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Tuesday, March 26, 2002

What a day! or two! shoot, I had thought of something to say, but now I forget. Well, I'll remember it sometime. monday went alright, I found out that I got an 80% on my latest history test. so me very smug right now. I think that I've deserved to be smug right now. I handed in my essay, for my english teacher to look over, and I got it back today, and he was very pleased with it. and I had no homework last night, I sewed some pj pants. I've been praticing a lot of flute lately. ON Sunday, it was at next, yesterday it was at school, and today at Donelda, and tomorrow it's school again, and then I play on Good Friday. I was trying to write another From the Kore on Sunday, but that's hard to do when I have both Hikura_ and Veira_666 over. I like having them over, but I also like to write. It probaly won't get up until after Easter. speaking of writing, Rainjewel emailed me again. She updated her stories, go check them out, on FanFiction.net. They're angst, but good. ahhhh, life in the hyper zone. There's my brother's cat in my lap right now, purring away like crazy. SHE SO CUTE!!! I was researching the Jewish festival of Purim, I get to do the poster, for World Religion. Found some very interesting sites. Mom's now waiting for me to finish up so that we can go to the gym. It's snowing again! Mom wants to move to the tropic when I get out of high school. I might be taking an extra year, so that my brain has more time to grow. if you want to know, go look up stuff on the teenage brain. I ain't going to explain 'cause I don't know too much. Other than TEENAGERS NEED NINE AND A HALF HOURS OF SLEEP!!! THEREFORE SCHOOL SHOULD START LATER SO THAT WE CAN GET SOME MORE SLEEP!!! now that I've got that out, walking in the snow, in a kilt, sucks. I stopped in to Lisa's to drop off a book (Harry Potter, yes, I read Harry Potter, please don't diss it to my face). oh, Mom says that I might be able to go to AnimeNorth as my birthday party, with only like, two ppl, Hikura_ and Veira_666, and my brother gets to drive. I SOOOOOOO WANT TO GO!! Haunt You Later.

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Sunday, March 24, 2002

All righty then!! My paper is going along nicely, thank you very much! And my message board is, if you noticed, working again. And I went to NeXt with Hikura_ and Veira_666 was there, so we went to lunch afterwards. Then we hung out at my place, until I had to go practice 'cause I'm playing on Good Friday. **groans** Easter Monday is the Day of Sorrow, cause it's the day that my Grandpa died. It'll be four years. soo sadneing!! and I finally looked up 'sadist'. didn't really knew what it meant b4. yeah, Last night, I went to see The Time Machine with Hikura_ and the Flying Squrriel (me can't spell) and some guy named Sam. I think it was Sam, my memory is burned 'cause of the essay I've been writing. A thousand and eighty-seven words! I'm better than my brother at writing these things. thrusday was parent teachers, so of course I went along! It's fun! my English teacher is going to help me out, and so is my comm tech photograpghy teacher. My history teacher knows my brother, and he thinks I'm doing fine. yeah, practice went fine. I think I'm coming down with something, yesterday I wasn't feeling too well, and today I have this awful cough. And sorry Veira_666, I tried to scan in those pics of your, but they didn't turn out. well, some ppl on MSN is telling me to check my email, so I'm going to do that right now! Haunt You Later.

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Tuesday, March 19, 2002

Back to school, again. How depressing. I woke up at Five (don't ask me why) and it was snowing. and I was thinking that i'll be able to pull out my bike! yucky! it was pretty, I have to admit. But March is coming to an end. I just think it's funny, we get back from March Break, and in two weeks, it's Easter. Then I get to go on a Band trip to Boston. funfunfun! eh? I got paid twenty bucks last week. very sweet. and I put it in the bank today. I also had a history test that I didn't bother to tell my parents about. I think I did okay. well, Donelda cancelled my Flute lesson this week. must not be feeling well or something. and after all of my work! really! and mom has her book club over tonight. WAHHH! I want some pop! I'm hungery, as usual. my brother has been sending in his papers again, so I haven't been able to surf around. My poor Neopets! and yesterday we got a drinking and driving talk by a really cool guy. I think his name was Matt Evans. Something like that. Now, we jsut got more of Loren's papers, SO I g2g. Haunt You Later.

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Sunday, March 17, 2002

YAHH! I'm back! BOO WHOOO! March Break os almost over! WAHHHHHHH!! well, my dad totally freaked out Hikura_. my parents are after me about my beliefs and stuff like that. they think that Anne Rice and Mercedes Lackey books are satanic, or something. I think that it's all in how you interpretate the meanings. geesh, I can't even watch any Anime in my house! what a bummer! I went to Veira_666's for the afternoon today. Well, we went around to those second hand video stores. She got some anime tapes using her birthday money. we watched them at her house. It's really funny 'cause it's all in Japanese, with no subtitles, so we're guessing at what's going on. I'm wondering how non-subtitled anime got to Canada. maybe somebody from Japan needed some extra cash, so they sold them. so, now I'm at home. I must be somewhat allergic to Veira_666's new body spray, cause I'm not feeling the greatest. and I still need to study for a history test, and write an essay. SHOOT!!! and not to mention flute, I got my grade four exam this year. and then there's the band trip. I'm think that there's a good possiblity that I'll be able to go to AnimeNorth convention this year. I sooooo wanna see Scott Mcneil. **sighs dreamily** **then snaps out of it** My mom wants me to paint some watercolor for the bathroom, 'cause we're re-decorating it. well, g2g. Haunt You Later.

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Thuesday, March 14, 2002

Hahahah! I'm betting that all of you thought that I had made a mistake with the peom I have up. NOPE!! I put it up twice on purpose!! heheheh. yeah, I'm happy again. Yesterday was the surprise party that Hikura_ and I had that fight over, for Veira_666. It was her Birthday. And the day before was Hikura_'s dad's birthday. We were very upset that most of the ppl that we invited didn't show up. We think that it was cruel and very rude of them. But it left more food for us. Me especially. I had a wonderfully busy time pulling off a few erands b4 the party, and then Veira_666 was a bit sick, but she got better and we were able to have the party. It wasn't as big as we had planned it to be, since people didn't show up and we had to start it late. But now Hikura_ slept over at Veira_666's, and I got one of the books I'd holded from the library. so everything's all right. Haunt You Later.

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Tuesday, March 12, 2002

**extremely happy** YAHHHHHHH!! Hikura_ TALKED TO ME!! AND IT"S OVER!!! my feel like me drunk on happiness! and rainjewel FINALLY emailed me! and I went to Chapters last night, and I read a lot. and I came home and went to bed, and had a REALLY interesting dream. I was this misfit girl, who everybody didn't really like and my sister blamed stuff on me. and we moved to a new city and I went to a new school and nobody wanted to be my friend. and it got sooo terrible, that I ran away. There were cops out looking for me, and I hide with the garbage man, and he took me away. we came to a water park and I snuke inside with a friend a knew. And she thought it was SOOOOO clever, and she made such a big deal out of it that I got caught. And they wanted to know why I ran away and I screammed at them that nobody asked for my side of the story, that everyone beleived in my sister, even when she was lying. and that's it... Weird, huh? yeah, i thought so too.

True Love
I know what I should,
and should not do.
But I am only human too.
I make mistakes,
I am afraid,
of the ending of the day.
We all are special,
we all have wants.
We all can laugh,
we all can feel and cry,
we all can hurt
and die.
We hurt each other,
and we'll do it again.
But if our love is true,
it will never end.
Poem by Neko Baka
Haunt You Later.

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Monday, March 11, 2002

**extremely sad** have any of you read Hikura_'s latest blog? she sounds SOOOO depressed! about as bad as me. And now that I've calmed down about this, I'm thinking about the fight more clearly. It seems to me that Hikura_ was upset before I called to go on Saturday. I read that she lied to me about trying to cut her wrists. I think that I was like salt on the wound(ouch). I think that we both got very upset and said some nasty things about each other, with out really thinking. I want to put that behind us. We are soooooooo much better to fall for that, and have a sooo much stronger relationship, even if we've only known each other for a year now. If we work together REALLY hard, Hikura_ my love, we can still be the best of friends. PLEASE!! TALK TO ME!!!!

True Love
I know what I should,
and should not do.
But I am only human too.
I make mistakes,
I am afraid,
of the ending of the day.
We all are special,
we all have wants.
We all can laugh,
we all can feel and cry,
we all can hurt
and die.
We hurt each other,
and we'll do it again.
But if our love is true,
it will never end.
Poem by Neko Baka
Haunt You Later.

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Sunday, March 10, 2002

**crying** that really hurt, Hikura_. I called you, you answered, and you knew it was me. And you passed the phone to Filia. And I read your blog. I don't have all March Break, I don't! I have to go to Flute, and I have chores to do so that I have money for a REALLY expensive book and for the band trip. My Grammother is over, I want to sleep in, and catch up visiting with ALL my friends. and I have an english essay to do. and I don't have any ideas for your project. I' sorry, Hikura_, I really am. I know that you're upset, and that hurts me twice! and I know Sam has cancer, and I'm upset over that too. You really love Sam. and I love Sam because you do (even though I've never met him). you have many friends, and so do I. Is it really all that bad when I decide that I want to go see a movie with another friend. Hikura_, none of my other friends have that kind of problem. and I said that I'll TRY to help with the project. Face it, I don't have much to contribute. and when I say Sorry, I mean it. I'm not like other people, I didn't abandon you. I'm an inverter, I have to have time outs. I told you before hand that Togipi asked me to the movie, and I called you before I left. and I tried calling NOW you, and you wouldn't talk to me. now who's being unfair? and why am I, the 16-year-old, the one who's trying to say sorry to the 18-year-old? I love you very much, Hikura_. And I think that you're the one who's blowing me away because I tried to talk. Haunt You Later.

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Sunday, March 10, 2002

I'm still feeling depressed. I feel really hollow inside, like all the laughter is gone. I went to PV-chan's last night after a walk in the rain. She cheered me up a bit. but not enough,I fear. I think that I might never really feel happy again. Like all the pain that has been stuffed and squashed inside has eaten up all my interest in life. I really don't have a lot of money. I need to have that money, and I've been working very hard to get my money, and I'm trying to break my bad habit of spending all my money, and I want to go shopping in Boston on the Band Trip, and I NEED that Money!! and Hikura_ said some not nice stuff and it's making me angery and sad and I feel like going away and never coming back, and saying GOOD BYE CRUEL WORLD!!!! I couldn't F*cking help with the stupid party which is all Hikura_'s idea, so she's F*cking B*tching at me!!! And she says that she F*cking knows me better that F*cking anyone, so she should F*cking know that I didn't have any F*cking ideas for HER F*cking project!!! YES, NEKO BAKA IS SWEARING!!! YES! I AM UPSET! ZIKA, NEKO, AND KORI ARE THE F*cking SAME!!! AND I'M LETTING LOOSE ALL THE F*CKING PAIN THAT HAS BEEN BUILDING ALL MY F*CKING LIFE!!!! sometimes, I'm so upset that I think that I'd kill somebody. I'm not the carefree little IDIOT i make myself out to be. It is said that during the teen years, people change very quickly and rapidly, and interests change many times. I hope that I've given you something to think about with these last two days, Hikura_. YOU AREN"T THE ONLY ONE HURTING HERE. look at what you've done. Haunt You Later.

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Saturday, March 9, 2002

I'm feeling really sad. I went to see The Lord of the Rings with Togipi, and had to miss doing something with Hikura_, and now I think that Hikura_ doesn't like me anymore. And that hurts a lot. I don't feel like doing anything anymore, i feel like my heart has been shattered into a million pieces. If I showed how much I was hurting by physical means, I would probably be in the hospital somewhere, getting treatment for attemptive suicide. And dispite all this, I still luv Hikura_. YOU HEAR ME HIKURA_?!!!!!!!! EVEN IF YOU HATE MY GUTS, I STILL LOVE YOU!!! i know that sounds lesbian-ish, I mean love as in friendship love, okay all you grossed out ppl? I just hope that I won't do something too drastic. My Gram is over, so I can't go to Youth group to night. I also don't want everybody there asking me whats wrong, cause I can't seem to smile anymore. Its warm and cloudy out, and very windy. I think that it's going to rain. It kind of matches my feelings right now. To walk in the rain would be nice. Haunt You Later.

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Friday, March 8, 2002

YIPEEEE! School's out for the March Break! Terrific and wonderfull! Surely you all have noticed that I updated! Isn't it CUTE?!!! I completely LOVE it! I got my layout page up as well. and i'm still waiting for my books from library. a waiting me isn't a really happy me. Found some really cool stuff on here. I wanna see whether I can get a link up. ummmm, yeah...Moving right along... Hikura_ came after school to see me and it made me really happy. I couldn't stay too long at her place cause my big brother got all depressed and wanted to talk to me. so yeah! nothing much happenin' . I plan to go and see Lord of the Rings again, with Togipi. and I need to be going cause soon we got to go shopping for a new lamp shade b4 my Gram comes over tomorrow. Hikura_ was going to led me a pair of overalls (i LOVE overalls), but mom said no. So I'm still wearing my uniform kilt, just without my bike pants underneath. (come on! Like we're going to wear those things without something underneath! REALLY! especially with how short some of those girls wear them **shudder**) Haunt You Later!

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Tuesday, March 5, 2002

hello and how are you all doing! I've been having a terrific day! First, I had to sit through a complete waste of time! The World Youth Day Cross came to our school. So we got to get out of class! JUST to TOUCH the thing! I kind of slipped out. Who knows what kind of germs are on that thing! I walked home with Togipi-Chan. It was snowing. It finally looks like spring, and it HAS to SNOW!!! of all the rotten luck! (we're hoping for a snow day, I'd probably have to go to school, but you know, it's the thought that counts.) togipi's mom gave me a ride home, so I got to read some of my mail. funfunfun! And my hair is actually growing longer! WHEEEE! anyways, I had to drive to flute. the roads were very slippery, and i tried to slow down, but I started surving, and hit the side of the road. Luckily, there wasn't anyone coming my way. It made me actually drive the speed limit. flute was nice. the book that I wanted at the library isn't there yet, so I'm a little bored. boredboredbored. Haunt You Later!

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Monday, March 4, 2002

WELL! I got my history test back from my teacher. 87%. with a gold star. I'm looking very smug and was smiling all day, and laughing at other people. hey! I think that I deserve it! We got our early report card thingies. So far, I'm doing good! and I'm not really trying! in some areas. okay, I'm trying, but it's not as hard as last smeister! I don't have to go through HELL anymore! i'm sooooo happy! I think that I could overlook the fact that the library book i have on hold hasn't come yet. any day now...**rubs hands eagerly** hehehehehhe! and my friends have been telling me to update my links. gee, Hikura_ seems to get a new site every month! but I did manage to write a tonne of Dimension Hopper, my very large crossover fanfic that includes almost everything I read and watch. It's going to be a blast! Oh! The adventures of the Blue Eyed Albino, digital Zika_Silver1, the Dark Angel of Insanity! I wanted to torch my house the other day. I was lacking sleep and emotional control, so was my mom. I broke a plant. Anyways, moving right along...Kevin forgot to lend me BLADE, so I had to rent it for me and PV-chan to watch. somehow, the reason on why we were watching it got lost when we started to view DBZ clips on the computer. pretty cool though! been reading some great stuff on FanFiction.net. Especially by Rainjewel. I g2g. Haunt YOu LAter!

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Hello there! I'm Neko Baka and just because my name has baka in it doesn't mean I am one. The most famouse quote by me is "I'm not stupid I just ACT stupid"... As you can see I'm a Canadian girl who LUV's Anime! and has crushes on several different characters. Most my friends think I'm crazy which is kind of good because I want to be a writer. But first I want to go to China and study there. Most of my hobbies incude writing(of course), art, and reading.

Favorites
MUSIC: Folk, Rock, Classical/
BAND: The Tea Party, Azsa, Enya, Wimme, Enigma, Tomita/
SONG: Walking Wounded, the gravity of love and Castles in the Sky!/
MOVIE: Titan A.E., Star Wars, The Emperor's new Groove, The Lord of The Rings, Queen of the Damned, and basically any GODZILLA movie that I can get my hands on :)/
SHOW: Angel/
ANIME: DBZ, Slayers, Escaflowne, Gundam Wing, Cardcaptors/
COMIC: Elfquest, DB/
ANIMAL: Big Cats, uh do mythical creatures count?/
THING TO DO: watch movies with my best friends, Hikura_ and Lisa(,etc), reading, swimming, eating, Biking, writing, updating sites, swinging, surfing the net and just plain being silly!!/
FOOD: SUGAR!!!/