| Love Poetry - D |
| Desirable - August 7, 2001 I want you for all you are your butch attitude and the tears behind it the one spot delicate which I know about but never will completely get for the arguments we start over my insecurities I keep coming back to you because I know that your character your way of thinking your compassion and your huor will take me out of this shell just please don't leave before I'm out I need all you have to offer because I know you'll make me stronger and I won't be the bad idea I seem to have been and you won't either Division - May 23, 2001 I don't like men much and women right now are not at the top of my list why am I so needy for a relationship why do I feel so close when they feel so far I either find someone who's jealous or who takes her butch role too far or who can't communicate and when I think everything's fine whoever I'm with decides its' not it's odd how I felt of one mind and she made the individuality so distinct I'm confused I guess I listened when we talked and she brought up her concerns but maybe I have the wrong ears Don't Be Afraid - December 2, 2000 Don't be afraid I don't bite Unless you like that I love you I know that now At least, I love the you I know I want to know all of you Looks Touch Secrets Soul Past Future World I need to know I have to wait to see you in person to hold you and kiss you my Jennifer I hope you don't mind me calling you that you are not imprisoned unless you want to be either of us can leave at any time if that's a concern of yours |
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| Differences - February 20, 2001 sex is love sex is affection sex is monogamous free love love controls all love controls the heart When this discussion occurs I am afraid I will lose you but I feel that though we disagree on these we agree these thoughts are subjective I love you in my way You love me in yours And neither of us wants to lose the other Dive In - December 4, 2000 You want me to throw you into the water of my love to smother you with kisses drown you in my cleavage caress you till it chafes seranade you till you're deaf hug you till you break and make love till you're breathless? You who haven't hugged in one and a half years you who hasn't loved in five years you want me to show you I love you much like many babies are "taught" to swim they're tossed into the pool do you really want me to do the tossing or will you just dive in? I can't wait to find out your answer Dominoes � July 15, 2002 You have no idea how much I love you but there�s a block with all the complaining I feel that here�s another woman I can�t please I feel like a failure and want to throw in the towel it doesn�t mean you should never complain and I�m trying to be strong for you but I also have avoidance behaviors sleepiness and apathy which in the end make me look bad and I in turn feel bad and then repeat and so it goes don�t think I don�t care I act that way so I don�t destroy myself Drag - October 6, 1999 God, what an insensitive bastard I love Doesn't he know that swearing echoes the beatings I experienced and witnessed? Doesn't he know that the people he condems for being transgendered have probably been beaten, disowned, slashed for being what is natural to them? Doesn't he know that we should not be defined by gender roles? So, I'm not girly. Does that make me a freak? So I care and ask questions. But he dismisses them with "it's my fucking life." What have I gotten myself into? You think my concerns are stupid and so, belittle me I HAVE WORTH What if I were to walk around in suits, or in overalls with a tool belt? Is that MAN'S stuff? You're STRAIGHT. YOU have it easy. You're not told you'e going to Hell every day of your life. You're not denied housing. You're not denied jobs. You have it easy. I don't want to be labelled by GENDER and neither does he. You think he's a freak You insult one of my brothers or sisters, you insult me Do you even care about humanity? I don't know if I want to know you. As long as people are individuals within your confines of the word, it's ok. Bullshit. |