"Losing"

Am I always chasing you
In and out of
Yourself inflicted sanity
Beating me back and forth
Leaving me Black and Red
From the Blood Slowly creeping
Along these flesh wounded eyes
How I'm longing to come closer
To a sense of serenity
Between souls lost
And knowledge gained
Of us and this mental contradiction
We always find ourselves in
Blind, Lost, Or Drowning?
Which is it?
You shaded views
Confused and disturb me