“Everything You Want”

Okay, this is my first Ranma fic, so please bear with me here. First, random disclaimer stuff: Ranma & co. belong Rumiko Takahashi, I’m not making any money off this, etc. etc. The song “Everything You Want” belongs to Vertical Horizon and their record label.

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Somewhere there’s speaking
It’s already coming in
Oh and it’s rising
At the back of your mind

Ryoga Hibiki, the Eternal Lost Boy, sat perched atop the Tendo dojo, staring down into the courtyard. Akane, beauteous Akane, sat there, arguing with Ranma....her fiancee.

Ryoga grimaced. Fiancee. It wasn’t fair. Somehow, despite her outward hatred for Ranma, Akane seemed to care deeply for him. A caring she had never had for Ryoga, except when he was P-chan. No matter how hard he tried.

You never could get it
Unless you were fed it
Now you’re here and you
Don’t know why.

He could’ve left. There really weren’t any ties keeping Ryoga in Nerima, even in Japan. His parents were around somewhere, but they had the same sense of direction that he had and could never be found. Ryoga was a wanderer himself, always lost and simply settling down briefly whenever he got tired of walking.

But under skinned knees
And skid marks
Past the places
Where you used to learn
You howl and listen
Listen and wait for the
Echoes of angels who won’t return

But he stayed. For Akane, he stayed. He loved her, loved her more than life itself. Ever since she had innocently picked up a little black piglet sitting in the rain, he had loved her. No one else had ever shown him so much kindness.

But it was an empty kindness. Akane thought that P-chan was just a pig and nothing more. She didn’t understand that his love ran deeper than that. He had listened to her for hours on end, sharing in her deepest secrets and giving her his silent understanding. He was her loyal pet and confidant, always.

He’s everything you want
He’s everything you need
He’s everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
He says all the right things
At exactly the right times
But he means nothing to you
And you don’t know why.

So why didn’t Akane love him?

You’re waiting for someone
To put you together
You’re waiting for someone
To push you away

It would be easier, Ryoga supposed, if Akane would reject him outright. His heart would be shattered to be sure, but even knowing for certain that he could never have her was better than watching her and Ranma together, and wondering if he had a chance.

Ranma. He never let Ryoga get near Akane. It wasn’t fair. Ranma had no real claim on Akane as far as Ryoga could see. They were held together by an engagement planned by their fathers, not ties of love. But this flimsiest of ties seemed to make Ranma think that Akane, who he often insulted and ridiculed, was his and his alone.

There’s always another
Wound to discover
There’s always something more
You wish he’d say.

But what was Ryoga to do? As long as Ranma kept him away from precious Akane, there was no way to win her affections. He didn’t even know if Akane thought of him as a friend, much less as a potential boyfriend! It just wasn’t fair. Ryoga had a deep, all-consuming love for Akane. He would never insult her, never call her ‘uncute.’ But Ranma did, and he still got to marry her.

He’s everything you want
He’s everything you need
He’s everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
He says all the right things
At exactly the right times
But he means nothing to you
And you don’t know why.

So why didn’t Akane see in Ryoga what she saw in Ranma?

And you’ll just sit tight
And watch it unwind
It’s only what you’re asking for
And you’ll be just fine
With all of your time
It’s only what you’re waiting for...

And so, Ryoga waited. Every night, he shared Akane’s bed as P-chan, her loyal pet, and every day he perched on rooftops and wondered if he should leave. Wondered if maybe one day Akane would stop looking for the love hidden from her and notice the one right in front of her.

Out of the island
Into the highway
Past the places
Where you might have turned
You never did notice
But you still hide away
The anger of angels who won’t return.

Ryoga could never talk to Akane about his love. Every time he tried, he was either interrupted by Ranma or overcome by shyness and nosebleeds. No one sympathized with him. He hid his longing deep inside and watched from the rooftops, as he always did.

He’s everything you want
He’s everything you need
He’s everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
He says all the right things
At exactly the right times
But he means nothing to you
And you don’t know why.

But Akane never cared. No matter how long he waited, he sometimes wondered if she ever would.

I am everything you want
I am everything you need
I am everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
I say all the right things
At exactly the right time
But I mean nothing to you
And I don’t know why.

The rain began to fall, mingling with Ryoga’s tears. He didn’t bother wiping them away, and he didn’t much care when he changed into a little black piglet. He tumbled off the roof and landed in Akane’s arms.

“There you are, P-chan!”

Ryoga snuggled into her warm arms, basking in the tenderness of her smile. He could only hope that maybe, one day, she would hold him like this and look at him like that when he was in human form.

And I don’t know why.

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