DARKEST DAYS
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"DARKEST DAYS"
There are times
When I'm just a shell
When I do not feel anything for anyone
All I feel is hollow and bruised
Used up and mis-used
Forced to be someone I don't want to be
Have I failed somehow or some way
Will the weight of today finally pull me down to drown
In the depths of despair
Where I am alone
Except for my rage?
My rage, my pain
I hate my darkest days
My rage, my pain
I hate my darkest days
My rage, my pain
I hate my darkest days
My rage, my pain
I hate my darkest days
My darkest days
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"Everything I touch"
The more I feel
The more I die
Nothing to give
Nothing inside
Everything I touch I break
Everything I touch I break
Everything I touch I break
I wanna break you down
I scratch and tear
Until it bleeds
I do not want
I only need
I only need
I only need
Everything I touch I break
Everything I touch I break
Everything I touch I break
I wanna break you down
I wanna touch you
Everything I touch I break
I wanna touch you
Everything I touch I break
I wanna touch you
Everything I touch I break
I wanna break you down
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"How Can I Hold On"
Back when you were my life
You gave me something that I could live for
Now everything's changed
And you're gone but I'm still here waiting
How can I hold on
With nothing to hold on to
Why should I hold on
When there's nothing to hold on to
Sex made me feel alive
But now I'm so bored with mindless passion
Drugs offered somewhere to hide
But they left me feeling cold and empty
How can I hold on
With nothing to hold on to
Why should I hold on
When there's nothing to hold on to
I thought you were my friend
That you were someone that I could turn to
Now I realize
That you were a friend when you needed something
How can I hold on
With nothing to hold on to
Why should I hold on
When there's nothing to hold on to
How can I hold on
With nothing to hold on to
Why should I hold on
When there's nothing to hold on to
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"Drugstore"
You seduced me lonely in your hell
Naked, hungry, I crawl into your cell
A virtual drugstore is piled on your bed
I can't resist with your tongue inside my head
How can everything be justified by you?
How can everyhting be justified by you?
You get off on watching me bleed
You get off on feeding my disease
But this time will be perfect you explain
But your tongue is deadly as a needle in my vein
How can everything be justified by you?
How can my demise be justified by you?
I'm so tired of living for your touch
I'm so tired of needing you so much
How can everything be justified by you?
How can everything be justified by you?
How can everything be justified by you?
How canmy demise be justified by you?
When did I decide to be crucified by you?
How can everything be justified by you?
By you?
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"You Complete Me"
I am lost in the darkness
Between two worlds, and here I'm struggling
You're the light that I've been seeking
'Cause my whole life there's been something missing
Only you can make me whole
Just one touch, you complete me
Only you can make me whole
Just one touch, you complete me
Rescue me from this black hole
That's sucked me in and left me dying
You're the truth that I've been seeking
'Cause my whole life I've been lying
Only you can make me whole
Just one touch, you complete me
Only you can make me whole
Just one touch, you complete me
God I pray, you find me worthy
Of the right to stand beside you
And of your truth and of your passion
And of the right to sleep beside you
Only you can make me whole
Just one touch, you complete me
Only you can make me whole
Just one touch, you complete me
Just one touch, you complete me
Just one touch, you complete me
Just one touch...
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"Save Yourself"
I know your life is empty and you hate to face this world alone
So you're searching for an angel, someone who can make you whole
I cannot save you, I can't even save myself
So just save yourself
I know that you've been damamged, your soul has suffered such abuse
But I am not your savior, I am just fucked as you
I cannot save you, I can't even save myself
So just save yourself
Please don't take pity on me
Please don't take pity on me
Please don't take pity on me
Please don't take pity on me
My life has been a nightmare, my soul is fractured to the bone
So if I must be lonely, I think I'd rather be alone
You cannot save me, you can't even save yourself
I cannot save you, I can't even save myself
Save yourself
So just save yourself
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"Haunting Me"
Everywhere I go I see your face
And every sound I hear is the sound of your voice
Why are you haunting me?
Why are you haunting me why can't I let you go?
Why are you haunting me?
Why are you haunting me?
Why are you haunting me?
Why are you haunting me?
Everything about me is a lie
At least it seems that way when I look in your eyes now
The truth scares the shit out of me
Whoever said love is real and love is blood has never felt the way that I feel
What does it matter?
What's done is done and I should get on with my life
Why are you haunting me?
Why are you haunting me?
Why are you haunting me?
Why are you haunting me?
I don't know what it is
But I can't seem to make myself forget
Was it something that you said?
Or is it all the guilt inside my head?
Why are you haunting me?
Why are you haunting me?
Why are you haunting me?
Why are you haunting me?
Why are you haunting me?
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"Torn Apart"
I know I should have told you
I was so afraid you'd leave
And now there's nothing left to say
Well nothing that you'd believe
I never meant to hurt you
With the things I couldn't say
I promised you tomorrow
While denying you today
These lies have torn my world apart
These lies have torn my world apart
These lies have torn my world apart
A darkness grows inside me
In fading shades of gray
All the colors of the world
Are slowly sucked away
And I'm sinking ever deeper
To a place that's cold and black
I can't believe I've lost you
And you're never coming back
These lies have torn my world apart
These lies have torn my world apart
These lies have torn my world apart
Torn my world apart
Soon the night will take me
And save me from my pain
Cloak me in cold darkness
And help me lose your name
These lies have torn my world apart
These lies have torn my world apart
These lies have torn my world apart
Torn my world apart
Torn my world apart
Torn my world apart
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"Sometimes It Hurts"
Six o'clock in the morning
My head is ready to explode
I can't believe I made it home alive
I don't remember where I went
Or what I was drinking
I know it made me sick
And I'm not denying
That I get this way when I try to get over you
I get this way when I try to get over you
Sometimes it hurts so much to lose the one you love
Sometimes it hurts so much to lose the one you love
I tried so hard to hate you
But it only makes things worse
I only end up hating myself
And as my hatred grows
So do the lies
It's hard to face the truth sometimes
God I feel so useless
God I hate myself when I try to get over you
I hate myself, how will I ever get over you?
Sometimes it hurts so much to lose the one you love
Sometimes it hurts so much to lose the one you love
And after all this time you'd think I'd understand the way you feel
But no
I only think about myself
And it's driving you away
I always knew it would one day
Sometimes it hurts so much to lose the one you love
Sometimes it hurts so much to lose the one you love
Sometimes it hurts so much to lose the one you love
Sometimes it hurts so much to lose the one you love
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"Drowning"
I'm drowning in nothing
Nothing real
Nothing left...nothing
I'm losing myself
Sinking deeper down
Silently
Leaving this behind
Nothing left but me
I'm hating myself
Hating
Everyone hates me now
Everyone has changed
Everything has changed
Everyone has changed, but me
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"Desperate Now"
I keep breaking all the promises
That I keep making to myself
You'd think by now that I'd be over this
Instead I'm feeling sorry for myself
So why does everything seem desperate now?
I should be feeling so alive
But it feels like something's missing
Something's wrong somehow
It feels like something deep inside has died
So why do I feel desperate now?
Why do I feel like dying
Why do I feel desperate now?
Why do I feel desperate now?
I keep breaking all the promises
That I keep making to myself
But the promises mean nothing to me anymore
Circling the drain
Spiraling to hell
So why do I feel desperate now?
Why do I feel like dying
Why do I feel desperate now?
Why do I feel desperate now?
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"Goodbye"
So this is where I say goodbye
This is where my story ends
And if there's one thing that I've learned from life
It's that it gets you in the end
So goodbye my friend
Goodbye
Goodbye my friend
Goodbye
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"When I'm Dead"
I know the tears you're crying in your bed at night alone
I've cried those tears a thousand times
But those shallow empty songs about suicide are patronizing
You've got to learn to face your fears
Or do you think I'll be less lonely when I'm dead?
It can't silence all the voices in my head
I close my eyes but I can't make it go away
Do you think I'll be less lonely
God I pray that I'm less lonely
When I'm dead
When I'm dead
When I'm dead
When I'm dead
When I'm dead I won't feel any pain
'Cause when I'm dead I won't feel anything
When I'm dead
When I'm dead
When I'm dead
When I'm dead
I know the songs you're singing saying nothing loud and clear
I've heard that song a thousand times
But your shallow empty lies about suicide are patronizing
You can never understand what I feel
Or do you think I'll be less lonely when I'm dead?
It can't silence all the voices in my head
I close my eyes but I can't make it go away
Do you think I'll be less lonely
God I pray that I'm less lonely
When I'm dead
When I'm dead
When I'm dead
When I'm dead
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"The Thing I Hate"
Lost in a world of doubt and insecurity
Nothing that you hold sacred, nothing you believe
Life is a contradiction
While you thrive on manipulation
I fight to just hold on to what I believe
I won't become the thing I hate
I won't become the thing I hate
I won't become the thing I hate
I won't become you
You've treated me like I'm a worthless piece of shit
You think you're in control but you make me sick
I want to watch you suffer
The way that you've made me suffer
I want to fuck up everything you've ever loved
I won't become the thing I hate
I won't become the thing I hate
I won't become the thing I hate
I won't become you
I won't become the thing I hate
I won't become the thing I hate
I won't become the thing I hate
I won't become the thing I hate
I won't become the thing I hate
I won't become you
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"On Your Way Down"
I hope I see you on your way down
I hope you break every bone
I hope it kills you on your way down
And I hope you die alone
All of your hate and all of your lies
Will it be worth it?
When all of your friends refuse to be alibis
Will it be worth it?
I'll see you on your way down
I'll see you on your way down
I'll see you on your way down
It's kinda sad to watch you break down
You greedy fuck you pissed it all away
So who will catch you on your way down
You've only got yourself to blame
When all your worst fears materialize
Will it be worth it?
There's nobody left who cares you're alive
Was it worth it?
I'll see you on your way down
I'll see you on your way down
I'll see you on your way down
I'll see you on your way down
I'll see you on your way down
I'll see you on your way down
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"Waking Up Beside You"
I've been so alone for so long
Forgotten by the world, forgotten to myself
Your effervescent eyes have awakened me
And brushed the dust away
But I knew you'd never stay
So I memorized the color of your eyes
As I lost myself inside you
And I memorized the way our legs entwined
As I drifted off beside you
I miss, God I miss waking up beside you
At night I cling to you, I'm so afraid
Afraid the day will come
And I'll wake and find you gone
But you promise that you'd not abandon me
And then kissed my fears away
But I woke up to that day
But I had memorized the way our eyes would meet
Reflected in the bathroom mirror
And I memorized your naked silhouette
As you slowly brushed your hair
I miss, God I miss waking up beside you
I've been alone for so long
I forgot how much it hurts to wake up so alone
But I'd memorized how warm your body felt
As you lay half asleep beside me
And I memorized the way the sunlight filled the room
And played upon your body
I miss, God I miss waking up beside you
I miss, God I miss waking up beside you
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