Faith heard the door upstairs slam shut so she when up and knocked softly.
�Can I come in?� She asked.
�I guess.�
Faith went in to find Buffy wrapped up in a blanket sitting at her desk. Pen in hand she was writing. For all Faith knew she was righting her death letter.
�Buffy. I relies that I barely know you. But I do know my brother is total in love with you. I know about his past, and I just now know that he has never told you anything about his past.�
�Faith, why did he hurt Lindsey?�
�Well honey, its part of his past. Ready for the longest story of your life?�
�Yeah.�
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9 months pervious
Angel walked in to the bar, he was after one thing. To forget the past month his mother and fathers death, and his promise to Faith. Somehow, someway the feeling of being drunk helped him forget everything. Today had been really hard on him. Work was bad. He walked in on Fred and Wesley going at it in the break room. Fred seemed to have some weird control over that man. The two of them were going at it like bunnies. After that Cordelia �The Boss Lady� was going after him. God he should file sexual harassment charges on her. She kept touching him, and making little jokes, flirting with him. But today, today it seemed to be too much.
�Cordelia, god I don�t want a fucking whore like you in my life. How many times do I have to tell you NO? Now get lost please.� He yelled at her as he made his way to the door.
Angel made it to the bar by 4pm. Lots of time left in the day to get wasted he thought laughing. The best part was it was Friday. Sitting at the bar drinking his beer, he could hear some ass hole behind him making a lot of noise. The guy was putting the moves on some girl; either that or they were business partner�s gone lovers.
�Oh Lindsey McDonald is this where you really work?� The girl asked in her blondest voice.
~~~ flash back in a flash back
At the sound of that name Angel was sobered right up. Only a month ago had that name been in all the papers, all over the news. That man had been drinking and hit a vehicle traveling on a country road late at night. Killing two passengers and leaving one alive. Angel�s life had been spared. Lindsey got less then a month in jail and lots of fines and Angel had to keep everything from Faith, or it would have killed her.
~~~~end of the flash back in a flash back
So that night Angel knew what he was going to do. When Lindsey was really drunk, Angel came up to him. In seconds Lindsey was on his back with Angel still throwing punches. After they called the cops, Angel had disappeared at another bar getting drunk again they figured.
On his way home Angel took the long way. That night his huge truck slammed in to a little one. A small blonde girl was inside. She was ok, but that night Angel though that he took could hurt some one if he was drunk or drinking. That was the last night Angel ever picked up a drink. And that was the last night he ever hit any one ever again.
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�He hit me!� Buffy screamed really loud jumping out of bed.
�WHAT?: Faith yelled. �YOU?�
�I ran a stop sigh and got hit. It was the first night Spike hit me, and the last night I would ever be the same. After that I became a bitch. But that man he was like a God telling me every thing would be ok.�
Angel stood out in the door way, and listened. He loved that girl more then he could ever know. She had changed his life in more then a few ways. And he had changed hers more then he knew. But all they had to do was make it through the Open house. A nightmare was starting as Spike pulled in to town
Spike pulled in to town with one thing on his mind. Fucking Buffy and every girl in his sights. He pulled up to the old building he lived in and went right on in. His so call buddies were in there smoking all his pot and getting high. *oh well, soon they will have to get out.* Going strait for the telephone he phoned Dru and told her to get her skinny ass over to his place pronto. Smiling, fucking Dru was just the start of his plans. Soon it would be people close to Buffy. Maybe that little girl she always is hanging out with.
The next morning Spike rose with a great head on his shoulders. He knew what his plan was now all he had to do was find Buffy. Driving by her house he saw a man driving in to the drive in a Pickup trunk. He looked to old to be dating Buffy so he figured it was some one to work on the house. Pulling in behind the truck he went up to the front door. The man was already in the house. Spike looked through the window and saw Buffy hugging the man. Then she kissed him.
"OH FUCK NO!" Spike screamed.
Buffy jumped and Angel turned around to look at the door. Spike had kicked it in, and was heading for him. Angel was scared, but more for Buffy. When Spike turned to head to Buffy, Angel wanted to leap on him, but was to afraid to hurt Buffy.
Spike grabbed Buffy by the arm and drug her to the other room screaming curses at her the whole way. Angel went after her but stood in the door way. He was way to shocked to do anything.
"WHO THE FUCK IS THIS GUY? BUFFY TELL ME?" Spike screamed at her.
"Spike, I should not matter. We are no longer. YOU KNEW THAT. He is Angel, My Boyfriend."
Spike grabbed Buffy by the chin and kissed her hard on the lips. He picked his head up and looked at Angel. Angel had not moved but was turning beat red, he was about to any second drive Spike through that front window. Spike let Buffy go strolling over to Angel.
"Well pal, have you fucked her yet. That�s about all she is good for, you know. She sucks cocks for a living. But then she never got paid for it, did it to make her self feel better. She fucked guys she had no idea about, she fucked older men, she fucked younger guys. God I would not be scared to say if she was fucked by every guy who every walked in to The Bronze." Spike said slapping Angel on the back.
"Get the fuck out Spike, your just making problems. Get the fuck out, and don�t come back." Angel yelled as he shoved Spike away from him.
"OK, pal, but don�t come crying to me when she fucks me while being with you." Spike says laughing as he walked out the door he broke in. Back to his car, and drove off heading to the school. That Willow girl was still in school for one more week. He was going to get her in his bed, before she knew it she would be fucked.
Buffy feel to the ground in shock, she started crying, and would not let up. Angel stood over her, almost ashamed of her, but something inside of him told him better. He bend down to her, but she turned away from him. Buffy was so scared that she had just lost the man of her dreams, to understand that it was him who was trying to help her. She gathered the strength to run up to her room, and slam the door shut.
Angel followed knowing how upset Buffy must have been, she must not have been thinking when she ran from him. Angel went and knocked on the door hoping Buffy would answer it. Seconds later Buffy opened the door naked, and looking pissed off.
"Might as well just fuck me and get the hell out. You would not be the first and I am sure it wont be the last time I do this." Buffy said as she pulled on his hand pulling him in to the bedroom.
"And if I fuck you, and it means more to you then ever before. What happens next? Do we stay together? What Buffy? Is sex going to solve anything?"
"FUCK ME, please I need it to know something."
"Buffy I will not fuck you. I will make love to you some day I hope."
Crying Buffy fell in to Angel�s open arms. She had heard what she had only hoped to hear. But yet, she need to know for her self if the sex was what meant the relationship.
"Angel, I know this is going to sound stupid but I need to know if sex is what a relationship is? I need you to make love to me."
Angel held her at arms length, looking at her white smooth body wishing he could have sex with her right this second... but no he must stop her.
"Buffy I would love to make love to you right now. No lie there. But we need to wait, until we are both ready. You need to get a new life, where sex is only for pleasure for you." Angel sat Buffy on the bed and tossed her the clothes that lay on the floor. Walking out he could not help but want to run for the nearest closed door and moan..