I stare at the sky. There is allways a storm . For it is always there raging
silently inside of me. always. For when the storm leaves, I fade. Why
must things be this way? Sins from a painfull past. Bend my future
without haste. To love somone from far away. Who cannot love you,
come what may? A curse from long ago, was placed opon my mothers
soul, And now I too must be cursed. For all I love must be taken away,
by an innocent hand, thats fallen stray. Why must it be this way? Even
now I cannot say.
I am wrapped up in this world while my heart flutters around in the sky. Yet no one sees. No one notices, No one understands how it makes me feel this way. Not even I. Is it love? It's a feeling new to me. A curse, and a love. A legends brewing deep inside me forming a pearl of that which I cannot seem to reach. Hands trying to touch the sky, reaching, Oh! And to you the moon seems so small so unimportant! Please, return to me, my bluest moon, from my darkest depths, and maby then I shall awake from my inner slumber.
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Dancing in circles a twirling my hair around small fingers as I wait for the answers. Looking up to you. I can see you but can you see me? And I start to wonder again could it all be a dream? Crying softly. My tears are rolling down my cheeks. Will I ever see you again? My kimono flutters softly in the wind. Somthings happening Somthing has stirred deep within the bowls of my soul and heart.
***
Until the day when the sky is heavy with tears and the moon shines with a crimson light. I will be waiting for you...
The day he left, I knew things where never going to be the same. The place he left is raw with lost love.
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Knowing hes not dead is perhaps even worse. Knowing he wont remember is somthing even I can no longer bear. knowing the truth.
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Was I wrong to belive he loved me? Was I foolish for loving him? was it so wrong to love each other, that it all had to end? Now Im lost in a place full of lingering memories.
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I remember meeting him here, I remember being with him here. Lost in emotion.
As I stare into the suffocating blue of the sky, I see your face. Your sickening, feline, beautiful face. I hate you. I want you to suffer in jealousy of my grace. I want you to die of shame for breaking your promise. You let it happen to me again. I want to see you. I want to look into your feline eliptical eyes, kiss your soft sweet lips. But you're gone to me. Dead in my mind, ever since you spent the night at her house. I scream at you. Scream out all my ancient rage, of past broken loves... I wish you were gone, yet right here beside me. Holding me and loving me the way I wanted you to. Show you what a dangerous, beautiful harpy I am. You know I can contort you to my liking with all my carnal sorrow. And this... As I look into your lovely eyes.
IS GOODBYE....
