So much tension
So much fighting
Words exchanged in the heat of anger
This isn't what I ever wanted
Just please let me be

I see so many reasons to do what I don't want to
As I wait here for your acceptance
I feel surrounded...
Can't force out what I wanna say...

I'm such a fucking pussy!
I'm making myself break!
I'm such a fucking coward!
I'm killing myself afterward..
But I'll still be hurting...I'll still be angry...
I was happy .. Very briefly ..
But you can't always ignore everything