Entry #4: Oh Goddess, Your hand lies heavily on me today. I'd hoped that today would be both quiet and peaceful. But apparently that was not in Your plans for me. Now that I have more time, I would tell you more of what happenned this morning. I went to the shop of Master Tomas Painter, to commission some small oil paintings of my family. His little shop was so cozy and beautiful that I felt more comfortable there than anywhere else I've been on this world. When I showed him my photos and data bank print, he was so fascinated by the material (and how it might have been produced) that he never inquired as to the identity of the people in them. The warmth of Master Painter's presence just *is*. It doesn't reach out to pull me in the way Gwenn's does. Yet there's something about it that made me feel so safe and cozy that I let down my mental walls and was able to relax more completely than I can ever remember doing since I arrived on this planet. Though now I almost wish I hadn't done that, at the time I couldn't help myself. A couple of times I had the impression that I reminded him of someone he knew ... most likely a friend he mentioned briefly as being a woman named Bera. When he'd mentioned that Bera had gone to a Tower (Goddess, have mercy upon her), for a moment I feared that he was hinting (or perhaps warning me) that the same fate could possibly befall me. I'm almost certain he noticed my startled reaction, despite the fact that I surpressed it quick as I could. But he made no comment on it, and started talking about his housekeeper and about the paintings again. So I'm not sure what Master Painter knows, and I can't just ask (THAT would give it away for certain). By the way in which he sketched the pictures of my great-grandmothers so accurately (and from only my second-hand descriptions), it seemed almost certain that he himself has been been "gifted by the Ancient Ones" as my grandmother used to say (though my mother once called it "cursed by genetic contamination"). I can't bring myself to believe that he's any kind of danger to me, even though Mother has begged me many times to stay away from what she calls "lowlander sorcery", and father has urged me to be cautious. "Everyone has secrets ... the more you know, the more you will worry ...", Master Painter told me. Perhaps that's the secret of his charm -- being so disarmingly full of harmless friendliness, and giving the impression that any secret told to him will not be judged (and will go no further). I'm certain that he's more perceptive than he appears. And I wonder how much of his absent-mindedness appearance is a shieldto guard his own privacy. I'll pause here again. I'm suddenly feeling cold. Perhaps I need to put the kettle on for some soothing camomile tea ...
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