Self Discovery Grave Digging

Maybe I'm just using this excuse to reinvent
These missing pieces that had become Oblivious
I've just been running
From these Mental Contradictions with reality
That has preceded every action within
I'm scared
But I still have to dig

I've been digging in all the wrong places
And the fear of this evident failure
Is what's keeping me here
Though I'm just telling myself lies
I'm just god damn scared
Of what I'll find

I know that this self realization
Can not stop with simple words or simple time
But I'm hating it all
Every time I arrive in this hole
Though this bleeding pain is it's only product

Please don't try to save my mind
Just sit and smile
Till I say I'll be fine
That's the best thing you can ever do
Just be there for me
Cause I know it's going to be a while