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SIGHT THROUGH STOLEN EYES
Everything just continues on without me
In here, nothing changes, while everything outside does
Routine is the only equalizer
My world isn't a cage, it's a playground
I can swing, I can hang, I can get on top
That's the beauty of it
And no one can get in, no one knows where it is
I learn my lessons well
Are you saying my happiness is not real?
I won't be hurt again
No I won't
Because my life is equalized by routine
Because I know who I am, where I am, and what I am
Don't repeat what I say
All I ever hear is myself
That's the most beautiful and disgusting part of this whole affair
Only I can second guess myself
The greatest irony is this
Only I can suffocate myself
You think I'm suffocating myself?
I don't feel my hands on my kneck
I don't share this air with anyone
That's what keeps it pure
I feel sick
I haven't eaten for two days
I had some Pepsi today
I did the dishes
I said something, but
what it was I don't remember
I have to go to work today
What is today?
I have to earn my hourly wages
If not, how will I pay the masons?
They're working overtime
I pay them well
They solidify everything with their sweat
But they failed me
They left a crack, a bad one
They keep on forgetting -
I should have told them from the beginning
Do as I say, not as I do
Do as I say, not as...
I tried to reach out today
Did you know that?
I asked Helen and Neil if they wanted to go to the movies
I didn't find out until ten...
But I knew anyway
It doesn't matter anymore
I say it's 5:30
I can make my clock say 5:30
And then that's when it will be
Who made the rules?
I think I've burdened you enough
You don't deserve this
I don't know why you call me
Is it because of guilt
Or some kind of chains that bind you to me?
Why do you inisist?
Why do you care?
Why do you let me interfere With the progress of your life?
Or are you so bold as to say That's not what I'm doing?
I feel better than I ever have
I'm a new man, I'm new to me
I'm absolutely useless
I serve no purpose to anyone but myself
By keeping myself alive. That's it
I'm otherwise useless
We'll see what happens the next time someone wants something from me -
I gave.
I've never been in a prison with a purple shag carpet
This prison has a purple shag carpet
This carpet, this couch, all the comforts of home
I think I need to go for a walk outside
I don't feel very well
Oh, so dizzy
Why won't they listen to me?
I tried to tell them all
PEOPLE!
Aaron, Nick, Lee, anyone else who wanted to listen
They're all wrong
ha ha ha
I have to go now
I'm freeing you from me
I'm weighing you down
I'm holding you back
But it doesn't matter, it doesn't matter
I'm just gonna stay right here,
Just gonna leave it all here
Me.
I'll send myself to work, but I'll stay here
You know what I mean?
I've had this headache all day
I'm not sleepy, I'm not going to sleep
I'm going to walk
To prove my theory
That not matter how far I walk
I'll end up back here
Because I can't get away from myself
I'm my own worst enemy
seconds, minutes, whatever
I'm starting to feel better
Did you ever close your eyes
And get flooded with memories
that don't seem like your own?
I've unlocked all my early memories
It's beautiful.
It's before I knew anything
I wonder what would happen
if I stayed in the bathtub all day?
I'm sorry you had to listen to all this
I don't know where I'm talking from
I think I need help
I heard you, but I don't know
what, why, when the things I have been talking about
I think there is something wrong with me
what in the hell is going on?
help me
I'm so scared
help me
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