My brain is sore
Too still
Too hurt
Too alone
No more..
For you I pretend
For you I do

Why do I hide?
Why can't I try?
I stay inside
And live my lie
I lay in bed
Curled up for warmth
I still stay cold
I still shake
I'm still fake

Grieving not leaving
Growing harder everyday
Defeated - Admiting
I have no strength
And no say

I feel as if I'm weightless
I feel as if there's no gravity
I feel too relaxed
I know that's not how it seems
I wish I could beat this
I don't want to beg
I wish I could defeat this
All this anxiety..

Anxious, more anxious
Crying, still trying
Anxious, still anxious
Trying, more crying

I'll beg and I'll beg
I'd give my arms and a leg
To get what I need
To help ignore my greed

Anxious, more anxious
Crying, still trying
Anxious, still anxious
Trying, more crying

I wish I could beat this
I don't want to beg
I wish I could defeat this
All this anxiety..

Don't be alone?
Grown over-worn
Can't beat my disease
Feel uncertain
Apprehension
Too uncertain..
Close the curtain..
We're done.