I am defined
by the parameters
measured hesitantly
within the confines
of relationship
does he love me?
I am worthy
does he miss me?
I am something
does he use me?
I am worthless
does he leave me?
I am nothing
I am measured
by the definition
of what I am to another
reflection of me against
the mirror of their judgement
Am I whole? Am I only part?
Do they embrace the all of me,
or only one facet...
Where do I fit in?
I do not know how
to measure myself
against myself...
I never seemed
to matter
in this.
k.e.c., 9/10/99
realizing that I do not let me be ME...