| Love Poems - Ta-Th |
| Taking a Risk - May 8, 2001 I told you how I am afraid to write a love letter to you because it seems a recent trend in my relationships has been to write a love letter or two or several to a girl and she dumps me quite soon afterward but I'd not told them this fear for I only just got it so, maybe in telling you the pattern will be broken or a new one however exciting started so here goes I think about you daily I am always cautious to bring up a new subject that may be too controversial and then you surprise me when I do by talking about it till we both feel fine I look forward more to seeing you every day than I have before I tell you everything that goes on expecting you to not remember every detail but what a memory you have the smallest details you can recall from various anecdotes your smile warms me your voice soothes me your arms take care of me you may worry when I cry that you need to do something but you're staying there is all I need ever I am always cautious to bring up a new subject that may be too controversial and then you surprise me when I do by talking about it till we both feel fine I look forward more to seeing you every day than I have before I tell you everything that goes on expecting you to not remember every detail but what a memory you have the smallest details you can recall from various anecdotes your smile warms me your voice soothes me your arms take care of me you may worry when I cry that you need to do something but you're staying there is all I need ever and now that I've said this I hope Fate is kind and a previous pattern stays where it belongs These Two - March 16, 2003 This Boy a hopeless romantic longs for a woman to love and love him is emotional when an ex sends him a "friendly" birthday card This Girl chats with him almost nightly wonders how he's doing and is sad when he is not due to disappointment but because she can only offer words who itches for a the next visit she can make because the one she made was perfect and far too short This Boy is bitter will say things about girls that shatter This Girl's feelings of course, she doesn't say anything she hasn't even revealed that she has more than "friendly" intentions so she sits wondering what to do or say and settles for writing a piece to This Boy who doesn't like poetry Thou Shalt Not - December 3, 2002 Too many unanswered questions should I do this or that? should I reveal what's going on or would that create a different kind of tension or would it create an understanding? should I move out before he decides to? that way I wouldn't have to deal with these feelings I read an article in his magazine that lists ways a woman shows "she wants you" to see how many I was exhibiting and to get pointers there are so many reasons why saying would be bad and some others very enticing on why I should and if I did how would I say it? do I be blunt about the physical attraction and what I dream about and get off to or do I mention these feelings that I have now I wish sometimes humanity were predictable for these kinds of decisions and thoughts wouldn't be so torturous |
| Tell Me This - December 5, 2002 The problem with my mother asking how much I like him is that being an honest woman I'd have to say Temporary Comfort - January 20, 2003 So that dream didn't come true which is good I wouldn't want to go through that nightmare again waiting for your return and meeting your family instead not being able to sit taking the news because I'm surrounded by you I breathed an invisible sigh of relief when it didn't come true does anyone else worry over you so much or am I just being a fool I hope nobody's up there laughing I'd hate for this situation to be proof of God's sadistic nature "The Day After One Hour-Long Conversation on Yahoo!Pager" - (December 4, 1998) All we have is: chatting together in private chat rooms at chance times whilst on-line telephone conversations with little "play fights" over who loves who more and being interrupted by a penny-pinching mother short e-mails so that the other can read them in his or her allotted time during our busy days letters that we barely have time to write barely have time to express all we feel towards one another on a couple sheets of stationary and one week breaks from the reality of a "starving student" using money we really can't afford to use to be in each other's arms once again this is my everyday pain All of my friends are hurting so much more than I am and, yet I feel selfish for having my own emotions Thoughts of Love - (December 3, 1996) I dream of a time when I will know what it's like to be loved to know the warmth love brings to have someone's arms around me to know that everything's gonna be all right nothing's gonna happen I want to know how it feels to go through life without tears I want to know le joie de vivre but I don't why not? What's wrong with me? Is it because I am not worthy of love I've been beaten up others have used my brain as a play-thing I've been disowned I've been called names rumors I've tried six times to kill myself I've been left behind friends are dying dropping like flies I've been kidnapped twice and with my suicide attempts if I can't love myself I am told how could others love me? And if that were true is there any point in my searching for love? please someone love me I promise I'll love you back please someone love me |
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