I'm standing all alone
With no one, by myself.
Delerious mind thinking-
You said I'm like yourself.
I'll think not
No matter what proof you show me
I feel my temperature get hot
As you start about how you know me.
Before you get into detail
There's something you should know
Let me tell you a little tale
About a little boy I know.
He's insecure and amazingly fake
And he's quiet and self-contained.
He's kept to himself for most of his life
Yet, he's surprisingly well-maintained.
To most who have met him
He's a normal teenage boy.
But, for those who haven't had the pleasure
He's easy to annoy.
He stuffs his anger deep inside
So no one will ever know
What he dreads that's deep inside of him
And what he wishes he could outgrow.
He has some "little" secrets
He wants to keep untold.
He wants to keep them far from spoken
For they're violent, dark and cold.
Hidden is a must for him
When it comes to these.
He just assume forget them
Along with all his worries.

If only it was that easy ...

But, there is baggage that comes with it all.
And it's what he really hates.
He wishes he could build a wall
Around his pain's estate.
And lock it up, nice and tight
And simply throw it away.
He'd never see it ever again
If only there was a way.
Will anyone ever understand
This mysterious thing that's destroying me?
Could I ever take it out of command
Make it surrender- Make it "me"!?"
Tie it up, throw it in quicksand.
Sink! I want to end this ordeal!
Ah, I can finally walk after years of crawling.
And I can finally live after years of nothing.

He will always dream
Of being clean and free.
Will this ever happen?
We'll just have to wait and see.
Someday, he may be rid of this curse.
But, perhaps it could get worse?
I hope it won't, for "he" is me.
If I was to worsen, I'd become so lonely.
More than I am now.
More than you can imagine.
You should take your lonely..
And times it by a million.
You're getting warmer.
But, you're still too cold.
Now increase your anger
To the point where you've lost control.
To the point where you have no say,
Once your temper's lost.
When you can't even fake being "okay"
At a terrible, terrible cost.
A price even I never imagined.
A price that seems too high.
A price that was destined
To make everyone say good-bye.
Good-bye to me forever
Because I was forced to take advantage
Of people that are better
In every single way.
People that are friendlier
And always wear a smile.
People that continue to like me
Even though I lied and stole.
But, stealing isn't the only thing
I wish I wouldn't do.
I wish I'd stop hurting
People that love me, such as you.
No names will be mentioned
You know who you are.
But, the knot between us has loosened..
Due to tugging from afar.
So, we must stop straining the rope
That binds us as one.
It's strength thus far fills me with hope
But, hope only lasts for so long.

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