On April 19, 2005, I lost our baby boy. I had been so excited to finally be pregnant! I took a trip to the doctor just the week before and heard his wonderful heartbeat. That was week 14. Along came the 15th week of the pregnancy and the tragedy it held. I had been having small cramps all day, but was told just to lie down and rest by the ER. My fiance went to work and a half hour later my water broke. At 11pm, I gave birth to our son. I rode in the first ambulance I've ever been in with my dead son hanging out of me. I was bawling my eyes out. My fiance was standing by with a look of utter horror on his face.
My son was baptized and was buried in a quiet little place with others who passed under 20 weeks gestation. I named him Gregory Lee after his uncle, my brother, who suffered the same fate.
I will try for another child, not to replace my Greg, but to fill my life with joy. I long to be a parent. To change a diaper, witness our baby's first steps and words, see their t-ball games, kindergarten pictures, high school graduation, wedding and their children. I will not allow Greg's passing to stop me. Iwill always remember my first born no matter how much it hurts me right now. His brothers or sisters will know him too.
I love you Greg. You are in my hearts forever. Someday Mommy will see you again!!!
Greg is also joined in Heaven with his baby sister or brother, Little Bean, lost September 10, 2005. Little One also went to heaven along with Rocky and Roxy. Finally got a miracle on October 5, 2007 when I gave birth to a tiny but healthy baby boy. He is doing very well in spite of the obstacles that faced him before he was born. Love you!
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