These are a compilation of some things over the years. Hope you enjoy and I hope it helps you to understand why I am the way I am.
So much to think about.
So much to contemplate.
I am indeed searching for "the one".
Will I ever find it, only time shall tell. There is something missing in my life.
I need love, i desire it.
I am very reserved, impatient, unforgiving.
I seek nothing other than perfection.
Looking for something that does not exist.
Where does it end, who is the lucky one.
Yes lucky i say. Lucky to be with a man that wants nothing but his partner to be happy, successful, pleased in every way.
No one knows the real me.
Like said before, there is a shell to be broken.
I challenge everyone to break it.
Kevin Milton 07-17-2003
Faith
Used to come to you on many dark nights
facing the evilness putting up a hard fight

asked for you help before
It never came so I went on with my sores

I went on praying to you with much hope
still no sign so i continue to cope

I guess thats why i feel out of your race
so now i lost your great grace

Its hard to believe
we all must suffer because of Adam and Eve

I know that your out there
but I start to think if you even care

Did I not have enough faith in you
to have your help with the things I asked you to do

Could you just be an old tale
are we already sitting in hell

Maybe you will change my mind
and you can win me back in time.
Strange thoughts
The night, the sky, and stars above
Standing as witness proving my love

A sudden tear rush into my sight
till death touches my heart
must not I feel your love floating in this river of tears

Holding my heart with pain and fear
I hear my heart crying aloud.
Why punish me for loving you so dear.
Destroyed
With stabs in my back I grow weary
Crimson tears of betrayal

Lies are deadly
People are crushed, innocence hurt

For the selfish and greed
Head games ripping flesh

Hearts that knew love now empty
Never to mend

Ego boast for the insecure
Fake words, false love, hidden motives.
Cry wolf too many times, no one listens

I hear no longer

I've closed the tunnel

No light, No sound, only pain

I am now numb to it all!
Best Friend
A true friend never turns their back
Never turns the cheek.

Always there for you when your weak.

You've seen me laugh.
You've seen me cry.

You've had my back when I thought I could fly to insure I didn't die.

I envy your existance and shall never forget your smile.

Your the best friend I could ever have.

Thank you for your grace

Thank you for you compassion.

Thank you for standing by my side.

Thank you for being my best friend.
The One
Your lips speak soft sweetness
Your touch a cool caress
I am lost in your magic
My heart beats within you chest

I think of you each morning
And dream of you each night
I think of your arms being around me
And cannot express my delight

Never have I fallen
But I am quickly on my way
You hold a heart in your hands
That has never before been given away.
I have been through it all. Unfortunatly, I have learned through experience that you can't trust anyone. I hope that is not the case. I want to say to someone, I love you, I trust you, I want you in my life forever. That person does not exist today. There was once a point that I looked at Celeste and said, yea, your it, your what I'm looking for. Today that remains true. Indeed she hurt me dearly, but she was exactly what I wanted. She was a lover, dreamer, and best friend.  There is no easy way to say it, she destroyed what I once was. Used to be so innocent, pure, unbreakable. So much changed, Innocence obliterated!
All this time passed. Never got to tell her how much she hurt me, how much pain I felt.
How much I wished things could change.
Did she know how I felt for her?
Did she know that she was the one?
I would have married her. No questions asked.
I  loved her with as much passion as my soul could provide.
She destroyed my innocence.
Took away my trust, blackened my heart to coal.
I feel nothing. No pain, No sorrow, No trust, No nothing.
I hurt, it still hurts two years later.
Kevin Milton 07-17-2003
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