PhatBassPlaya84: im fine, have you decided on
what ur goning to do for me on my b-day?
autmn orchid: who's this?
PhatBassPlaya84: its mike
autmn orchid: mike?
PhatBassPlaya84: from school
autmn orchid: it's really you?
PhatBassPlaya84: yeah
PhatBassPlaya84: how do you like my name
autmn orchid: she laughs
autmn orchid: not bad
PhatBassPlaya84: thanks
PhatBassPlaya84: so what have you been up to
autmn orchid: not much, just tryin to fix my profile
PhatBassPlaya84: oh ok
PhatBassPlaya84: i got caught by the cops
yesterday
autmn orchid: what> why?!!!!!
PhatBassPlaya84: they found weed in my
backpack
autmn orchid: mike!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11
PhatBassPlaya84: it wasnt even mine though!
someone set me up
autmn orchid: i'm so disappointed in u
autmn orchid: what>? who?
PhatBassPlaya84: thats what im trying to find
out
PhatBassPlaya84: i saw someone put this letter
in my mail box yesterday
autmn orchid: what'd it say
PhatBassPlaya84: it says basically that they
want their "fix" back
PhatBassPlaya84: i guess they want the weed
autmn orchid: damn
autmn orchid: so did u go to jail?
PhatBassPlaya84: then i am talking on the
phone and i hear it being tapped
PhatBassPlaya84: yes for one night
autmn orchid: what? in your house?
PhatBassPlaya84: and i got a huge fine
autmn orchid: damn
autmn orchid: no more raves
PhatBassPlaya84: yes in my house
autmn orchid: woah
autmn orchid: that's hella freaky
autmn orchid: like c.i.a.
PhatBassPlaya84: sort of
PhatBassPlaya84: if i see that person im going
to run after him
PhatBassPlaya84: and kill him
autmn orchid: mike
PhatBassPlaya84: cost me most of my
summers pay
autmn orchid: just beat him up really bad
autmn orchid: how much was it?
autmn orchid: the fine
PhatBassPlaya84: ill shove an eyeball of his so
far down his throats
PhatBassPlaya84: -s
PhatBassPlaya84: 400
PhatBassPlaya84: so anyway
PhatBassPlaya84: what have you been up to
autmn orchid: not much compared to you
autmn orchid: check out my profile
PhatBassPlaya84: alright
autmn orchid: tell me waht u think
PhatBassPlaya84: awesome
autmn orchid: then just read the red
PhatBassPlaya84: :-)
autmn orchid: the words in red make up a poem in a
poem
PhatBassPlaya84: i knew there was a link
between those red words
PhatBassPlaya84: kool
PhatBassPlaya84: i made a poem
PhatBassPlaya84: wanna see?
autmn orchid: yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!1
PhatBassPlaya84: War Syndrome
A happy time, a pleasant place
A vacation from the glimpse of hell
Isn't it quiet? Isn't it peaceful?
It's too bad I don't know what I'm doing
Or where I am
Oh look, a soldier was just killed
How nice
Pain, pain, pain
Will help my brain, get back to hell
And my primitive mind
Will make me shell, the enemy
Ok now I'm back, my mind cannot take this any longer!!
I feel crazy, depressed, proud and a bunch of other mixed feelings
Soon is the keyword, which I will soon love
Soon it will be over
Or soon, I'll be over
autmn orchid: interesting
autmn orchid: i like it
PhatBassPlaya84: really??
PhatBassPlaya84: thanx
autmn orchid: yeah, like a daze
PhatBassPlaya84: that means A LOT to me
autmn orchid: sort of
autmn orchid: i like it
autmn orchid: it's good
autmn orchid: when did u write it
PhatBassPlaya84: last week
PhatBassPlaya84: i was watching saving private ryan
PhatBassPlaya84: AGAIN
autmn orchid: ahhhhh, i see the connection
PhatBassPlaya84: did i tell you the bad news?
PhatBassPlaya84: about my friend in alaska
autmn orchid: what?
PhatBassPlaya84: well it seems he overdosed on that ecstacy drug, here's what i heard, a few of his friends were on X and they locked
him in a closet and he was panicing and had a seizure and died
PhatBassPlaya84: so im going to his funeral in 3 days
autmn orchid: oh my god
autmn orchid: that's hella sad
PhatBassPlaya84: i cryed for hours after i heard that
autmn orchid: i'm so sorry, i wish i was there
PhatBassPlaya84: shit i wish things would just go my way
PhatBassPlaya84: im a little suicidal i think
autmn orchid: mike, your life never seems to
autmn orchid: no mike
autmn orchid: if u did, then it would be me crying
PhatBassPlaya84: no i think ive hit the pit
PhatBassPlaya84: this life isnt for me
PhatBassPlaya84: the suicide hotline is always BUSY BUSY BUSY
autmn orchid: maybe because you haven't figured why you're here in the first place
PhatBassPlaya84: i dont know what to do anymore
autmn orchid: everything has a reason
autmn orchid: talk to me
autmn orchid: i'm here
PhatBassPlaya84: brb
autmn orchid: mike
PhatBassPlaya84: no
autmn orchid: no what?
PhatBassPlaya84: talking has done nothing for me!!!
autmn orchid: what? where is this outburst coming from?
autmn orchid: we've never talked about this before
autmn orchid: mike
PhatBassPlaya84: all this anger i have held in all these years i guess its a meltdown
PhatBassPlaya84: im sorry but heres my other side
autmn orchid: everyone has those moments
autmn orchid: it's alright
PhatBassPlaya84: but not like this
PhatBassPlaya84: no too many bad things in three days
PhatBassPlaya84: im sorry you had to hear this
PhatBassPlaya84: i think i should go
autmn orchid: there's always another day to takethis storm away
autmn orchid: no mike
autmn orchid: i want to talk to u
PhatBassPlaya84: ive hit my end
autmn orchid: u wanna go against me?
PhatBassPlaya84: i feel like its the end of the road for me
autmn orchid: if u get off i will personally kick your ass myself, and u kow i can
autmn orchid: the road forks, maybe u have't seen it yet
PhatBassPlaya84: what should i do
autmn orchid: cool down for a couple of dayz
PhatBassPlaya84: im ready i have a knife right here in my hand
autmn orchid: go to the funeral
autmn orchid: take time off to be by yourself
PhatBassPlaya84: goddam im shaking
autmn orchid: see who you are
PhatBassPlaya84: how
PhatBassPlaya84: where do i go
autmn orchid: mike, what's your number again?
PhatBassPlaya84: but how do i be bymyself
PhatBassPlaya84: 626-8729
autmn orchid: alright, get off the internet, i'm gonna call u, k?
PhatBassPlaya84: fine
PhatBassPlaya84: i thought u said you'd call
autmn orchid: i'm at my cousin's house and her gma is usi g the pho e
autmn orchid: phone*
PhatBassPlaya84: ok
autmn orchid: i think you need to reorganize your life
PhatBassPlaya84: but how
autmn orchid: raving is all cool but is that where u want to be later?
autmn orchid: see wht really matters to u in life
PhatBassPlaya84: but my best friend died
autmn orchid: and if those things u take for granted
autmn orchid: what else?
autmn orchid: your future
autmn orchid: your family
autmn orchid: your friends
PhatBassPlaya84: are you sure
autmn orchid: u live moment to moment, but doing so is only to invite disaster because u have no base
PhatBassPlaya84: i dont think thats what needs to be done here
autmn orchid: yes
autmn orchid: mike, u have so much to live for
PhatBassPlaya84: like what?
autmn orchid: what about your drawing?
PhatBassPlaya84: i suck at art
autmn orchid: the sschool wall? u going toleave it unfinished? the mike i know wouldn't give up,did u give up with tryig to get me to go out?
autmn orchid: u do not!!!!!
PhatBassPlaya84: i just dont care anymore
autmn orchid: alright, i'll call u
PhatBassPlaya84: i met the end of my rope
autmn orchid: mike, i'll call u in 10 seconds
PhatBassPlaya84: ok
PhatBassPlaya84: did i give you the right number? 626-8729
autmn orchid: yeah, it's disconnected or something
autmn orchid: i'm not getting through
PhatBassPlaya84: what??
PhatBassPlaya84: oh well
autmn orchid: oh mike
autmn orchid: if only u could see yourself from my eyes
autmn orchid: the potential
autmn orchid: the heartbreak
PhatBassPlaya84: your making me cry here
autmn orchid: because that's the truth
autmn orchid: the truth is a light among the shadows
PhatBassPlaya84: i love you so much
autmn orchid: i love u too, that's why i don't u to die
PhatBassPlaya84: wow
PhatBassPlaya84: this sucks
PhatBassPlaya84: i suck
autmn orchid: life would't be life if it was 't
autmn orchid: no u do't
PhatBassPlaya84: yes
PhatBassPlaya84: i do
autmn orchid: u are caring
PhatBassPlaya84: i had to make you hear all my problems
autmn orchid: thoughtful
autmn orchid: u did 't make me
autmn orchid: i wanted to
PhatBassPlaya84: u did?
autmn orchid: because i'm your frie d
autmn orchid: yes
autmn orchid: of course mike
PhatBassPlaya84: someone actually cares for me
autmn orchid: of course
autmn orchid: people do
PhatBassPlaya84: but you are the only one
autmn orchid: they just do't show it all the time
autmn orchid: ther are others
PhatBassPlaya84: yeah they care for me, ha
autmn orchid: mike
PhatBassPlaya84: i dont believe they do
autmn orchid: 'cuz you're not allowing yourself to see it
autmn orchid: maybe they aren't freinsd then
PhatBassPlaya84: maybe
PhatBassPlaya84: i feel you are the only one who cares about me
PhatBassPlaya84: i really do
autmn orchid: i do care
autmn orchid: u have a reason to live
autmn orchid: everything has a reason for living
autmn orchid: that's why they live in the first place
PhatBassPlaya84: i guess you're right
autmn orchid: u just have't found yours yet
PhatBassPlaya84: i mean i am a christian, i do believe god has a plan
autmn orchid: you're a lost lamb, u just need to find the path
PhatBassPlaya84: i think i need some time
PhatBassPlaya84: time to think all this out
autmn orchid: that's what i've been telling you
autmn orchid: be by yourself
autmn orchid: no outside influence
PhatBassPlaya84: but then again ive been down this patch before
PhatBassPlaya84: i know whats gunna happen
PhatBassPlaya84: good bye amy
PhatBassPlaya84: i love you
autmn orchid: what is going to happen
autmn orchid: mike
autmn orchid: u know this is jeny right
PhatBassPlaya84: how many seconds do i have left if i cut my wrsit
