| I followed the funeral procession to the cemetery. I took in the words said by the preacher, closed my eyes and my life changed. I stayed behind with Roger, her biological father and a few others as they lowered her into the grave. I stayed until all the dirt was put back in its place. I kissed the flower Roger had given me and laid it down next to her. Then I walked away. It's been a week since the funeral and I took a bouquet of flowers out to her grave. I sat there and told her about everything that has been going on and that what had happened changed my life. " Ruthy, I love you. You were always there for me when I needed you, and I wish you were here for me now. We have talked about so much and we have been through alot together. You will never be forgotten. Guess what? I'am not scared of dying anymore. I have learned that I have no reason to be. God loves us all and he will protect us. We just have to trust him and believe that he will. I have no reason for not wanting to be up there with you. I have so many friends. Jenny, my grandfather, you and of course God. You have not left us, you are moving on to a new chapter in your life and so am I. You are experiencing something that not many people will experience for many years. Do you know how truely lucky you are? I love you Ruthy Lynne and I will see you as soon as God has my place ready, til then you will always be with me. |