Losing Wait...
I ate you up
like a gourmet dinner
digested afterwards as I
basked in the warmth of adoration
many courses
devoured too rapidly
not enough time given to
the savoring of belonging
naturally, an adipose
developed - insulating me
from the reality of what was:
a feast of the flesh, not our hearts
I gulped down all
you had to offer, never
realizing that there might be
upset to suffer later - the truth
about what I swallowed:
it wasn't nourishment for the soul
as I had believed. Only junk food...
And now, I must lose the wait I gained
after feeding on falseness
which I had thought was healthy
yet only poisoned me - clogged up
my arteries, my mind, my very being
with anticipation about
what was supposed to come
in the future banquet of you & I.
I hope for no more offerings of sustenance...
k.e.cline, 11/18/99