"Oh my God" Peppa said later on that day when she helped Samantha pack her bags.
Samantha already ordered her to get her a flying ticket to Ireland on a plane that's leaving ASAP.
"I can't believe you actually did that!" Peppa said. "I'm so proud of you!"
"Why thank you. I'm proud of me, too" Samantha laughed.
"So what are you going to do now?" Peppa asked.
"Go find Kian�beg him to take me back" Samantha said biting her lower lip.
"And what if he won't have you back?" Peppa asked.
"I don't know�I'll seriously think of shooting myself"
"Don't say that!" Peppa said panicking.
"Why not? My life is nothing without him�"
"God�" Peppa said sighing. "I really hope it goes well for you"
"Me too�Well I'm all packed, wish me luck" Samantha said as she took her bags and walked to the door.
"Good luck sweetie! And send me a postcard with a picture of the Big Ben, ok?"
"Peppa, that's London"
"Oh�ok, never mind that, send me a postcard with the Eiffel Tower!"
"Peppa, that's Paris"
"Oh�so what is there in Ireland?" Peppa asked.
"I have no idea, never been there�but I'll let you know, bye darling!" Samantha said as she went out of the suite and closed the door after her.
"Oi�it's gonna get lonely without her now�heck, it'll be actually boring!" Peppa said, shaking her head.
Samantha was sitting there on the plane to Ireland. She thought about Kian and she started crying. She wasn't even aware of the fact she was crying, but she was.
She closed her eyes and tried to imagine the last time she saw him.
"All packed up and ready to go" Bryan said, holding Molly's hand as they were walking out of the hotel and into the van that came to pick them up to the airport.
Kian was standing next to the van, staring at the hotel. He tried to figure out why God has put him in this situation. What did he do wrong to deserve all this.
"Kian�can we talk?" Samantha said as she walked out of the hotel and stood next to him.
"No�" Kian said. He went into the van.
"Kian please�"
"No! I don't want to talk to you�leave me alone. Go be with TimberFuck" Kian said, slamming the van door shut.
The van then drove off and Samantha was left standing there looking at it climb up the hill the hotel was next to, and disappears as the van went down on the other side of that hill, it was San Francisco, after all.
Samantha opened her eyes. She then noticed she was crying and she wiped the tears away. She took out a pen and her personal diary. She didn't write much in it. Just some thought she had, some things she couldn't share with anyone else and just had to tell someone. Or something.
She started writing. She didn't even notice it at first, but she was writing a song.
Now I know I can handle this
I'll close my mouth and clench my fist
I've lived this day in a thousand ways
But there's a flaw to add to my list
Go on, squeeze a little more
Cos if you scream I'll just ignore you
But I've rehearsed this scene in a million dreams
You're getting closer to my core
I'm so damn frustrated
Losing breath and now I'm shaking
Gotta keep my self from breaking down
Someone get me out
Tears, don't you fall, eyes, don't you cry
Need to get round this corner
I can't break down, break down
Pride, don't cave in, head, don't let go
While I'm open that you can read me
I can't break down, break down
Break down, break down
Blocked it out for long enough
Got really good at playing rough now
I've been prepared and not really cared
But being brave is getting tough
Chin, don't start to quiver
Hands, now don't you shiver
Gotta keep myself from breaking down
Someone get me out
Someone let me out
Tears, don't you fall, eyes, don't you cry
Need to get round this corner
I can't break down, break down
Pride, don't cave in, head, don't let go
While I'm open that you can read me
I can't break down, break down
Break down, break down
You smile like a cat who's got the cream
I'm vulnerable and I know you see me
There's so much I wanna say
But this lump in my throat makes me walk away
Away, away, away
Tears, don't you fall
Eyes, don't you cry
Pride, don't cave in
Head, don't let go
Tears, don't you fall, eyes, don't you cry
Need to get round this corner
I can't break down, break down
Pride, don't cave in, head, don't let go
While I'm open that you can read me
I can't break down, break down
Break down, break down
She re-read the song she just wrote. It was the first song she ever wrote. Famous songwriters wrote all her songs. "I can't break down" she whispered. "Not now�not yet�"