get enough of this beautiful midnight Don't let me down, because I'm still running to grasp One more night--I'd like to know if there is anyone In this black abyss of night who can escape the truth Can't get enough even with this cumbersome heart Don't let me down because this pain can be wiped away With one more night, the future in your arms is bound To grant the healing elixir of love Can't get enough Don't let me down One more night
"Arg" Pissy Kapitan Nemo Wine soaked rose petals flowing in the breeze, leaving a trail of bloody tears and drowning the world in crimson death... ...black leather on alibaster flesh grips and pulls at flushed skin, skin that remains hidden from the light as the slate-grey clouds forever encompass the sun and sky... ...the earth is a mass of scarlet blood, and ebon destruction.... ...at least, when I'm finished with it. Damn computer that refuses to submit to my will....::grmbl:: ~*Fin*~
"Week!," Do As Infinity The rush of mornings on a Monday, Stuffed in that suit I hate on Tuesday, and Wednesday Copy machine exploded on a Thursday Didn't think that Friday would be so far away And so, I sit still patiently For a break in this monotony ...It's got to come eventually Your sunny day, Carry the day I sing a song to myself Already, I feel so much lighter than before Forget the past, go forth and fast I laugh to myself Sometimes a "Ha, HAA!" Can make it all okay Because this week is life, And I'll take it day by day Never get to see each other on a Weekday And I find myself alone again, without him Saturday Suddenly, I get a call from him on Sunday And another fight, hang up on another bad holiday And so, I cry hysterically Wishing that he'd talk to me ...My eyes will dry eventually Your sunny day, Have a nice day! Take a walk by myself I know that someday I will feel better than I do I will not cry, I won't rely, I refuse to lose Because this week is life And living's what I choose It's just a part of life And living's what I choose I will not cry, I won't rely, I refuse to lose Go do just what you want, it's your life! Forget the past, go forth and fast, And I'll take it day by day It's just one week in life, I'm gonna be okay Your sunny day, Carry the day I sing a song to myself Already, I feel so much lighter than before Forget the past, go forth and fast I laugh to myself Sometimes a "Ha, HAA!" Can make it all okay Because this week is life, And I'll take it day by day
"Unrequited Love" By Kapitan Nemo Would you touch my hand like it was a rose, bloomed soft upon the breath of may? Would you smell my hair as if it had become the silver of cello strings singing softly on a warm midnight of summer? Would you hear my voice and think of that slight whistle the rain makes when its drops swirl about another in the mists of spring? Would you taste my lips and taste the fresh, cool wine of winter upon a sweet bed of pristine snow? Would you see my eyes sparkling and dancing with happiness because they're looking at you? ...but are you really seeing me?
"What's so Wrong with Two Boys In Love?" Dedicated to Ash+Eiji of Banana Fish What makes the old biddies gossip And giggle when they see us pass Is it because we're two cute, young studs? Or that I've got my hand on his ass? What do they care of my gender or his That we're two of the same kind The difference between his is that he's real shy And I'm bold enough to claim him as mine Two firm, young geldings in an open field And not a mare in sight There shouldn't be competition among males, But that doesn't stop our passionate fight When a guy loves a girl, it's no big thing But when he's hot for his man, it's a scandal Why should they care if I don't enter through the front door, And if I yank the forbidden handle? ^_~
"Itsumo Nando Demo," Spirited Away Deep inside my heart, it calls to me, gently through the wind A yearning to dream endlessly in this heaven And although it hurts to wake up without you, I won't cry Your presence in my heart fills the emptiness at my side Throughout time, we have all made our errors And each time, we're more aware that what we have on this small earth is the gift of today So although the road seems sometimes too long Walk through it, and try to be strong, for always, countless times, we have fallen, but we'll find our way "Farewell," the heart cries softly when time to part has come The ears shut out all sounds of comfort when ones we love are gone The springtime flow'r, the summer breeze, the towns in which we live A boundless mystery of the life and death we're given' Lala la la la la lahahaha La la la la lalalala La la lala la la lala la lahahaha ha Hoho ho ho ho ho hohohohoh lu lu lu hohohoho Dudududu du du dudu du dudu dudu... Deep inside my heart, it calls to me, gently through the wind Always, countless times, let us dream in this heaven And although it hurts, I'll smile thinking of each gentle word That same, familiar tune we used to sing together Throughout time, we have all made our errors And each time, we're more aware that what we have on this small earth is the gift of today So although the road seems sometimes too long Walk through it, and try to be strong, for always, countless times, we have fallen, but we'll find our way The dawn breaks, the light shines so soft on the window pane The ears slowly open to the sounds of the morning rain All tomorrows gone from my mind, think only of what's today The love we always search for is inside me to stay That same, familiar tune will remain in my heart always.
Kapitan Nemo--if this doesn't seem to make sense, don't worry! It's not really supposed to... just check the below translation. Navigatore delle stelle, sul mare dei sogni, Bevo il vino della luna Il cielo e` tanto grande, blu mentre l'acqua Sta piovendo--il mondo e` l'inondazione di sonno ...Perche` io sono Kapitan Nemo. Navigator of Stars, on the sea of dreams, I drink the wine of the moon The sky is so big, blue as the waters It's raining--the world is a flood of sleep ...For I am Kapitan Nemo.
"The real folk blues," Cowboy Bebop It's far too late to cry You have faded away And all "I love you's" I quietly sing melt forever Carelessly, the wind blows Reminding me of you Ev'ry image of your hands and your face Cuts through my heart Looking with ice-white eyes In a milky gaze One of them looks out at dreary tomorrow, the other, yesterday Both glaze over with my fruitless longing To be hidden in the warmth of your arms ...just one more time Won't somebody Cry for me Somebody tearless and alive... The real folk blues The real sorrow All I want is to feel it deep inside It's not so bad, a life that floats along on a river muddy with broken pride Into a salty sea ...it's all the same to me Trembling with hopeless hope A sliver of a chance Light diminished by the shadows of doubt, distort and decieve Who knows whose leading whom In this futile dance? What is right or wrong are two sides of one coin on the road Won't somebody Please tell me How long until I find release? The real folk blues The real sorrow All I want is to feel a love inside And in this lonliness I seem to find A strange comfort in the dark, yeah The real folk blues The real sorrow All I want is to feel it deep inside It's not so bad, a life that floats along on a river muddy with broken pride Into a salty sea ...it's all the same to me
Stalking Lynx--a.k.a Ash in the City... Deeper and Deeper than the widest ocean The Sleepless City dances in ceaseless motion A discotheque of buildings with their spiked and gleaming coiffure Smoking, drinking starlight, and still it's not enough Hidden in the city's depths, the lynx is out of sight Found only when he's looked for in the black blanket of night A different world from daytime; of blood, and sex, and booze Where law itself has no meaning, he lives by his own rules This discotheque is but a jungle, in for the lynx to play And in this exotic, sleepless place, the lynx shall seek his prey.