Author’s Note: I think this was inspired by reading the events of No Man’s Land… but I can’t remember, because I just now found the story in an old notebook. The narrator is Stephanie Brown, I know that much.

 

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Worth It

By J’Freak

 

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      I didn’t want you… didn’t plan for you.

      I’d left your father long ago, long before I even knew you existed. Whoever it was I had children with, I didn’t want it to be him. There were a lot of things that I didn’t want… but apparently, what I wanted wasn’t important.

      For nine months I carried you, dealing with the weight-gain, the stress, the stares, the loneliness and the swollen ankles. The shame. Now, in this wasteland pit, I finally have you out of my body and in my arms.

      Just for a little while. You see, you won’t be mine for long.

      Your eyes are so blue. Your fingers and toes, so tiny. Is that my nose? And--- are you looking at me?

      I think of the pain of labor. It seems so dull now, and insignificant. Out of all the heartache and agony, came you.

      And you were worth it.