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There
was nothing except the punching bag, the soft sound of ribbed
leather as the gloves connected with its surface, the motions it
made as the chain revolved overhead. He would have beaten it
until blood flowed, had it eased the frustration flowing through
his veins. His fist landed in the center, jolting the bag away
from him, sending it crashing back toward him in a ferocious
movement of defense. It seemed to be alive, the accumulation of
every threat he faced.
It
had not been unexpected.
Lex
knew that Lionel had been biding his time, waiting the moment to
strike, granting him assurance in the presence of civility. His
father was a coiled cobra, an opportunist with long-term
investments. Throughout the years they had battled on a superior
plain, not with fists or words, but the sheer genius of
imagination. Every foot placed forward, every signature on a
document, was warfare, their constant struggle against one
another in an eternal search for domination. It was in his
genes, this quest for power. It fueled his every instinct,
repressed by no man and second to none. Lionel felt threatened,
unable to contend with the reality that his son was infinitely
more gifted than he. Beneath the humble fa�ade of self-pleasure
in his achievements of raising such a child lie dormant a
rivalry unsurpassed, waiting its moment of awakening. Lionel had
warned him that he could trust no one, that he was a Luthor, and
his fate inescapable. If it was destiny, and a force beyond
reckoning shaped the coming tide, he would learn to embrace
rather than to fight it. Embrace it he had, through manipulation
and cunning. He had nearly won this battle, but lost it only at
the last.
Frustration
and rage flowed through his veins, turning it into an assault
against the defenseless enemy. It was only as the sunlight
streamed through the colored glass above, and his foot fell from
its attack upon the berated canvas, that he saw her. She was
only a shadow, watching from the doorway, her long dark hair
held back with a clip, but the form was unmistakable. Out of all
of them, she had never betrayed him, despite the many things he
had done. When in a fit of madness he had thrown her beneath the
churning hooves of a frightened horse, when he had attempted to
have her thrown out of the Talon� when he had kissed her. Lana
believed he remembered nothing of that event, that his morose
nature was forever cast aside, that the memories of those days
were eternally lost, but how could he have forgotten?
Temperaments
had merged, and some things were lost in the echoes of his mind,
but others came into the light. It was only in the darkness of
his dreams that Alexander came forth, holding out a beckoning
hand and whispering to him of their mutual desires. He
remembered the sensation of her mouth, the softness of her lips.
It made him pause when they came into one another�s presence,
treat her with greater sensitivity in the fear that she would
know he remembered. What concerned him further was that he was
not repentant of it, perhaps of his cruelty, but not the
sensation of her in his arms.
Through
the shifting patterns of colored light, he reached out and
steadied the punching bag. Lana came forward tentatively, ill at
ease for her unannounced interruption. She had heard him as she
came down the hall, the primal sounds he made as he battered his
imaginary foe to death. The stoic countenance so often tranquil
had been transformed, and she�d been astounded by his power.
The lean, muscular form so often concealed in black moved with
the grace and poise of a man of confidence. Something about him
had changed in those long summer months. It looked back at her
as she approached, noticing the softening of his facial
expression as he beheld her. His hands came out of the gloves,
and he dropped them onto the side table.
�Lana,�
he said. �I would have thought you would be in Metropolis.�
There
was a strange look in her eyes, listlessness he�d not come to
expect. �I got halfway there and came back. Lex, I need to
talk to you.�
The
touch of his hand against her bare arm was enough to make her
tremble. He agreed and showed her into the inner office, before
vanishing through the double doors. She sat staring at the
surroundings, the dominating presence of Lex as it pervaded
every stone in the foundation, every book in the shelves. She
had never been to the loft, and ascended the stairs. Here was
his private collection of classics, the volumes he had read as a
child, which had become a part of his personality: ancient
scribes and poets, modern philosophers, biographies on the
world�s most infamous men. It was a charming little nook
beneath a skylight, the summer afternoon rippling through the
haze and illuminating the cold marble features of the bust of
Alexander the Great that dominated a small circular table
nearby.
She
reached out to touch it, remembering the presence of Lex�s
darker side. He had frightened her in the loft above The Talon,
and yet it had been an awakening, causing her uncertainty. For
nearly a year she had battled those emotions, attempting to find
her true fate. Since the events surrounding the stones, she had
fought to find herself, and each time it had led her here, to
Lex. Time and again, she would seek his council, his presence,
and the reassurance of his voice. He never failed her, but she
knew that constantly he was on his guard in her presence,
concerning that he might frighten her away again. For a long
time, she had felt guilty about the actions of Isobel, had
attempted to believe that they were none of her contrivance; but
it was not true. This yearning for power, this spark of
darkness, had to exist in order for a greater force to take hold
of it, and that same driving force now brought her to the
mansion.
The
marble welcomed her fingers, a sanctuary for her thoughts. Lex
found her thus when he ascended the stairs, not speaking as it
would disrupt the perfect solace of her thoughts. She was
beautiful in the waning light as it bled into evening. Her aunt
awaited her in the city, but the rehearsal dinner would have to
wait. Deciding to break the silence, he ascended the final step.
�I often wonder what possesses mankind to etch a human face in
stone,� he said. The sound of his voice caused her to turn
just enough so that he could see the entirety of her face. �I
am thankful to them, for without such etchings, our world would
be devoid of the faces of its unsung heroes.�
Lex
smiled faintly and reached out to caress the stoic countenance.
�Many would consider him a fiend, a glimpse of evil as it once
was, but he too was human.� He indicated the couch and she sat
down, her face granting him an unspoken invitation. He made
himself comfortable on the coffee table, clasping his hands
together. Lana was quiet in her inquiry.
�Why
did you not come see me in Paris?�
It
was not a question he anticipated. Lex looked at her strangely,
an unknown emotion brewing in his pale eyes. Lana remained
serious, searching his countenance for a response, but did not
allow him the liberty of granting one. �I thought it strange
at the time,� she said, �but then I met Jason and he kept my
mind occupied. You knew about him all the time. That�s why you
didn�t come and see me, because he was there.�
She
lifted one hand to ward off his explanations, a mirthless smile
crossing her lips. �You don�t have to say anything. I have
been attempting to sort out my thoughts. This summer has been
exceedingly difficult for me. Everything that happened with
Jason and his mom, the meteor shower, with Clark, my aunt�s
engagement� I wanted to believe that it was all for a reason;
that I was meant to suffer because it would ultimately lead me
to something greater. Nothing has changed. I am still lost.
Every path I have taken, every attempt to leave this place, has
been flouted. I wanted to leave the place where my parents died,
where my heart was broken, where I cannot seem to escape
monotony, and yet I come back. Until now, I have not known why.
It is because of you.
�I
never know who I am except when I am with you. All those times
you were harsh with me, that you demanded I show something for
my pleadings, when you made me renovate the theatre, and taught
me to defend myself, I never saw the truth.�
His
restlessness urged him to leave her side, to pace the balcony
and look into the heart of his empire, but the touch of her hand
on his kept him there. Keeping her hand on his was numbing, a
tingling that began at the tips of her fingers and traveled
upward. He had showered and changed clothes, and his fragrance
was overwhelming.
She
said softly, �I thought I loved Clark, that he would always be
there to protect me, but he won�t be. He only sees me as a
damsel in distress. All the people I have ever known have seen
me that way. Poor Lana, forever trapped in that image on the
cover of Time. They want to protect and shelter me, but
they have kept me weak. You never saw me that way. You see the
true me, the potential that I have. Every time you forced me to
make a hard decision, to take matters into my own hands, you
were helping me to find myself. I thought I could find it in
Paris, but you had it all the time. You let me go because I
wanted to, but you made me give up something that I loved,
because you have never made it easy for me.�
�Lana��
�I
know who I am now, and I know that I am nothing without you.�
Lana
leaned forward and touched her lips to his. He resisted, sensing
that she was uncertain, but cradling his face in her hands, she
whispered, �I am not a child any longer, Lex. I want you to
kiss me.�
The
scent of her was overpowering, luring him to gently respond to
her inquisitive teasing. Then he was no longer across from her,
but beside her, drawing her into his arms. She came willingly,
her body melting into his, the kiss intensifying. Her lips were
warm and soft, responding to the tremulous shudder that flowed
through him. Their bodies melted together, the white fabric of
her evening dress stark against his somber black. There was
something dangerous in his grasp, a primal instinct that seduced
her with its unsung potential. She had never been kissed like
this, not by any of the boys that had attempted to romance her.
It was deep and sensual, creating emotions that she never knew
existed, and sending tremors through her veins. She wanted to
become lost in it, failing to resist when the couch was no
longer beneath them.
Her
hand entwined in the thickness of the fur rug, arching her neck
as he explored her flesh with his lips, meeting the hollow in
the nape of her neck, tracing the outline of her necklace.
Whether it was Lex or Alexander, the desire was the same,
something she had fled from and now embraced. Lex could feel her
yielding to him, the quickening of her heart against his, the
instinctive intuition that propelled her response. She wanted
him; he sensed it in her movements, in the warmth of her arms
around him, the desperation of her kiss. He would have given in
were it not for the reality of that moment, the knowledge that
this was the last bridge to be crossed, that once he took her,
she would never view him the same way again. It was confusion
that had driven her into his arms, an empty search for meaning
in a life fraught with impossibilities. The same lost sense of
purpose that had driven him nearly to madness on the island,
that only faded with time and exploration. Lana would come to
know herself, but only if he did not inhibit her.
It
was nearly impossible for him to calm his racing blood, to draw
up from the floor. He was still breathing heavily when they
rested their heads together, a silhouette against the firelight
flickering in the room below. He did not need to explain, for
she understood. It was not rejection, but submission. Silence
lingered between them, until the chiming of the clock in the
lower hall warned her of the lateness of the hour. Lana didn�t
want to leave his side, but remembered her aunt in that moment.
She gave a short, bemused laugh as her head fell against his
shoulder, prompting him to follow her train of thought.
�Nell
will be furious with me.�
Lex
smiled in the darkness, at the absurd image she made, completely
disheveled. �I could send you in the chopper,� he offered.
Lana gave no ready response, thinking how uncomfortable the
proceedings would be, how out of place she would seem among her
future uncle�s relations. She would once more be the girl on
the tragic magazine cover, the unfortunate orphan. Morning would
come, and the wedding begin, and she would stand there in her
bridesmaid dress, and smile through her tears. But not tonight,
nothing must ruin the majesty of tonight. She continued to
breathe in his scent, playing with his open collar, her hand
warm against his skin. She didn�t want to leave, to disrupt
the perfection of this moment, to bid farewell to destiny, or
even to postpone it. But the night was darkening and she knew
that she must leave, if only to propel herself out the door the
following morning. There were obligations� and time. There
would be time enough to explore one another�s unspoken
secrets.
Her
voice was very soft as she asked, �Would you take me home?�
The
streets of Smallville were tranquil, the headlights turning down
Main Street and delivering them before The Talon. Martha had
locked up for the night and gone, leaving the interior in
welcoming darkness. Lana�s hand fell on the latch, but Lex�s
touch on her arm halted the process. �Lana,� he said, his
features softly lit from the blue light of the dashboard. �I
want you to know that you are a remarkable woman. I am in awe of
your accomplishments. I cannot promise never to protect you, to
want to shelter you from the world and the evils that lurk in
it, but I will do my best to never stifle you.�
She
looked at him for a long moment, and then smiled. His features
softened and he allowed her to open the door. Before she got
out, she asked, �Are you coming to the wedding tomorrow?�
Lex
gazed at her, an unreadable expression in his soft green eyes.
�Only if you want me to,� he replied. She stepped out of the
car and shut the door. Her fingertips remained in the open
window, undesirious of leaving him there alone. She wanted to
ask him in, but knew from the expression on his face that he
would not have agreed. Leaning down so that he might meet her
eyes, she said softly, �It starts at eleven. See you
tomorrow.�
Her
form melted into the darkness, the glow of her gown retaining
the light until she pressed inside the shop. Lex waited until he
saw a light appear in her apartment, her shadow pass by the
draperies. Lana plucked at them, drawing them aside as he drove
off into the darkness. The quiet of the evening could not match
the frantic pace of her heart.
Nothing
existed in that moment except the promise of tomorrow. �
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